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    So I've attached a picture depicting how flat my outer cheeks look after using isotrex for around a month and a half now. My forehead, t zone and chin are all bumpy still however. But my skin IS improving. 

    I've been using nip fab glycolic cleanser for a few weeks too, which is fabulous and apparently good for closed comedones as it contains just 2% glycolic acid. 

    However - I always see improvements around this time of year. My thoughts are either this is due to the weather change, as temperatures have been around 15 degrees on average recently compared with under 10 degrees when my acne was the worst in winter. But then again, this may be because I usually stop using topicals at the end of summer when I am feeling tanned and my scars and acne are made less visible by a good bronzing! So I gradually get spottier over winter, then pick up a new medication around january when I am so depressed and acne covered, and it gets better in a couple of months. 

    Really not sure but just something to think about, I hate living with a constant experiment on my skin but this year I will continue using isotrex if i keep seeing improvements. In that way i can say i control my acne and the weather does not. 

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    I have decided to update a little less often due to the fact that it will be really long if I keep doing updates every day. Things are still the same as the other day, no improvements, fresh spots as others are clearing up. That huge lump on my chin seems to want to stay there. Can't believe there has been no improvement at all in that one. Just a waiting game really.

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    Hi everyone!

    I just made a profile and decided to start a blog about my acne. I think it'll be a good way to reflect on what I'm going through and track my progress. I haven't decided yet if I'll put pictures up of my skin, maybe in a few weeks when (hopefully) I've improved a little bit. I'll start with a description of me and my skin, but I'll put it in the blog description as well for any newcomers once the blog has gotten longer. 

    I'm 20 years old, female. I go to school at a small college in Hartford Connecticut, but don't live in Connecticut. The history of my skin is pretty simple. Throughout puberty it was just your average teenage skin, actually better than average I think. I always had a few pimples here and there, but no big flare ups and it was nothing I really worried about. My senior year of high school I went on a birth control pill and took that until about 9 months ago, and I think that made my skin even better. My skin used to be on the drier side, and I'm pale and burn easily. However, about three months ago in March, I saw gradual changes occurring on my face. I was getting more pimples, slowly but surely, and my skin became rough and bumpy, with lots of tiny comedones on my chin and cheeks. My face also got a lot more greasy. I couldn't figure out what I was doing wrong because I hadn't changed anything in my skin routine. I thought I could manage it on my own so I got a salicylic acid treatment to use at night and started using my benzoyl peroxide (which I used as a spot treatment before) all over my face every day. I also started using a harsh Neutrogena acne scrub which I think only made things worse. I thought the best thing for my skin would be to let it breathe as much as possible, so I'd wash my face right after class and then reapply makeup before any night activities, then wash again later. I think all the washing and reapplying makeup only made it worse.

    By the week before my final exams, I was a mess. I wasn't going out anymore or even spending time with my friends, and I didn't want to go to soccer or class. I sat in my room and cried most of the time, and sleeping was all that made me feel better. I had also stopped eating a lot of foods because I found research online showing that high glycemic foods can trigger acne, and my dining halls don't have tons of options so I was really restricted. I was afraid that anything I ate would break me out even further. I lost 17 pounds in under a month which was a lot for me, and was overall just downright miserable. Thankfully before I hit rock bottom, school was over and I could go home. My mom realized how much of an emotional toll my acne was taking on me and really has helped me get back on my feet. Now that I feel a lot better I'm ready to tackle acne and hopefully kick its ass. 

    Anyway, sob story aside, I'll take you through everything that I'm doing to clear up my skin. First, as a mentioned, my diet. I cut out sugars (besides fruit), caffeine, all processed foods, dairy, red meat and white flour. My diet consists mostly of fruits, vegetables, chicken, turkey, fish, nuts, seeds, and lots of water and green tea. I've also started taking several supplements that various sources have touted as skin healing: niacinamide, zinc, selenium, fermented cod liver oil, and a probiotic. I went to two different dermatologists because I really wanted a second opinion, the first wasn't very understanding or willing to listen to my many questions. He put me on tretinoin gel 0.01% and 100 mg minocycline daily. The second dermatologist was really great, she bumped me up to 0.025% tretinoin gel and added a clindamycin phosphate lotion to use in the mornings. I also scheduled an "acne peel" for about a week from now at that derm office, so we'll see how that goes. I also was prescribed Loryna, the generic version of the birth control pill Yaz. I think that my acne was due to coming off the pill many months ago, but the effects were so slow that I didn't see them till March. I can't start that until I get my period, which should be in the next few days. 

