My Boyfriend Doesn't Know...

" Hi everyone..I haven't been on here since Last May...

--Earlier of January this year I had a pretty bad break out..The worst since 17 (I am 21 now!!). It made me lose so much confidence, so much ambition, and VERY depressed!!!

--I came into this org to find so many compelling and envious stories. I stuck on here and read up on different types of regimens, read other people's stories..and even got support from many MANY awesome members......

HmMmM I don't know how ...but I am absolutely clear (In dying fear that i will break out again..BUT I AM READY "). Yet, I was left with a few scars ( I will not say they are bad ..because they are not), but i dwell on them. After a good 10 months of OBSESSING over your face..every Minute detail is a catastrophic FLAW!

Anywho Good news....I found a really good boyfriend over the summer!!!
He's absolutely Perfection! I have never felt so weak for a guy before........

--He thinks i am a "complete amazing beauty" <~~ he said that " haha

Sadly...it's a Long distance relationship (Met him when i was visiting another state).

-He doesn't get to see me very much (once every 6 weeks). When he does..I get so shy about taking off my make up!!!!
-Thing is...he DOESN'T know that i use to suffer with Acne (probably will continue to suffer with it). It kind of even BOTHERS me when he tells me I'm "pretty"/ "beautiful"...I get so iffy and shy about it.....I guess i lack LOTS of confidence??

--I am going to visit him this Thanksgiving..and he's so excited about showing me off to his friends....NERVOUS galore!! Because i don't think I am worthy of showing off?

Sigh** I shouldn't even be complaining huh? This is stupid of me..

Do you guys have this problem with your boyfriends??

Lengthening Your Lashes

OH MY MY!! I haven't been on this site for quite awhile..I cannot believe how awesome you guys are..and how well educated you all are in these spiffy little tips and tricks!!!!!

I always check acne.org before i do something!! YOU ALL ARE SO VERY HELPFUL AND AMAZING!!

Anywho..onto the topic.

I've been using Mavala Dual Lash for about 5 months now..I love it!! I think i got it for 16 bux online...and I still have tons of it left......My lashes are thicker and fuller..and even LONGER.

I have yucky short asian lashes btw....

BUT.....I love experimenting..I hear that sweeping olive oil with a mascara wand...can also thicken your lashes...true or false??

Why would i want to bail out on Mavala for olive oil? I don't..I just want to try something else..who knows I MIGHT GET EVEN MORE FAB RESULTS!!! "

Any thoughts on this???

once again u guys are AWESOME!! Wish i had time to be on here more..sigh*

PhotoPosting

Myspace is so mean and so cruel sometimes!! (remember that girl that got beat over myspace drama??)

I get the nerve to post photos of myself..and every time i do ..i get snickering and mean comments? (blah blah blah .....you don't look like that in real life)

but they are such SUCH SUCH idiots...they look at the photos i photoshop (because i simply love it..and it's truly and art to me ) and go "she's ugly in real life" WHAT THE FORK!!?!?? i'm sure angelina doesn't look like she does..nor does jessica simpson..that's why photoshop is there in the first place!!! GAHHH and it's even nerve racking when the captions says ..photoshop ..or even when it's in a seperate PHOTOSHOP FOLDER to make it clear that I did edit them..i'm NOT trying to pass it off as me....

I don't photoshop and take my own regular picture..and STILL GET MEAN COMMENTS??? "she doesn' t look like that in real life" " her face is gross..the camera did her justice" . This is so ridiculous because i NEVER NEVER EVER GO OUT..and those who are talking about my "face" don't EVER SEE ME OUTSIDE OF THE NET? Where is this all coming from! and why are people so mean..and i hate whining about it..cause i feel stupid ....but ahhhh it makes me mad..i want to post my photo up! because i WANT to build my own self confidence!! but people just keep freaking tearing it down.....gahhhhhhhhhh how are we suppose to be strong when even though we healed..negativity is still around us??? stupid stupid stupid..

whew..that feels good??

Lose Lose Situation??

Would you rather have acne..and be depress...or go on accutane w/ the chances of depression???

--me..either way i will be depress..so i rather be depress w/o acne..than with it...the main reason why i might have a slight amount of depression IS DUE TO ACNE!!...so who knows...

what about you guys?

Women and their dirty looks

HmMm i work at the mall and i am alway standing around in the hall way saying hi to people..(this mall is so scarce..it's on the verge of getting shut down....)

I don't realize this..but the guy that works across the hall from me..we are like gossip buddies..and every now and then when a few girls would walk by..they would give me very very very dirty looks...hateful..mean looks...(i don't notice this..but my guy friend points it out to me..)

I always feel like dirty looks from women are like razor blades..they cut right through you...and they kind hurt...and whats worse is....the dirty look..the turn over and whisper to a friend..and the friend gives the same dirty look....

it's truly annoying and i don't think what is the big deal!?!?!?

you guys ever gotten dirty looks? and what do you think when they give you these evil wretched stares?

gahhhhhh!!