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  1. Today marks my 11th day on Claravis 30mg twice a day. It also marks the fourth day in my period and my skin is basically undergoing anarchy. I have spots down my cheeks, on my chin, on my jawline, and between my eyebrows. Alongside the spots is pretty significant dryness. I have work tonight and am dreading going. I will post a picture. To be fair, my skin is not much worse than my skin normally is on my period, but the dryness and redness are not making it look very pretty. I also noticed that, with the dryness, my makeup is doing a terrible job of covering my skin.
    Symptoms: Dryness of pimples, dryness of nose, dryness of lips, dryness of skin, headache, nausea, increased appetite (period), fatigue 
    Diet: About one liter of water so far, two cups of coffee, chicken fajitas with corn tortillas, a few spoonfuls of Ben and Jerrys "The Tonight Dough" ice-cream (sorry not sorry)
    Products: Neutrogena Deep Moisture face lotion, Cetaphil daily cleanser, Clarins spot concealer, Clarins powder foundation, Clarins bronzer, Josie Marin highlighting powder





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    My face is a total mess. It has erupted in huge painful lumps all over. I want to stay hidden inside. Thank God it's half term and I don't have to show my face at the kids school. I am sure people must think I am on drugs or something it's so gross. My 12 year old says that I think it looks worse than it is as he doesn't really notice that much until I point it out he said. I just think he is being kind! Under my jaw and on my neck at the top is the worse. I am loosing faith and I want to up my dose now. Another 6 or so weeks till I see the Dermatologist. Oh, and my lip has split again in a different place and it is quite painful.

  3. Can't believe it's been 4 weeks already! 

    Just two days under a month and i'm really happy with my skin the past few days. 

    This cheek in particular has cleared up loads and is a lot less red than when I compare it to pictures I took a month ago! 

    This cheek is always the worst with my acne but I can also see an improvement here when I compare it to a month ago. 


  4. Today is not a good day for my skin I had a major breakout Tuesday morning and of course today I decided to mess with it and of course knowing I shouldn't I still did. And now it's a mess. I thought I was done with my cystic acne but I guess not yet.image.jpeg

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    Wednesday 5/25/2016
    Morning supplements:
    After I eat breakfast...
    (1) Dr Mercola probiotic capsule Dr Mercola Probiotics
    (2) Dr Mercola Spiru-Blue with Astaxanthin. Dr Mercola Spiru-Blue
    (2) PCOS Diva Essentials PCOS Diva Essentials

    After I eat dinner...
    (1) Dr Mercola probiotic capsule
    (2) Dr Mercola Spiru-Blue
    (2) PCOS Diva Essentials

    30 minutes before bed
    (2) Ashwagandha BRI Ashwagandha

    I get up at 6am. Apparently if you get up/go to sleep the same time everyday it helps regulate your hormones (by regulating your cortisol levels).
    Upon rising, I take a quick drink of water. If I don't, my throat will be super dry and I'll be totally uncomfortable. Then, I scrape my tongue with Dr. Tung's Stainless Steel Tongue Scraper. Then I swish Coconut oil, Dr Bronner's Coconut Oil in my mouth for 20 minutes or so. Once I'm done with that, I spit my used coconut oil in my "to-be-composted" bag and scrape my tongue again (after I wash & clean the scraper of course - with Dr Bronners Citrus Castille soap and hot water) then proceed to brush my teeth with my homemade toothpaste. I actually just made this paste yesterday after using "Desert Essence Tea Tree Neem toothpaste" for a few months. The paste is made up of coconut oil, baking soda, and about 8 drops of peppermint oil. I have a small mason jar I mixed the three ingredients in and it stays next to the sink.

    Then, I drink a 8 oz mug of warm water and a squirt of freshly squeezed lemon juice. Then I drink an 8 oz mug of room temperature water with my psyllium husk fiber (The one I'm currently using is from my local Sprouts Farmers Market Sprouts Psyllium Husk 'steam treated'). I actually purchased Organic India's Psyllium husk fiber and once I'm done with Sprouts I will use Organic India's.

    Then I try and wait at least 10 minutes to eat something but in the morning rush it's already about 6:45am when I finish my lemon water/fiber drink. 