    Last, I've made some lifestyle changes like sleeping way more, exercising more, and just stressing out less. I'm really hopeful that everything I've been doing will clear my skin up over the summer. 

    Here is my current skin routine:

    AM:  Wash with 5% benzoyl peroxide wash. Apply toner, wait to dry, then apply clindamycin (This has been acting as a moisturizer during the day). Apply sunscreen (for acne prone, sensitive skin) if need be.
    PM: Wash with gentle Kiehls cleanser. Apply toner, then apply hemp seed oil as moisturizer. Wait 30 minutes, then apply tretinoin gel. 

    I have been on the minocycline for 3 weeks and the tretinoin gel for about 2.  So far I haven’t noticed any huge differences. There has been no extreme purging, but I do think my skin looks worse now because all my acne scars accumulated over the past few months look more red and irritated. I still get active breakouts, a couple pimples a day. However, one positive change I’ve noticed is that my skin is feeling smoother. I used to cringe every time I touched or washed my face because I felt so many tiny bumps. Now the bumps feel smaller although they don’t look much better yet. I’m taking this as a good sign. I’m very nervous of the tretinoin purge that I may experience, especially because I switched from 0.01% to 0.025% gel two days ago, so even though I’ve been using the 0.01% for two weeks, I feel like the purging with 0.025% will be worse if it does happen. I have many clogged pores so it makes sense to me that my purging period might be bad.

     

    Well, that’s everything. Please comment if you have any advice, encouragement, anything! I’ll be updating weekly on my progress (or not progress I purge, gah). Wish me luck J

  3. Yesterday was the worst day I've had on the tablet and in the past year actually 

    I had a family event with my boyfriend yesterday and I was not really in the mood to go in the first place. The way my head is at right now is that I'm being nice to people (because I have to) but inside I really couldn't care less what people are talking about and small things that people say annoy me so much and I feel like people are talking about me and giving me dirty looks etc. 

    So I went to the event and got through it okay, I was feeling quite down but I put on a happy face. Driving home from it I got really upset (I think all the stress came out) and I cried the whole way home. I pulled myself together going into my house but the minute I sat down beside my mam I was sobbing :( I haven't cried like I did in a long long time and the most frustrating part is I don't know why I'm upset and feeling so down.. 
    It was really inconsolable crying so I was happy i had held It together until I was home with my family. 

    I I had a good chat with my mam and dad and told them the exact feelings and frustrations I'm having.  
    I know that if this gets worse I'm going to have to stop taking Roaccutane but right now I'm really trying not to get to that point. 

    Today I'm in a good mood. Maybe a good cry is what I needed. I know that my mental health is priority but for now I want to try fight how I'm feeling. 

    Ive been feeling so lucky that my skin hasn't dried out and I haven't had any bad breakouts but my head is all over the place which is really scary. I feel like I could definitely deal with some dryness over how I am right now. 

    trying to stay positive though for now :)
    I'm very lucky to have my family with me going through this 

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    Well, here we go again.  The cycle begins again and I have had an eczema flare all over.  It's calmed down since this morning but it's still very much there.  New bumps came up (at least 12 micro ones that are red) and I have some cystic action going on on chin.  Feeling like crap BUT still hanging  around my family.  What's the point of hiding in my room all day?  I feel as if i've wasted the last 8 plus months for nothing.  Reaching out to this community for some support.  As far as pharmaceuticals are concerned, i have done it all and frankly, i am over it.  I am considering starting from scratch again with a nutritionist as my eating , while healthy, could use some work (less calories , more nutritionally dense stuff, less meat, etc).  Right now, i'm off all supplements but i am on oral meds (spiro, oracea) and elidel for eczema.  Still having a green smoothie everyday and I am so bored with drinking those things.  Varied recipes too.

    I have limited money too now that i am buying a home and recently had to replace my car that was totaled in an accident.

    I have tried  many of  the nutritional advice give on this bored and i'm convinced that the issue is not what is being suggested but moreso, my body.

