whats the most important thing u'v missed out on

I think it was my grandpas funeral 2 yrs ago, i was in the worst shape ever and i can clearly remember it, i was a heaps worse picker than now and i picked my whole face off and my face was full of scabs and shit. it was horrible.
so i didnt go, my mum suffers from this thing where she cant go where there are alot of people so she missed out on going 2 her fathers funeral which is heaps worse i guess, but i still feel bad for not going .
I used the excuse "im going 2 stay with mum because shes upset". im selfish.

online relationships

yes well i been tlking 2 this guy 4 2-3 months and he reallllllllly likes me and said he luved me the other day, i was a bit but accepted it but never said it bak, i jus said i liked him.
anyways he wanted 2 meet 2day and he was waiting for my call last nite to see what was happening, i didnt call, and made up some stupid excuse tonight about not having fone credit and having to go somewhere today. he was really pissed of and upset.
he said he was a fool for falling for everything and i played him and he said he doesnt want to tlk 2 me anymore.
this sux i hate u acne.

my face and neck are 2 totally different colors !

I have a pale yellow toned skin, well i used 2 anyway, now only my neck is still yellow tone, and my face is red and pink i think its coz of all the products and bp, will it ever go bak 2 normal?

i hate my mum right now

My face has started clearing up for some reason, So i have recently changed the way i do my makeup (foundation) for the past 4 years i have been a cake face, which i hated it took so long to apply so much foundation to cover whole face, and it wastes so much makeup where i dont need it, and i am now sick of it so i decided to only apply foundation on my marks and a few pimples.
2 days ago i went to the hairdresser for the first time in sooooo long, and for me it took so much guts coz i hate the mirrors and lights etc, but i got my hair cut and dyed.
my mum said the hair colour is to dark and makes my marks stand out more, then she changed it and said no wait, its because your not doing your makeup right, and i said i can't be bothered, then she called my lazy and i was like and now i ran to my room crying, i'm doing this for the better, makeup ruined my face so much and now im starting to clear up and feel less FAKE like this, but she doesnt like it. i hate her.
she said people can't see me done up nicely one day then be ugly the next time they see you ahhhhhhh what do i do.
i was feeling so good and now i feel like shit again.

omg whiteheads everywhere!!

i dont know why i have soo many right now, im so sick of this. i only ever get whiteheads now, there so gross i just popped about 8 of them coz they were like volcanos.
maybe i been exfoliating 2 much?