    **EDIT** Side note: Throughout the work day, from 8:30am - 5:30pm I drink 1600mL, or 3 PT, or whatever the hell two VOSS glass (large) water bottles equals. One is filled with purified water with a squirt of homemade himalyan pink sea salt sole, and about a half a lemon squeezed into it. The other one has a tablespoon of apple cider vinegar and sole. I drink tea at night when I'm home.

    Today's meal was:
    SNACKING! While making my chia pudding to eat at work...I had a few pinches of Bob's Red Mill Unsweetened Coconut shreds. And about a handful of Organic Blueberries from a local farm. By the way my Chia pudding's ingredients are about 2 tablespoons of Chia Seeds hydrated with water (let it sit for about 10 minutes and mix) then I add a heaped tablespoon of raw cacoa powder Pure Natural Miracles Raw Organic Cacoa Powder and mix it in really well. Then to save space, I just throw a handful of Blueberries into the Pyrex bowl and add some of the Unsweetened Coconut shreds and a couple shakes of Organic Cinnamon Simply Organic Cinnamon.

    For my actual breakfast, I ate at about 7am: 1 butter-y fried egg (on my 5th burner grill) with Simply Organic's Turmeric shook all over it and Pink Himalayan Sea Salt and fresh cracked black pepper. I put it on 2 leaves of organic Romaine lettuce and a scoop of Bubbie's Sauerkraut Bubbie's Sauerkraut. I actually get mine at a local store here, Gelson's. I have not tried to make sauerkraut myself just yet but it's on my list of things to do.

    Then, I eat a quarter pound of Alaskan Salmon ($20/lb it's CRAZY!!!)  I bake in the oven at 450 degrees after I smother some Dr B's coconut oil on it and shake some Hickory Texas Rub (Dan Pastorini's Hickory Seasoning) onto it and bake for about 30 minutes. I like my fish COOKED, don't judge me. About 5 minutes before it's done I heat up some left over steamed organic cauliflower and organic curly kale on the 5th burner grill slab looking thing and put a lid on it to steam it up. Then I just grab the filet and put it on top of my vegetables.

    Then, I leave for work at 8am and won't eat my next snack/meal until about 10:30am. I do struggle with insulin resistance so I've got to make sure I eat every 2-3 hours. My snack is usually 4 thin raw carrots and one medium cucumber. For lunch at about 12:30 or 1pm, I have 2 oven baked (450 degrees for 30 minutes) chicken tenders and a large mixture of Spring mix, romaine lettuce and broccoli sprouts. I make my own salad vinaigrette that has 3 ingredients. 1 part Bragg's Apple cider vinegar to 3 parts Extra Virgin Olive Oil. And however much crushed raw garlic I feel like.

    Then my most anticipated snack is at 3pm or so, and that is my chocolate chia pudding blueberry masterpiece! Then at either 3:30pm or 4pm I take a walk around the block which is between 1-2 miles (I use the FREE "Walk for a Dog" tracker which donates money for every mile you walk and helps you track your speed/how far you walked-- I have two pitbulls and a rottweiler so when we hike I love to track/donate to our local shelter. It's an all around good cause)

    Dinner ranges in what I eat but it's usually some sort of meat and vegetables. I do not eat grains or dairy. When I get home it is 6pm, so I try to do some dishes, make some food to eat for dinner, and prepare food for the next day. I drink spearmint tea (helps lower testosterone levels) and dandelion root tea/milk thistle tea for my liver/kidneys.

    I will have to edit this blog again later tonight to report what I put ONTO my existing blemishes.
    I truly believe my skin issues are coming from a disturbed gut imbalance and my hormonal imbalances.


  5. As evidenced in my last post, I’ve smeared a lot of crap on my face. But, what do I use now? And do I like it?




    1. I wake up, pissed off because I haven’t figured out a way to safely inject coffee into my blood stream.
    2. Shuffle to bathroom. Shuffle to closet. Shuffle to dresser. Forget what I was doing. Groan.
    3. Wash with Cetaphil Gentle Skin Cleanser.