    Anyway, just wanted to share and update as I know some of you have been following my process since the very beginning.

    Thanks for all the support.  It helps to know that this awesome website is a judgement free zone.

    Peace and Love
    Sasch   

  5. Hello to anyone who reads this blog!

    Just wanted to let anyone know (who is curious about accutane and what happens afterwards) that my skin is still clear, and I finished my last dose a little over a month ago. I have continued to use cetaphil moisturizing cream tub for sensitive, dry skin, and a gentle face wash by cetaphil or cerave, too. I have gotten one pimple every now and then but just a drop of epiduo does the trick! (epiduo is also prescribed by dermatologist).
    I wasn't sure if my skin was going to go back to being super oily so I wasn't sure if I should switch back to oily-skin products, but continuing with the gentle, sensitive dry-skin stuff has been just fine. I did stop liquid makeup tho, and went back to my powder, just cause it goes on not as thick. The dry lips and dry skin went away about 2-3 weeks after my last dose, I can kiss now!! lol. I can lick my lips, and they're not ridiculously dry! Granted, my skin is still a little drier than it was previously, in that I'm not nearly as oily as I used to be. I went swimming for the first time in a LONG time, because I used to have to wear makeup all the time, and it felt so freeing. Like a curse was lifted.

    Like all satisfied accutane users, my only biggest regret is not taking it sooner. My life has seriously changed, I have the most confidence than I have ever had in about a decade. And I hope the results continue for the rest of my life, haha. No other long-lasting side effects, that I can tell (joint pain went away, never had noticeable hair loss, not as irritable/tired, etc).

    If you have any questions let me know!

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    Morning supplements was 3 PCOS diva capsules, 1 krill oil, 2 spiru-blue, 1 probiotic, 1 organic India Tulsi holy basil supplement

    I had the pea soup sludge with half an avocado, two curly kale pieces (I shred the "froofs" away from the stem), some Osso Good Bone broth and had a tablespoon of butter in the soup mix. Then we got some tri tip and took that home. I had a bunch of pieces... Red meat is my weakness. That was before I went to the farm. I ate a bunch of blueberries at the farm. When I got home at about 2pm I fried some asparagus in butter in a cast iron skillet with. tomato slices.

    Then at about 6:30 I had my fiber supplement (forgot to drink this morning) and a handful of raw walnuts.

    I will bake tomorrow I am too tired to do anything now. I'm thinking about eating some spring mix with chicken tenders and coconut amino acid aka Soy Sauce. I've been running around all day.

    evening supplements were the same minus the organic India tulsi holy basil. I am going to be taking the neem supplement tomorrow and then the liver kidney on monday. 

    Once my period starts I will take a evening primrose oil in the morning from the day it starts for two weeks.


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  7. I forgot to mention I have noticed these tiny little pimples appearing over my body. I have no idea what this is.. The first one is in my arm fold, the second just appeared today under my breast and I have a few on my neck. :'( is this a staph infection? Folliculitis? 


     

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    Day 7 of the following regimen:
    GloTherapeutics Daily Polishing Cleanser (Salicylic Acid) - 2x
    GloTherapeutics Anti-Blemish Treament (BP) - 2x
    Dermalogica Active Moist (moisturizer) - 2x
    Innate Skin Clear Vitamin Pack (only 2nd day of this)

    My face is pretty clear. I have some red marks where I had pimples but they're getting lighter every day. I have one pimple from earlier this week (very side of face) that's just kinda hanging out. It's flat but there's stuff under the skin and there's a mark where it is. I guess there's nothing I can do about that one--just have to wait for it to decide what it's doing. Other than that, my face is VERY improved after just a week. 

    My skin has been very dry and make up has been frustrating to wear, but it seems like it's getting better. Worried about how dry this makes my skin, but I think I might switch from my GloTherapeutics 5% BP product to acne.org's 2.5% BP when that arrives (~June 6). Once everything clears, I'm thinking about reducing the use of BP and adding GloTherapeutics Renew Serum to my regimen, but  maybe I shouldn't mess with my regimen too much. I welcome any thoughts anyone has on this!
  8. Ok, so I know I kinda forgot to post my progress so far with my treatment, but anyway...

