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[michael1019]

Hey Vanessa,

Just wanted to see how you are doing? Glad to hear some improvement...

it makes you feel soo much better... I have been in good moods lately.

Like I am really sick right now... bad cold... but someone at work commented that my skin seemed to be getting better and it put me in a good mood

-Mike

[Vanessa13688]

Hey guys thanks for all your replies and messages, will reply to them in a mo, I have a feeling todays post will be quite long;

So today started off great, a really nice day outside and no arguments at home or anything and I had to lead the Circle Time at the Summer School with my group which went great! I was extremely nervous about it because it was the first time I had ever taught a full group as a class (theres only 14 but its still daunting!) so at 17 I was shaking! That went really well and I really enjoyed the interaction with the kids; great feeling.

I let the kide go to PE a bit early as I finished 5 mins early, they all went to the Hall really sensibly and sat down to talk between them; I sat witha group of girls who were asking me what Sixth Form College is like. My lips were really dry due to nerves and 'tane so I whipped out the Blistex. The girls thought I was lighting up as the tube is really small and they didnt know what it was! I giggled and then...

...a group of lads called me over to ask what Id got out, they shouted "Er, is it spot cream?!" over and over and I could feel the anger making my cheeks go red. I walked briskly over to them and sat them down. At first I said to the one boy who seemed to have started it:

"OK. So now you have my attention. Do you remember the first circle time, on Monday, we talked about first impressions and respect for others? Well Im giving you an official warning so any more trouble and you're off the School. I dont want to hear you talking to anyone else, staff or pupil like that. Understand?"

and he looked at me blankly, playing dumb. His mates started sniggering and them I warned them all.

Beforehand I would have got really embarrased and went and cried there and then but I waited til I got home, don't know why I had the confidence to do that.

Im really disappointed in myself as I was so happy and confident before as my skin was finally clearing but obviously not. Maybe I look so DISGUSTING that Im a freak show for others' free entertainment. What made it worse is that the other girl is a "barbie", shes nice enough but these kids are all over her. Im so mad at myself for being negative again! I said I shouldn't have jinxed myself!


Sorry for that but needed to get it off my chest.

Anyway...

LV Boy; I forgot to take my O3+Vit E for a few days and Im back to being really dry and sore, it really makes a big difference. Am going to get some Icelandic stuff as I want to vomit with the taste that comes free with mine! I hope I continue to clear also, would be awful if things got worse. My ego would take such a battering! Im checking your log regularly!

SmileInYourSleep; I wonder if this is the time when it starts working in a hurry? Would be great if it is. How are you doing?

Gamarwil; Ill remeber that tomorrow is another day while Im dragging these kids round Hull University while college holds Results Day which I miss so will try keep my cool. Good advice. Thanks, its not the first time you've given top rate advice!

Mike; Aw hope you feel better soon, I know that you feel extra sick on 'tane, it seems to multiply illness! I love it when people say your skin is looking clear, really makes your day. Glad youve been in a good mood, will try again tomorrow!

Thanks people!

Vanessa

[Vanessa13688]

Results day today! Woohoo! I got 5 A's at AS Level and am really happy!

Had a better day as we went to a University with the kids and the lad wasnt in my group so glad.

Got to go do some phoning around but thought Id let people know Im A LOT happier today!

Vanessa

[Vanessa13688]

Well its Friday so I was a lot happier and had a few more comments on hoe much clearer my skin is... somehow I dont see it though!

So im really happy with my results, glad I dont have to resit any exams!!!! I never expected to get straight A's but Im not complaining!

Had a fair amount of alcohol last night (well, I was celebrating!) so hope that sisnt affect my 'tane because I seem to have flared up again, my skin feels prickly again.

Im still positive though!!!

Fairly good day so not much to post about really.

Vanessa

[smileinyoursleep]

I'm glad things are starting to look ^^UP^^ for you. How long have you been on Accutane exactly? I'm guessing you really like green day. That "wake me up when september ends" video gets to me everytime i see it. I'm an emotional guy what can i say.

what other bands do you like? i think we're into the same music, maybe.