    • Okay, so let’s be honest. I bought the knockoff Wal-Mart Equate Skin Cleanser and I honestly am not too thrilled with it. It’s too thin and watery. While cleansers shouldn’t produce a ton of foam or have 10,000 scented scrub beads, I think this cleanser is too simple for my taste. Alas, I am cheap as hell and will use it until it runs out, at which I will replace it with something else.


    4. Apply CeraVe AM Moisturizer.


    •  This is a brand new product that has been added this week. It has some great “features”—including the all important SPF and also niacinamide to reduce redness. Before, I was applying the PM version (despite its name, perfectly acceptable for AM as well.) I will say the AM has that sunscreen smell, but it doesn’t particularly bother me. The thing that I’m not sold on just yet is its consistency. I find it very thick, hard to spread, and I’m not sure how great it’s doing at moisturizing. But I need a sunscreen to protect my red marks from getting darker, so if anything I might just combine this with some plain Cetaphil moisturizer I already have.


    5. Maybe put a dab of benzoyl peroxide or clindamyacin gel on any doozy of a zit and let everything dry before applying makeup.



    1. Realize it’s way past my bedtime.

    2. Curse self for staying up late as I always do.

    3. Wash face (usually in shower) with same Cetaphil cleanser from morning routine.
    4. Dry face and apply CeraVe PM. 


    • Love this product. It’s smooth, it’s creamy…wait, am I describing ice cream or a face moisturizer? My bad. But really, I love the texture of this and it does a great job. At first, I was a bit worried that it wasn’t as great as I was  expecting because it doesn’t make your face look or feel like an oil slick, but I now realize that’s a good thing. I think adding this product is a big help in the reduction of redness I see in my scars/pigmentation issues.


    5. Apply benzoyl peroxide gel and let dry completely before going night-night.


    • Man, this stuff sucks and is awesome at the same time. I was using free samples of EpiDuo for a while and for some reason, that didn’t dry out my skin like straight up BP does. At least, I think that’s what my current issue is. My BP is only 2.5% but it has dried out my face the past couple of nights.


    Uhhhh, I don’t know. Can I phone a friend? The cysts continue to stay at bay which I am very happy about. The CeraVe PM and BP have helped the redness in my post inflammatory marks. I only have two lumps on my face that just appeared yesterday that are deep and might be potential cystic acne. I hope it’s not caused by the addition of my CeraVe AM moisturizer, but I suppose I will keep an eye on them and use it as a judgment of how my skin is. If they go away quickly then I guess that’s a good thing! I just have to resist the urge to pick and poke them :( 

    Around my mouth and near my chin is very dry and flaky. I don’t know why to be honest, but when I applied the CeraVe AM moisturizer for the first time the other day, my face lit up bright red and near my eyes was stinging. Has been happening for the past three days, so I have held off on using the BP. I hope that goes away once my skin has adjusted.

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    Day 4 of the following regimen:
    GloTherapeutics Daily Polishing Cleanser (Salicylic Acid) - 2x
    GloTherapeutics Anti-Blemish Treament (BP) - 2x
    Dermalogica Active Moist (moisturizer) - 2x
    Innate Skin Clear Vitamin Pack (only 2nd day of this)

    In a moment of panic, I purchased the DKR set last night (and AHA). I used it years ago and it worked great and then it stopped working at some point. But I've always had good results with BP. And though I like my regimen, I feel like the wash & treatment together is very harsh; my face feels very dry/is peeling--but I guess that's expected.

    Several pimples were 'ready' to be popped so I did that. (I'm sure I should wait for them to pop on their own but I can't.) Several pimples still hanging around. Had to leave the house for a meeting today. Feeling bummed but optimistic. 

    What are your thoughts on the DKR regimen vs something that also includes salicylic acid? 