    So it's nearing the end of Day 23 on accutane, and I'm having mixed feelings about my progress so far. I think my acne has improved in terms of bumpiness on my face - even where my acne is (on the cheeks, chin and forehead) there aren't really any bumps - but the redness of each zit is still there, making it a little difficult to cover up. Now, the dryness, hmm...well, I'm really happy that now when I wake up in the morning, my face doesn't feel oily (and overall not too dry at this point) like it used to, and for some reason my skin feels softer - maybe it's the gentle Cetaphil cleanser and moisturiser?? Also, my skin hasn't really started peeling yet except for a teensy bit only in the last few days on my chin, and my lips are chapped but manageable thanks to Blistex! :)

    However, I've now got this weird dry, bumpy rash on the backs of both of my hands, and no matter how much I moisturise it doesn't seem to be going away. Did anyone else have this problem??? Another bad thing is that the sides of my nose are really dry and same thing as the hands with no improvement despite constant moisturising. :( Ok, last bad thing then I'll stop complaining: the blackheads on my nose and like on the sides of my nose are getting worse, but I've been told by my dermatologist not to use scrubs and face masks while on accutane. Is this normal and will it go away? Can i do anything to make them less noticeable in the meantime?? Ugh, I can't wait for this to be over! The past 3 weeks have gone by so slowly...probably cause I've been counting the days, lol.

    Anyway, thanks guys (even if no one is actually reading this, I'm still gonna pretend there is. I know, I'm delusional. :) ),
    I'll post again soon!

    Fran xxx

    P.S. I'm sorry I don't think I'll be able to post pictures of myself on this blog cause I'm just not comfortable showing my bare face on the internet, but I can assure you that my acne is pretty bad (not the worst but still bad - I mean, it is severe after all). 
     

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    Only a few new breakouts, but they go away within the next 24 hours or so. A lot more peeling. I find that no matter how much moisturizer I use, my skin is still super dry and doesn't produce much oil. 

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    6 weeks on retin-a and clindamycin regimen.. Not working :/ keep breaking out next to my nose and cheek area. The wether is getting warmer and I have to hide inside the house since sun exposure is not recommended on this medicatio. This better be worth it because boy am I getting depressed from sitting in...

  10. Today marks my 11th day on Claravis 30mg twice a day. It also marks the fourth day in my period and my skin is basically undergoing anarchy. I have spots down my cheeks, on my chin, on my jawline, and between my eyebrows. Alongside the spots is pretty significant dryness. I have work tonight and am dreading going. I will post a picture. To be fair, my skin is not much worse than my skin normally is on my period, but the dryness and redness are not making it look very pretty. I also noticed that, with the dryness, my makeup is doing a terrible job of covering my skin.
    Symptoms: Dryness of pimples, dryness of nose, dryness of lips, dryness of skin, headache, nausea, increased appetite (period), fatigue 
    Diet: About one liter of water so far, two cups of coffee, chicken fajitas with corn tortillas, a few spoonfuls of Ben and Jerrys "The Tonight Dough" ice-cream (sorry not sorry)
    Products: Neutrogena Deep Moisture face lotion, Cetaphil daily cleanser, Clarins spot concealer, Clarins powder foundation, Clarins bronzer, Josie Marin highlighting powder

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  11. Today is not a good day for my skin I had a major breakout Tuesday morning and of course today I decided to mess with it and of course knowing I shouldn't I still did. And now it's a mess. I thought I was done with my cystic acne but I guess not yet.image.jpeg

  12. As evidenced in my last post, I’ve smeared a lot of crap on my face. But, what do I use now? And do I like it?

     

    CURRENT ROUTINE:

     
      
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    1. I wake up, pissed off because I haven’t figured out a way to safely inject coffee into my blood stream.
    2. Shuffle to bathroom. Shuffle to closet. Shuffle to dresser. Forget what I was doing. Groan.
    3. Wash with Cetaphil Gentle Skin Cleanser.

     

    • Okay, so let’s be honest. I bought the knockoff Wal-Mart Equate Skin Cleanser and I honestly am not too thrilled with it. It’s too thin and watery. While cleansers shouldn’t produce a ton of foam or have 10,000 scented scrub beads, I think this cleanser is too simple for my taste. Alas, I am cheap as hell and will use it until it runs out, at which I will replace it with something else.

