Incredibly rough weekend

Guys I know I'm supposed to be brave and hold my head up and embrace life inspite of my acne and pain. And believe me I try though I don't ignore the pain. But some days it's just overwhelming. And it's like the years of pain kind of hit you and knock your feet from under you and you can't say all the right things and pretend to be ok. And you feel weak. And you just cry and cry and cry.

So I guess I'm feeling really low. I moved half way across the country and am in college and love college. I've said elsewhere about singing on stage since I was five and then my father kicking me out and telling me many times of my ugliness and worthlessness. He was/is so ashamed of me and who I am and what I am doing with my life.

So this weekend he was lecturing on music in a nearby state. I am trying to build a relationship with him inspite of the incredible pain. So I went to surprise him. And I guess right now I just feel so overwhelmed with the pain-he is so dissapointed in me, so ashamed of me as his daughter. At one time I could hold my anger at him as a sort of protection against the pain. But I want to have a relationship with him, and I guess when you're so vulnerable, you get hit down so hard you don't know if you can get up again.

I guess I need some support. I made an unsuccessful attempt and had not tried that for a long long time. I want to embrace hope and move on. But right now it looks pretty black.

Makeup Removers

So I wear makeup a lot. But I have such a hell of a time with removers. Everything I try just tears my skin to bits and irritates it horribly. Is there anything out there that is gentle but would still remove makeup effectively?

Has anyone tried oatmeal as a face mask?

I've heard so much lately about oatmeal masks being good for your face. Has anyone tried it for a long period of time and gotten results? I tried it a little and it sort of dried out my skin but seemed to take some of the inflamation away. But I am a little scared because I have such sensitive skin and have to be really careful what I do. Thanks for any input.

New and scared

So I've been hangin around this site for a couple weeks but haven't been brave enough to try the Regiem. Ya know when you've had uncontrollable acne and been scammed a million times in the search for healing, you start losing courage. I just wonder if this stuff really works. I'd like to try it but I'm scared too. I have really sensitive skin that just goes crazy at the least bit of irritation. My bout with acne started 6 years ago when I went on a drug that had the most horrendous side effects including acne. I haven't been able to control it since though I've tried everything from prescription drugs to herbs to diet to the whole works. God if I just knew after all this suffering that there could be healing. But with such sensitive skin I don't know if I dare try this for fear of horrible inflamation. Can somebody help? Thanks