[Vanessa13688]

I'm glad things are starting to look ^^UP^^ for you.  How long have you been on Accutane exactly? I'm guessing you really like green day. That "wake me up when september ends" video gets to me everytime i see it. I'm an emotional guy what can i say.

what other bands do you like? i think we're into the same music, maybe.

I like a mix of stuff; Green Day (obviously!), Yellow Card, New Found Glory, Good Charlotte, Blink 182 (RIP), Less Than Jake, Jimmy Eat World, Alkaline Trio, Simple Plan etc. You? Yeah the WMUWSE video is amazing, I dont have Sky or Cable or anything so havnt managed to see it all in ages. . Dont blame you for it getting to you! Thats really good in guys I think.

Ive been on 'tane since 6 July...about 47 days? I may be wrong its late here...

What other stuff are you inot...where are you from??

Vanessa x

[smileinyoursleep]

hmm well out of the bands you mentioned i like only Jimmy Eat World. actually i LOVE THEM.

I'm into all kinds of music. Stuff like: Thursday, Converge, Underoath, Taking Back Sunday...anything really. Even BJORK. More of the heavier stuff than anything though.

Oh, im from Canada. Toronto.

[Vanessa13688]

I like Taking Back Sunday but they are very disappointing live. I like lighter stuff, as you can tell! The heavier stuff brings back bad memories...

I havent really heard of the others, guess they havent reached me here in the UK yet!

How are things going for you? About to check your log now...

Vanessa

[smileinyoursleep]

I just love music. I can't live without it. Yeah, those other bands i mentioned aren't really HUGE!. I knew you'd know Taking Back Sunday. i've seen them a few times but i didn't think they were too bad. i love concerts thats all i do with my life.

As for my progress so far...hmm too early to tell, on day 10 though. My skin can be very up and down so i don't think i'll REALLY truly know if this is working until 1 month to 2 months into it. I'm optomisitic though because my skin has looked a lot more even and my spots are drying up and falling off my face. But ughh i never know what tomorrow holds.

I hope youre doing well. I know we'll get through this. And we'll be stronger people in the end because of it.

[Vanessa13688]

Thats a really inspiring post, definately one I'll keep. Yep I cant live without music...when I hear the other bands Ill let you know my verdict! My skins been so up and down but yeah I suppose it is a lot more evened out but is peeling again at the moment!

Well hope all goes well, all though I am quite pessimistic about my skin (always have been) I do think there has been improvement but Im only halfway through, not even that!

Will keep checking your log, keep posting!

Vanessa

[smileinyoursleep]

Hey Rosie i posted this question in my log but i thought i'd ask here too.

Do you know anything about getting piercings on Accutane? Would it be an issue?

Thanks.

[Vanessa13688]

SmileInYourSleep; I posted a reply on your thread, hope it helped.

A few people have said how much clearer my skin is looking even though Ive been really stressed out recently. I think I just lost the only part time job I can get to (as I cant drive yet) and the only other option is bedding for Cherry Valley duck farms where I may be dicriminated against because Im a girl. Hell what do I do? Its bank holiday weekend and I have one 4 hour shift when last year I worked 29 hours!

Not got much time to post but things have been relatively normal, I have exzema again and this time is a LOT worse. Very scaly and ugly. Yuck.

G2G will post soon, good luck with the piercing thing SIYS

Vanessa

[Vanessa13688]

Well i think i lost my job so not a long or well typed post im afraid. only job within reasonable distance apart from duck bedding which is very sex discriminated. no income, bad skin, sisters are being unbearable and college stars again soon. Woah. Skin is clearing but peely, severe exzema on bottom of forearms and patches on body. Exactly halfway through and want it out of the way. Eye Doctor tomorrow. next derm apptmnt 2 or 3 weeks AFTER end of course. Whats going on??? People lecturing me about me being "gifted and talented" and what I should be doinng instead of teaching ie Law or Medicine at Oxford or Cambridge. So many things going round my head. Later.