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    Hello hello hello!
    I just started my 3rd month of accutane about a week and a half ago now. Now, I will say I have had a couple breakouts here and there... but I think it's my fault not the medicines. I went on a trip and wasn't as consistent about taking it and may have drank a bit more than I usually do (whoops). Other than that, my skin looks fantastic! It is a bit red from being so dry, but I think it's kinda a nice change from my usual overly white skin and is nothing I can't fix with some tinted moisturizer. 
    At my last appointment, they told me I won't need to get my blood drawn next time because my liver isn't showing any signs of being affected from the medication, so yay! This could be due to my lifestyle, genetics, or just the fact that my doc picked a good level of mg and won't be changing my dose any time soon. She said usually when people start on a certain dose and then change to a lower or higher dose, they tend to have more issues/breakouts/etc. So that's something to keep in mind if you plan on using accutane. 
    As for the sun, I have been pretty good so far about using sunscreen. I have a long commute and put it on before I drive both ways... I know that sounds silly, but I did notice one day when I hadn't, that my skin looked a little burned. Especially on this drug,  even slight sun damage can really harm your skin, and my mom had skin cancer... so I will stick with my current habits. 
    My skin routine has stayed the same as in my previous posts. I think it's working rather well... so far a little dry and flaky, but not near as horrible as I thought it would be. Had a little bit of eczema on my arms, but used some cortisone and extra lotion for a few days and that helped. 

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    So on Thursday I will have been applying isotrex for 6 weeks. 

    Firstly, I've had a couple of compliments like 'Your skins looking good!' this week, as we all know this is bitter sweet, an acne sufferer can never accept that compliment. In my head i just think 'does it really though? would you be happy with this skin? do you see anyone else around here with a face that looks dirty?', as ungrateful and self absorbed that is. Anyway, I can say my skin is looking a lot better than last week, one of my cheeks has no inflamed acne just a few spots flattening from last week. The patch where acne was the worst on the other cheek looks better too, although the same little spots seem to keep resurfacing. 

    I have 3 whiteheads on my chin that won't be squeezed, so not sure what to do about them. Also my forehead bumps appear to have flattened a little bit but I'm not sure if this is just how it seems with the actual physical gel on top of them. So the verdict is, think I'm seeing improvements but don't want to speak to soon. 

    Also been putting the gel on my back, the areas i can reach are significantly awful so I'm concluding this is because my back is so spotty the purging is still continuing. 

    My favourite thing about this gel so far is that it seems to reduce a spot in size over night! But it also is likely to reappear the next week, so not sure about that.

    I haven't had any extortionate dryness with isotrex, but in the last few days the burn after i put it on is awful!! For a couple of seconds my face throbs and stings, but then this completely goes. 

    Will keep updating!!! 

  8. I have been on a healthy eating kick since about January and have lost about 30lbs since then. That being said, I was on a mini vacation this last Thurs-Monday and I was NOT good at all lol.. between eating JUNK and drinking a lot of alcohol my body freaked out. Not only did I run into stomach issues but my chin broke out too. It affected me more than I thought it would! I had these five huuuuge cyst/nodules on my face in the MIDDLE of a bachelorette weekend. And of course I was picking at them and loading them with product to no avail. It was one of those things you had to leave alone and let it do it's thing. It killed my confidence. Luckily I already had a derm apt for yesterday to check on my progress with Spiro. The new doctor I found and loved actually left the practice so they set me up with one of their PAs and she is so awesome! She asked me about my chin and suggested some Cortisone shots to just tame this breakout and move on. I had never gotten them before and was worried about pain and cost but it turns out my insurance covered it (something about the way it is billed.. I don't know the specifics). The pain wasn't bad either. And, I am very happy with the results. Here are some pics.

    This was right before she injected me. For some odd reason my phone makes it look less intense than what it really was.

    This was a few hours after


    And this was this morning.. Not bad!


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    Skipped a day because skin was pretty much the same. I noticed that I don't have any huge pimples on my cheeks anymore but i do have a lot of those flesh colored bumps and small whiteheads all over. My forehead still has those 4 huge pimples on it though ugh. I wish there was a magical way for them to be gone by Thursday because it's my cousins graduation. Oh well, one can pray and hope lol

  9. I seem to have been blessed with the ability to not let the few comments I've heard about my skin remotely effect my self confidence since my first breakout 18 months ago. In fact, I've actually been described as cocky or arrogant more times than I have spots so I could probably afford to lose a little confidence. It could just be because I'm so positive I don't get dragged down by negative comments or maybe I simply have a very thick skin (lol) so I'm not bothered. Whatever the reason is, I've never let negative comments get me down; until now.