     

    4. Apply CeraVe AM Moisturizer.

     

    •  This is a brand new product that has been added this week. It has some great “features”—including the all important SPF and also niacinamide to reduce redness. Before, I was applying the PM version (despite its name, perfectly acceptable for AM as well.) I will say the AM has that sunscreen smell, but it doesn’t particularly bother me. The thing that I’m not sold on just yet is its consistency. I find it very thick, hard to spread, and I’m not sure how great it’s doing at moisturizing. But I need a sunscreen to protect my red marks from getting darker, so if anything I might just combine this with some plain Cetaphil moisturizer I already have.

     

    5. Maybe put a dab of benzoyl peroxide or clindamyacin gel on any doozy of a zit and let everything dry before applying makeup.


        PM:

     

    1. Realize it’s way past my bedtime.

    2. Curse self for staying up late as I always do.

    3. Wash face (usually in shower) with same Cetaphil cleanser from morning routine.
    4. Dry face and apply CeraVe PM. 

     

    • Love this product. It’s smooth, it’s creamy…wait, am I describing ice cream or a face moisturizer? My bad. But really, I love the texture of this and it does a great job. At first, I was a bit worried that it wasn’t as great as I was  expecting because it doesn’t make your face look or feel like an oil slick, but I now realize that’s a good thing. I think adding this product is a big help in the reduction of redness I see in my scars/pigmentation issues.

     

    5. Apply benzoyl peroxide gel and let dry completely before going night-night.

               

    • Man, this stuff sucks and is awesome at the same time. I was using free samples of EpiDuo for a while and for some reason, that didn’t dry out my skin like straight up BP does. At least, I think that’s what my current issue is. My BP is only 2.5% but it has dried out my face the past couple of nights.
       


    CURRENT STATE OF ACNE USING THIS ROUTINE:

    Uhhhh, I don’t know. Can I phone a friend? The cysts continue to stay at bay which I am very happy about. The CeraVe PM and BP have helped the redness in my post inflammatory marks. I only have two lumps on my face that just appeared yesterday that are deep and might be potential cystic acne. I hope it’s not caused by the addition of my CeraVe AM moisturizer, but I suppose I will keep an eye on them and use it as a judgment of how my skin is. If they go away quickly then I guess that’s a good thing! I just have to resist the urge to pick and poke them :( 

    Around my mouth and near my chin is very dry and flaky. I don’t know why to be honest, but when I applied the CeraVe AM moisturizer for the first time the other day, my face lit up bright red and near my eyes was stinging. Has been happening for the past three days, so I have held off on using the BP. I hope that goes away once my skin has adjusted.

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    Hello hello hello!
    I just started my 3rd month of accutane about a week and a half ago now. Now, I will say I have had a couple breakouts here and there... but I think it's my fault not the medicines. I went on a trip and wasn't as consistent about taking it and may have drank a bit more than I usually do (whoops). Other than that, my skin looks fantastic! It is a bit red from being so dry, but I think it's kinda a nice change from my usual overly white skin and is nothing I can't fix with some tinted moisturizer. 
    At my last appointment, they told me I won't need to get my blood drawn next time because my liver isn't showing any signs of being affected from the medication, so yay! This could be due to my lifestyle, genetics, or just the fact that my doc picked a good level of mg and won't be changing my dose any time soon. She said usually when people start on a certain dose and then change to a lower or higher dose, they tend to have more issues/breakouts/etc. So that's something to keep in mind if you plan on using accutane. 
    As for the sun, I have been pretty good so far about using sunscreen. I have a long commute and put it on before I drive both ways... I know that sounds silly, but I did notice one day when I hadn't, that my skin looked a little burned. Especially on this drug,  even slight sun damage can really harm your skin, and my mom had skin cancer... so I will stick with my current habits. 
    My skin routine has stayed the same as in my previous posts. I think it's working rather well... so far a little dry and flaky, but not near as horrible as I thought it would be. Had a little bit of eczema on my arms, but used some cortisone and extra lotion for a few days and that helped. 