[Vanessa13688]

Guttering with dad and boyfriend today so not much time but I seem to have bacne again after it disappeared...hmm a bit worrying. Will post later if I have time

V

[Vanessa13688]

Hey, done guttering now and you dont realise how much 'tane is battering your body until you do loads of manual work! I ache, got sunburn and my acne is actually relatively bad. Its been quite good for ages apart from my back, I havent been on in ages because we've had broadband fitted and the internets been down recently.

Overall my face looks really good but my back has broken out with cysts and my exzema has been unpredictable.

All clear with the eye doctor though if I havent already posted before, thats really comforting but have to go back in 6 months to the NHS clinic to have more tests but he saw no reason why I had defect tests last time yay!

Also, I passed my driving theory test a few days ago, so just have to concentrate on the practical and Im a free girl (if I can scrape up money for petrol and insurance and maintenance! )

Well I hope everyone else is OK, will check up soon

Vanessa

[Simply_Me]

i just wanna say BEST OF LUCK to u, i'm on day 5 on ROCHE ACCUTANE

[gamarwil]

Hey Vanessa! Glad to hear you're clearing! Just remember, it's a work in progress! Sorry to hear about your job? What happened with that? You said you MIGHT have lost your job? Hope not. But, what's the saying, one door closes-another one opens?

[Vanessa13688]

Hey thanks for your posts, thought people had deserted me! Lol. Well Im not sure, the winter season makes it really slow as I waitress at weekends so I will have fewer shifs anyway, and they have a new girl and I think they will keep her on. Not sure but am looking around anyway as a backup.

Have absolutely MASSIVE cysts on my back but my face is looking OK, not quite sure whats going on there.

Appetite still random.

So how are you Gamarwil? Long time no see (if you get my meaning).

Thanks SimplyMe, good luck to you, keep striving through everything and if Gamarwil advises anything Id listen I have many times.

Post soon

Vanessa

[gamarwil]

Haha you give me WAY too much credit, Vanessa! It's a give and take here and there's so many people who have offered some great advice to me, so I'm just passing it along! Anything I can do to help, please don't hesitate to ask!

I'm farther along in my treatment....about week 16 now. I'm not totally clear, but I can see some improvement. My skin isn't as red and inflamed and my zits seem to come and go quicker. My dosage is up to 100mg/day and I hope my derm ups it next week. I'm using a generic, so I'll probably have to use more of it and stay on it longer than those using brand. That's ok. I'm tolerating the side effects very well, and as long as my blood work comes back ok, I'm game! My hair is a bit dry, and I've noticed what I think is breakage...but others have suggested it may be new hair growth? I'm not that optimistic, because I've always had fine, thin hair....it breaks easily. But, I'm really doing just fine. It should be smooth sailing (clearing, hopefully) from here.

Anyway, sorry so long! Are you using the brand name? There's a woman on another thread that is using the brand and she's clear at 10 weeks.....she's actually been clear for longer than that!

[Vanessa13688]

Woah, ten weeks? Thats amazing! Im using Roche and am still on only 60mg/day. Dont know if thats a good thing or not but my derm said it was becasue Im still a bit young...or something.

You've still given me the most information out of everyone, but you're right in the way that people share info here, not like the real world at all. Erm im just over 12 weeks through and my face is more or less clear now, just red marks and scarring. Do you know if the red marks fade? Aparrently they're caused by the tane supressing zits coming to the surface or something. ???

Cant believe you're on 100mg and want to be upped! Thats a high dosage. I have a few zits on the left of my neck and some very painful cysts on my back but Im happy now. Looking back I remember a time when I was convinced nothing was happening! I suppose I was slow to respond. I noticed that with my hair also, but also noticed more hair on my arms. I can cope with this because I have fine blonde hair. Dont kow what Id do if I had dark hair!

First day back at college/school now, so many people have said how much better my skin is woohoo! At last, I have the confidence to talk!

V