    Up until this point my dermatologist has suggested multiple times that I try Accutane but I have always been hesitant due to the many horror stories and restrictions that come attached to this drug. I mean, what if I want to become 17 year old pregnant guy in the near future? If I start taking 'Tane that dream will never be a reality unless I want to end up with a child that looks like I made it with a close relative (yes, that was an incest joke). However, due to one poorly thought out acne joke from a friend of mine in a group chat of 13 people I changed my mind. The impossible guy-babies can wait, this issue needs to be sorted out now.

    Now you may have totally different reasons for wanting to go on Accutane. Perhaps you were (or still are) getting bullied for because of a few spots. Or maybe you just have a weird fetish for shedding your skin in a snake-like fashion (whatever floats your boat). The reason I'm finally taking this drug is to eliminate my only real insecurity. A number of things may happen after this experience: I could become very humble and thankful for not having any other health issues or I could simply implode into a huge black hole of arrogance (and hopefully suck my stupid joke-making friend in to!). Whatever the outcome, follow my blog over the next few months to find out. The Accutane train has left the station.

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    Because this is, you probably know already what this post is all about.

    I’ve been lurking in this site for a year now and it helped me quite a lot to understand my condition. And it also made me realize that I’m not alone in this battle.

    I am Asian (just so you know) and I’ve been struggling with acne since when I was 15 and I have on and off relationship with acne. I’ve been battling it for 6 years now. I never really talked about how my acne made me feel and how it affects my life to anyone, not even my parents. Well, I tried to once but they shrugged it off saying that I shouldn’t make a big deal out of it because, well, it’s just “acne”. It’ll go away. Somehow. Someday. But it didn’t.

    In retrospect, I wasn’t really the type who cares about how they look. I never really paid attention to my appearance. That was when I had a clear face. My first pimple was during my junior year, it was a large, cystic, puss-filled helluva pimple on my nose and I remembered one of my classmate saying it was “gross” and that I should pop it and all. But I still did not pay attention to it because it’s just one pimple anyway. But that ”single” pimple turned into “many” pimples when I reached senior year. Mostly on my nose and cheeks. That was that time where my self-esteem dropped from low to nothing. I couldn’t even look people in the eyes because I’m so embarrassed. So my mom decided to consult a dermatologist. He injected and popped my pimple and it was really painful. But I couldn’t careless, I wanted to be bumps-free. Haha. He said that the cause of my acne is genetic because my father used to have it when he was young. He prescribed me tretinoin and clindamycin toner and some expensive soap and I used it religiously. And voila! My pimples were gone. I finally had clear skin for a year till my graduation so I got lazy taking care of my skin because I thought it was gone forever. And boy I couldn’t be any wrong.

    Just when I thought I’m free from all this acne-hellish experience, it visited again and it came back with a vengeance. It was before I entered college and it was worse than my first break out. This one was the “all-over-your-face” kind that you’d rather be headless than be seen like that. I remember having my ID picture taken and I looked like a zombie with a rotting face. Hell, zombies in walking dead looked better than me. No kidding.

    I went back to my dermatologist and he prescribed me the same medication. I actually thought it would help me again but it made my already acne-infested face worse. It made my face red and my pimple worse. So I stopped using anything. I stopped caring and clung to this hope that “this, too, shall pass”. Like my parents always told me when I try to complain to them. I endured all the remarks people told me on my face about being gross and ugly. Good thing I had some good friends who didn’t judge me. But I can still remember how low I felt during those times. I always cried myself to sleep. I couldn’t bring myself to look in the mirror because all I see was how monstrous acne made me looked. It affected me so much that I couldn’t even bring myself to attend classes anymore. I cut classes and stayed at home. My parents didn’t know about it because I knew that if I tell them they wouldn’t understand how much courage it takes to expose yourself to everyone looking like that and spend your whole day being judged by everyone. Because everyone thinks they are entitled to treat anyone with flaws like shitbags. And I ran out of courage. I couldn’t last a day without one person or two calling me “ugly”. I felt inferior. I felt alone.