  14. I have been on a healthy eating kick since about January and have lost about 30lbs since then. That being said, I was on a mini vacation this last Thurs-Monday and I was NOT good at all lol.. between eating JUNK and drinking a lot of alcohol my body freaked out. Not only did I run into stomach issues but my chin broke out too. It affected me more than I thought it would! I had these five huuuuge cyst/nodules on my face in the MIDDLE of a bachelorette weekend. And of course I was picking at them and loading them with product to no avail. It was one of those things you had to leave alone and let it do it's thing. It killed my confidence. Luckily I already had a derm apt for yesterday to check on my progress with Spiro. The new doctor I found and loved actually left the practice so they set me up with one of their PAs and she is so awesome! She asked me about my chin and suggested some Cortisone shots to just tame this breakout and move on. I had never gotten them before and was worried about pain and cost but it turns out my insurance covered it (something about the way it is billed.. I don't know the specifics). The pain wasn't bad either. And, I am very happy with the results. Here are some pics.

    This was right before she injected me. For some odd reason my phone makes it look less intense than what it really was.

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    This was a few hours after

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    And this was this morning.. Not bad!

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    Skipped a day because skin was pretty much the same. I noticed that I don't have any huge pimples on my cheeks anymore but i do have a lot of those flesh colored bumps and small whiteheads all over. My forehead still has those 4 huge pimples on it though ugh. I wish there was a magical way for them to be gone by Thursday because it's my cousins graduation. Oh well, one can pray and hope lol

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    Because this is acne.org, you probably know already what this post is all about.

    I’ve been lurking in this site for a year now and it helped me quite a lot to understand my condition. And it also made me realize that I’m not alone in this battle.

    I am Asian (just so you know) and I’ve been struggling with acne since when I was 15 and I have on and off relationship with acne. I’ve been battling it for 6 years now. I never really talked about how my acne made me feel and how it affects my life to anyone, not even my parents. Well, I tried to once but they shrugged it off saying that I shouldn’t make a big deal out of it because, well, it’s just “acne”. It’ll go away. Somehow. Someday. But it didn’t.

    In retrospect, I wasn’t really the type who cares about how they look. I never really paid attention to my appearance. That was when I had a clear face. My first pimple was during my junior year, it was a large, cystic, puss-filled helluva pimple on my nose and I remembered one of my classmate saying it was “gross” and that I should pop it and all. But I still did not pay attention to it because it’s just one pimple anyway. But that ”single” pimple turned into “many” pimples when I reached senior year. Mostly on my nose and cheeks. That was that time where my self-esteem dropped from low to nothing. I couldn’t even look people in the eyes because I’m so embarrassed. So my mom decided to consult a dermatologist. He injected and popped my pimple and it was really painful. But I couldn’t careless, I wanted to be bumps-free. Haha. He said that the cause of my acne is genetic because my father used to have it when he was young. He prescribed me tretinoin and clindamycin toner and some expensive soap and I used it religiously. And voila! My pimples were gone. I finally had clear skin for a year till my graduation so I got lazy taking care of my skin because I thought it was gone forever. And boy I couldn’t be any wrong.

    Just when I thought I’m free from all this acne-hellish experience, it visited again and it came back with a vengeance. It was before I entered college and it was worse than my first break out. This one was the “all-over-your-face” kind that you’d rather be headless than be seen like that. I remember having my ID picture taken and I looked like a zombie with a rotting face. Hell, zombies in walking dead looked better than me. No kidding.

    I went back to my dermatologist and he prescribed me the same medication. I actually thought it would help me again but it made my already acne-infested face worse. It made my face red and my pimple worse. So I stopped using anything. I stopped caring and clung to this hope that “this, too, shall pass”. Like my parents always told me when I try to complain to them. I endured all the remarks people told me on my face about being gross and ugly. Good thing I had some good friends who didn’t judge me. But I can still remember how low I felt during those times. I always cried myself to sleep. I couldn’t bring myself to look in the mirror because all I see was how monstrous acne made me looked. It affected me so much that I couldn’t even bring myself to attend classes anymore. I cut classes and stayed at home. My parents didn’t know about it because I knew that if I tell them they wouldn’t understand how much courage it takes to expose yourself to everyone looking like that and spend your whole day being judged by everyone. Because everyone thinks they are entitled to treat anyone with flaws like shitbags. And I ran out of courage. I couldn’t last a day without one person or two calling me “ugly”. I felt inferior. I felt alone.

