Im Adam

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Guide - How to take photos

Ok firstly I keep seeing that there is a lot of posts on here about people saying they look different in mirrors, firstly yes, your gonna look different its reversed, but that isn't the major factor, which is lighting. Were ever you are the lighting is forever changing and with that for some people can cause you too look different.

usually people look better under dim lighting, so if u have a room round your house, apartment, whatever go there and take a photo with the flash off (or on but I would suggest putting the camera further away if your gonna) I'm going to show you some of my examples of different lighting so you get what I mean, here is me in a dim lit room, the camera pretty far away but with the flash on..

http://i5.photobucket.com/albums/y175/leesa99/gp1.jpg
Notice I look ok skin wise...

Now camera flashes can either be great or sometimes they wash out stuff sometimes they highlight stuff. Again here are two pictures one is where the flash helps, the other, where it doesn�

http://i5.photobucket.com/albums/y175/leesa99/gp2.jpg
Washes out the marks on the side of my face

http://i5.photobucket.com/albums/y175/leesa99/gp3.jpg
Shows my scars a lot, looking real bad here:| might take this one down soon eh..

Now this image below is one with the flash off , this is basicly the same refection i see in the mirror at night, day-time is a diffrent story.

http://i5.photobucket.com/albums/y175/leesa99/gp4.jpg
See i look a hell of alot better, but note the grainy images not very good quality plus im acturly very far from the camera.

Ok now all the photos so far were taken with a digital cam, only 3mp (mega pixel) if u where to have a better camera they would show more detail which could make you look worse, bit like how all these film stars aren't so happy about HD due to them showing more of there flaws.

If you were to have a web cam or a mobile phone (though some of the new ones have some super cameras now) sometimes the quality isn't as good as an actual camera and often the image is more blurry which again can make you look better...

http://i5.photobucket.com/albums/y175/leesa99/ads.jpg
See; wish I did look like that.

Anyhow the whole point of this was mainly posting photos in the gallery, it all comes down to which photos out of the ones you take, are those that you think really do show what you look like, photos can be very deceiving, I and I'm sure many others have photos on here that make them look so much better then they really do, maybe at it would also be good to try and take ones that show you in not so good conditions to avoid being slated at what your doing on this site, its up to you to post what you wish to show about you appearance, for better or for worse.

So to finish off

If u want to look better in photos try the following;
- be further away from the camera when taking a photo
- Try havin the flash off.
- Take photos in a dim lit room.

Little Comments

Sometimes all i need as just alittle comment of anyone to get me really , i just got back from a friends, who said bye scarface when i went duno how to take stuff like that. I used to be alot better at dealing with negative comments much worser then this but over the years it just hurts more and more.

Adams acne / scars log..

Ok well im gonna start one of these though i should really have started one years ago, but hey no time like the present aye?

History

Firstly i joined this site some years ago now in 2004, as u can see im still a memeber here now. Since ive arived on this site my skin has improved steadly. When i was 12 i started breaking out really bad, by the time i was 13 it was full on severe (face) with plenty of cysts on my frace and neck. I also had some body acne which was moderate on my back and some on the top of my arms. I went to my doctors that year and was forwarded to a derm, he promptly wanted me to go onto acutane but i refused at the time i was turned of by the side effects and also want to comfy with blood tests, anyways he put me on topics all a type of antibiotics and i went back in 6 months. Not much improvement had happened if any, so over the next few years he kept on asking about tane i kept saying no ( i regret not taking it now, then i wouldnt have the scars i have today i dont think) this trend of going every 6 moths and being put on somthin diffrent, when i was around 15-16 he put me on minocyline (spelling?) this helped me alot and cleared alot of my cyst acne up, i was on it for around 6-7 months. Once i finished th course i was clearer then i had ever been but still with pretty moderate acne, which slowly has gone down for the last two to three years, i havent been to my derm since i was taken off minocyline as i was depressed at the time as by then yes my acne had clear some what by my scars where there in all there glory and i started not to bother about life or looking aftermyself that much. from then till now i still havnnt gone back to see my dermotologest, and i have been having my up and downs in and out of being very depressed.

some of my old pictures can be found in my gally

Life

This isnt really about life or what ever, but what i mean is becouse of all these skin troubles it was mainly how i felt about my skin that made me feel so down it was how others act or reacted to me with my skin, the insults and that throughtout school seriously got to me, just walking round town i would get insults of not just teens but adults too. I feel like im behind everyone else my age group socialy, i dont feel worthy to speak to people most the time, if some one is speaking to me im like 'why are u talking to me for?'. God this is really hard to explain so i hope u can some how understand where im coming from with this. When im out anywhere just a trip to town to go shoping or what have you, im always obsesing about how i look, if i see some one i know ill try my level best to avoid them, specialy people from school, when ever i see my reflection i check to see if i look some what ok. somtimes i can get really bad just walking bymyself round asda a few months back i was basicly in tears all worked up about it all. I hardly go out, like on a saturday day time go up town with a friend too look round just to get out the house, i also go out on sundays for football the rest of the week im at home just staying in away from people. I have never like been out on a night to clubs/pubs or anythin. Also im still very much on the thin side allthough i have been working on puting more weight on recently by eating more and weights, any tips or help on this would be greatfull, i plan on updating progress of this in this log too.

My skin as it is now

Well currently my skin on my face is pretty much clear just 2 or 3 pimples which is nothing, the probem i many have now is my scars, that seriously effect me. My neck has been very bad recently with very inflamed cysts about as seen in the pictured below. this has improved abit now and i shall post some new pictures in the next few days.

Heres some recent pictures.


At the moment im using BP just once a day at night time before i sleep to treat my neck/face as best i can, my neck has improved since these photos above and i will post pictures soon. I plan on trying needling first for my scars which i have been trying to do myself but i dont have the skill so im going to look and get a pro to do it, if that doesnt work im unsure what ill do as im not really feeling fillers as there not pernimant and cost alot.

rant, upset, whatever

Well ok at the moment im on a pretty major downer, i scived a day off 6form ( school/college whatever) for the first time in ages coz i was feelin so low about how i look. Firstly want to say sorry to those ive bin saying the problem isnt one or the they should be happy with what skin they have, its just really fustrasing seeing people here complairing over what seem little things compaire to my own, i know i shouldnt be compairing my own situation to others, but its hard not too. Im pissed off, upset, fed up with it all. I look at the scar gallery and im like im nearly the worse one in it. I just see everyone else on this site mostly people look like models.

I really just am totaly pissed off over how screwed up i am, fucked up, ugly, scared cheeks, face, whatever, My life is just a totaly .. fuck knows what im gonna do next year all my friends of to uni while i stay here and try and improve me skin or what not.. i seroiusly feel like just giving up at the moment, ive had enoght.

what did i do to get any of this.