    Acne affected not only my grades and social life but destroyed my confidence entirely. I used to have tiny spot of self-esteem and acne was like a bomb that destroyed what’s left of it. But it gave me a different perspective about life; about everything, actually. I learned that your appearance will affect how people will treat you. You may think I’m just saying this because I’m a ugly-bitter hag but trust me, that’s the ugly truth. And I learned it the hard way.

    It was during my second year of college that I was able to just accept my fate and just live with this acne. I was able to ignore every ridicule from my surroundings and live my pathetic life. Haha. I only treat my acne with toothpaste and some lemon juice. It didn’t do much but that’s all I’ve got. And I got traumatized by my money-hungry dermatologist with his expensive treatments that no longer worked for me. My face was red and bumpy and cyst-filled all over during those times. I wish I had pictures to show you how worse I looked but I had phobia with cameras back then hahaha. I used to have short hair back then and a classmate of mine always called me “snowhite with pimples”.

    Then my cousin from Australia introduced me to proactive. She came to Philippines for a short vacation and was horrified with my face when she saw me, adding my very nice brother’s remark that “there’s no help for her”. Well I’m pretty much numb already so I didn’t care that much. She told me that she suffered from acne herself and gave gave me her set of proactive. And I used it because wth I have nothing to lose anyway. And like some kind of miracle it worked for me. Except from occasional few pimples and acne marks, my face, for the first time in years, looked okay. I used it routinely until summer of my second year. During that time I was completely clear of acne with just few acne marks left. I wanted to get rid of the marks so I searched online and I found a very cheap product that has Hydroquinone-Tretinoin combination called “rdl baby face”. By using the right amount, it worked wonders for my skin. My friends, classmates and mostly everyone around me noticed how my face improved and compliment me. It was the best feeling.

    I was in my 3rd year of college then and I had clear skin. I started really taking good care of my skin. I felt normal. People started treating me normal. I gained a lot of friends. Some people even called me pretty. But I didn’t feel that way. Acne had left me emotionally scarred.

    After a year of clear-faced life, my acne came back. again. My topical medication stopped working. No surprise there, though. My acne loved me so much it couldn’t afford to leave me forever. Hahaha.

    This time, it wasn’t that worse. I just suffered from moderate acne. Probably because I was in so much stress with academic stuff and I had my internship. Too much stress plus no sleep. A perfect recipe to make a  pizza-face. Lol. I research more to try to understand my acne. I used neutregena, Clearasil and a bunch of other facial cleanser, to no avail. I muster some courage and convinced my mom to bring me to another dermatologist and she prescribed me antibiotics and erythromycin gel. It didn’t do anything. I was back to zero. I remember looking at my pictures when I had clear skin and cry. I was depressed, stressed and had low confidence again.

    Then I stumbled upon this website and I learned about benzoyl peroxide. The same bp in proactive that cleared my face once. So I followed the regime and I was able to maintain my acne since then. I still have few pimples on my face and a few breakouts but all in all it wasn’t that worse compared to before. My acne is a persistent type. But I became an expert with this kind of thing I can pass as my own dermatologist.

    I decided to make my first ever blog because I want to document everything from now on. And if I ever manage to find a regime or a permanent cure for acne, I’ll post it here to be of help to others having the same problem as mine.

    And yeah I figured my first entry is too long but this is my first blog about acne and I want to be as detailed as I can about what I’ve been through.

    It’s been a hell of a bumpy road for me. No pun intened.


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    I currently have a ginormous cyst on my chin. -_-
    I look like a witch.

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    A few new breakouts. However, my left cheek seems to be in the process of clearing up. Some dryness by the chin area.

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    What do you say or do when people point out a big cyst or pimple..advice?

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    So I went to a dermatologist and was prescribed doxycycline. I have been taking it for 1 month and while there is improvement, I am still getting cysts. I cannot take it anymore! I don't understand why I am still getting cysts, and was wondering how many months it takes for the cysts to stop coming? Anyone who has taken doxy, I would love to hear your experience with it!