    Acne affected not only my grades and social life but destroyed my confidence entirely. I used to have tiny spot of self-esteem and acne was like a bomb that destroyed what’s left of it. But it gave me a different perspective about life; about everything, actually. I learned that your appearance will affect how people will treat you. You may think I’m just saying this because I’m a ugly-bitter hag but trust me, that’s the ugly truth. And I learned it the hard way.

    It was during my second year of college that I was able to just accept my fate and just live with this acne. I was able to ignore every ridicule from my surroundings and live my pathetic life. Haha. I only treat my acne with toothpaste and some lemon juice. It didn’t do much but that’s all I’ve got. And I got traumatized by my money-hungry dermatologist with his expensive treatments that no longer worked for me. My face was red and bumpy and cyst-filled all over during those times. I wish I had pictures to show you how worse I looked but I had phobia with cameras back then hahaha. I used to have short hair back then and a classmate of mine always called me “snowhite with pimples”.

    Then my cousin from Australia introduced me to proactive. She came to Philippines for a short vacation and was horrified with my face when she saw me, adding my very nice brother’s remark that “there’s no help for her”. Well I’m pretty much numb already so I didn’t care that much. She told me that she suffered from acne herself and gave gave me her set of proactive. And I used it because wth I have nothing to lose anyway. And like some kind of miracle it worked for me. Except from occasional few pimples and acne marks, my face, for the first time in years, looked okay. I used it routinely until summer of my second year. During that time I was completely clear of acne with just few acne marks left. I wanted to get rid of the marks so I searched online and I found a very cheap product that has Hydroquinone-Tretinoin combination called “rdl baby face”. By using the right amount, it worked wonders for my skin. My friends, classmates and mostly everyone around me noticed how my face improved and compliment me. It was the best feeling.

    I was in my 3rd year of college then and I had clear skin. I started really taking good care of my skin. I felt normal. People started treating me normal. I gained a lot of friends. Some people even called me pretty. But I didn’t feel that way. Acne had left me emotionally scarred.

    After a year of clear-faced life, my acne came back. again. My topical medication stopped working. No surprise there, though. My acne loved me so much it couldn’t afford to leave me forever. Hahaha.

    This time, it wasn’t that worse. I just suffered from moderate acne. Probably because I was in so much stress with academic stuff and I had my internship. Too much stress plus no sleep. A perfect recipe to make a  pizza-face. Lol. I research more to try to understand my acne. I used neutregena, Clearasil and a bunch of other facial cleanser, to no avail. I muster some courage and convinced my mom to bring me to another dermatologist and she prescribed me antibiotics and erythromycin gel. It didn’t do anything. I was back to zero. I remember looking at my pictures when I had clear skin and cry. I was depressed, stressed and had low confidence again.

    Then I stumbled upon this website and I learned about benzoyl peroxide. The same bp in proactive that cleared my face once. So I followed the acne.org regime and I was able to maintain my acne since then. I still have few pimples on my face and a few breakouts but all in all it wasn’t that worse compared to before. My acne is a persistent type. But I became an expert with this kind of thing I can pass as my own dermatologist.

    I decided to make my first ever blog because I want to document everything from now on. And if I ever manage to find a regime or a permanent cure for acne, I’ll post it here to be of help to others having the same problem as mine.

    And yeah I figured my first entry is too long but this is my first blog about acne and I want to be as detailed as I can about what I’ve been through.

    It’s been a hell of a bumpy road for me. No pun intened.

     

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  15. Back at the derm's today. Saw the nice consultant rather than my usual one today (not that my usual one is horrid - just more 'mechanical' rather than caring).
    I wasn't entirely honest about how exhausted I am and the extent of my bruises.. I just didn't want them to say I had to stop or anything and my blood tests are all fine so guessing it's nothing serious and it's nothing that I can't cope with, I just seem to stay awake in the evenings!
    I did have a lovely talk with a young girl who seems to be there every time I go. It was good to talk to someone who is going through the same treatment and has the same insecurities etc, she is the first person I have ever talked to about it other than on here!

  16. I dont want to meet anyone because im so embarrassing. 
    My face is completely terrible.its look like sunburn but even worst. 
    The acne is still there and dont have any far improvement .
    I try so hard to stay positive but Im losing my patient :(