Alesse/Avaine

*sigh* i tried avaine (generic for alesse) it gave me the worst acne breakout ive ever had. before this horrible bcp i would only get a break out (1 or 2 pimples is what i USED to consider a breakout) every so often. I took it only for 3 weeks (im 5'4 and 115lbs) and in the first week i was wondering why my skin was getting worse!! i called the NP who prescribed me this and she said that i was having a reaction to the estrogen...and that it may go away. After much research i discovered that i was having a REACTION TO THE PROGESTIN LEVONORGETREL WHICH IS MODERATE TO HIGHLY ANDROGENIC which causes acne and hair growth!!!!! so here after 3 weeks of stopping this pill im still breaking out...im fairskinned and scar easily so its been really devistating to me. ive experienced cystic acne that i have never had and many pimples and whiteheads around my jaw and sides of my chin. ive only had to deal with this a short while, but ...man o man, i respect anyone who has had to deal with acne for a long time. does anyone have any suggestions for me? i dont handle birth control well. everyone ive tried has given me bad side effects (mircette, yaz, ortho evra made me anxious with chest pains and shortness of breath. depo made me very very irregular even though i only had one shot, i also think it made my hair thinner and dry. i have 3 packs of ortho lo sitting on my dresser, but im terrified to do anything. ive been reading a lot and recently started using benzamycin gel at night, during the day i use 2.5 benzol proxide under my tinted moisturizer (which i never had to wear before the scars) and cleanse with purpose with a few drops of tea tree oil am and pm. ive started taking a multi vitamin with all the good stuff that is supposed to help with acne and then extra vit c, a,e, and omega 3. ive also started running to get this toxin out of my body and i drink loads of water and eat super healthy now. lol this has to be hormonal right? i cant get a derm appt for 2+ months. should i just let my hormones regulate? try the otc lo? i read that saw palmetto is an anti androgen....should i take that before maybe asking the dr for spiro?

i used to feel so beautiful and get compliments on my skin. i hate wearing a lot of face makeup. i used to be able to to go to bed without washing my face... i feel like everyone is looking at it. i hate leaving the house sometimes...it sucks...

i cant wait to feel beautiful again. *sigh*

Help, im desperate and depressed

okay, heres my deal: ive never had any issues with my skin except a pimple here or there around my period. about a year ago (aug 08) i got injected with depo...my skin still remained pretty normal, nothing dramatic, but i didnt like the shot because my period was extremely irregular so i never got it again. in the beginning of april my face started to break out a little in the chin area but i didnt really think of it because it wasnt that bad. every month to follow my broke out a little more here and there. last month it broke out somewhat badly so i decided to go back on bcp. ive been on alesse for about 3 weeks and my skin broke out worse than its ever in my whole life...i feel hopeless and depressed and cry a lot. i dont wanna go anywhere or even see my boyfriend. i even went and bought proactiv. is this a worse before better trial? its killing me to look in the mirror. i am now starting the non hormone week and if it gets better, im stopping all together. i dunno what to do, should i continue on...help im so desperate and sad about this....HELP