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    This is my update after completing my first week on the regimen. Before starting the first week I had about 4-5 cystic acne pimples along my jaw on the right side of my face, and the left side was relatively clear. I had a few small blemishes on my forehead also. The first day, my skin felt very dry and itchy. When I woke up for day two, I could see my pimples flaking up as if they were literally being dried up. This gave me a lot of of hope, and by day 3, the majority of my acne pimples except for my cystic acne had reduced in size. On day 4, I got another outbreak, with most of the acne being cystic in nature. I was very disappointed because they were huge on my face, but on day 7, most of the outbreak had also subdued. I'm now on the third day of the second week. Week 2 update to come soon. 

  10. Back at the derm's today. Saw the nice consultant rather than my usual one today (not that my usual one is horrid - just more 'mechanical' rather than caring).
    I wasn't entirely honest about how exhausted I am and the extent of my bruises.. I just didn't want them to say I had to stop or anything and my blood tests are all fine so guessing it's nothing serious and it's nothing that I can't cope with, I just seem to stay awake in the evenings!
    I did have a lovely talk with a young girl who seems to be there every time I go. It was good to talk to someone who is going through the same treatment and has the same insecurities etc, she is the first person I have ever talked to about it other than on here!

  11. To make it through the day. Struggling to see the point anymore guys. I feel horrible and ugly all the time, I hate my skin and I hate my body. My joint pains worse right now getting xrays next week but I may need surgery.

    So on top of having shit skin and shit feet like wtf? Why am I actually here? I don't know anymore  man, I do know I'm very very depressed though and feel like a burden. I've been using isotrex for 10 weeks now and it's done fuck all. I am actually considering a birth control pill. I'd take accutane if there was a guarantee that my joint pain would not get worse, but there's no guarantee.  

  12. I dont want to meet anyone because im so embarrassing. 
    My face is completely terrible.its look like sunburn but even worst. 
    The acne is still there and dont have any far improvement .
    I try so hard to stay positive but Im losing my patient :( 

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    Aches and pains have subsided. Break out on forehead and cheeks - but I know and accept this needs to happen. 3 cysts have formed on my chin around the area where there was one sitting there for months. Quite painful and just not very nice to feel.

    Day 9
    Breakout continuing - noticing a few new blackheads pop up around nose area. Also noting that a lot of whiteheads are forming. Still finding that my skin is not drying up? Still very oily and so am wondering how long it takes for the accutane to properly kick in.

    Day 10
    Am feeling quite down about the breakout today. It seems that each morning I wake up to a few more new spots. I saw my reflection in the my car window today in the sun and it was not a nice feeling! Am trying to let the initial breakout dampen my spirits - this is part of the process and shall pass.. Keep reminding myself this can only get better. Noticed small dry skin on the edges of my mouth before I went to bed - wiped these away and skin was generally okay after that.

    Day 11
    Breakout is continuing - noticing that the spots are leaving behind red marks. In terms of my skin generally, have noticed that its starting to feel a little scaly however still oily. Odd! My lips are not overly dry but I am keeping them well moisturised with shea butter which seems to be doing the trick for now. Joints are very achey today but I am putting that down to a 5km run I did yesterday - hope the pain subsides soon!

    Day 12
    The spots seem less inflamed and red today - I am hoping they have peaked and will now die down. It looks a lot worse than it is because there are small spots on my forehead, cheeks, chin and jawline. My lips are starting to feel more dry today, not peeling yet but just dry so I am applying plenty of shea butter. Something I noticed today was that I last washed my hair 3 days ago yet my hair is not greasy! Normally it would be greasy by the third day but no, my hair looks as though I washed it yesterday. Hurray - looks like we are on to our first plus point re: accutane!!!! :)

  14. Hello guys, 

    Sorry for the super late blog! I am happy announce that I am on my last week of accutane! My course was 4months and I am so close to the finish line. My skin has been amazing with only a little bit of redness on my acne scars. The side effects I am experiencing are redness on my face, dry skin on face, arms and legs, feeling a little moody, and a bit of hair loss (this is minor, it could be tied with my change in diet).
    I am so happy with the results. Seven more days, just seven more days!!! then I can celebrate with a drink!
    I will blog again after I am finished accutane :)

    Thanks for reading and good luck with your accutane course! 


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    Dosage: 30mg, once a day: 1 pill 20mg, 1 pill 10mg.
    Symptoms: I have been experiencing rather uncomfortable muscle pain in my legs, stomach, back and arms. It is a sort of achey feeling that I have even at rest. I believe it is also related to my recent exercise (running) but it is much more intense than usual.
    No dryness as of now, but some sadness, and very brief headaches.

    Skin: Initial breakout? I have three new pimples on my face, very red and painful: cheek, chin and forehead. I see no 'positive change' to my skin as of now, as is expected! Derm said that although people get improvement in the first month, it's not unusual to have to wait until the third.
    Thoughts: I'm really happy to receive the treatment. I feel very tired of my acne, I hate my face and cannot show my shoulders/chest in public as I am too embarrassed. I have hopes for this treatment...

    - Sophie
  15. its been 6 months since i've made my post and i would like to say that all is good with the world and i still have clear beautiful skin with which i can frolic under the sun in a field of dandelions. But thats a fucking lie. Dont get me wrong, im ecstatic my acne is clearing up but now i have to deal with the acne scars.

    Quick summary of my 6 months: acticlate antibiotics were great, finally kicked in the last month and cleared up skin and didn't have many scars so I visited family in a sunny area and felt great. anibiotics came to an end however and acne started coming back, so i panicked and went to my derm who said that i cant take too much acticlate cuz i could build up a resistance towards it so i should try either Oracea or Accutane. Accutane sounded scary, so Oracea first--> shitty decision, Oracea sucks, doesnt help at all, quit it after 3 weeks. Told Derm i'll try Accutane, but i have to take a month off antibiotics which definetly scared me. So i decided to try out the no-dairy diet i see online along with a mix of dan's regimen--->fucking amazing results, saw results in a week and was mostly clear by end of month. HOwever, i still had bad back acne and i hated the diet. I mean no ice cream, no pizza, no chocolate, no milk, no cereal, as a 19 year old?!! Lol, try being in college and not eating any of that and see how hard life can be. So with all that in mind, i decided to go on Accutane-->3 weeks in realized i made a big mistake. As bad as my diet was, I hated the inital outbreak Accutane was giving me. I thought i could handle it, but some cysts were bigger and whiter than i expected .....and then i got one abnormally large cyst on the front of my face. It was like a half inch big and felt like a sac of pus on my face. It literally wouldnt go away and kept getting bigger, so i broke down and popped it...suffice to say i have like 3 new scars on the front of my cheek and as the weather got sunnier, I realized i had other scars on the same cheek that i never noticed before. So i decided to stop accutane and just stick to the diet.

    Its been a month now and its taking longer than before to clear up but im still getting good results. Now i'm dealing with the emotional toll of having scars and oh baby what a toll. A full year ago, I felt on top of the world both physicallly and mentally before the acne hit. Now i feel like im trying to scrape up the broken pieces and piece it slowly back together, albiet more broken and scarred but still something of value. Its tough realizing that I need to avoid the sun as it will reveal all my flaws and also make them worse as time goes on. Its tough knowing that as I age, my scars will get worse and there may come a point in time when life may get harder than it is now. Its also tough knowing that as someone with brown skin, laser scar removal surgery is an unlikely option for me. I love being in the Sun and being outdoors, I loved being considered attractive and I loved the person I was before all this. But I take comfort in having friends who have the same issue as me , some with much worse scars than mine and yet found ways of enjoying life to its best. Hell, two guys i know with heavy scarring still go out in the sun and get cute girls. It would be a disservice to myself to just let this ruin my life. There are worse things that I will (hopefully) never come to know. Life can be very cruel and Ive only had a taste. SO this summer will the summer that I will get my shit together and be the best kind of person that I aspire to be. I'm gonna finally get started on my dreams to be a writer which i've put off for far too long, I'm gonna get back to flirting with girls, I'm gonna enjoy my life again and hopefully someone reading this can feel the same way. I'd love to hear your thoughts and how youre dealing with your struggles. Hopefully ,we can make each other feel better. :)