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[kathryn]

k i am just gonna wrte this down for my own benefit post back if u want to but i just know this will make me feel better. i dont care if im being pathetic

omg why me? i really hate my skin. its so unpredictable. one day it looks okay the next it looks like death warmed up. i have huge pores that are so ugly, scarred pores across my cheeks, n at the minute four huge scabs on my face. lots of red marks. i really dont know what to do. white heads scar me with red marks that dont go away for ages. i have 2 purple scars from deep infections. when i look in the mirror i just want to cry. i have tried loads of shit; dian-35, erythromycin antibiotics, zineryt, BP, loadsa OTC products with SA and BP in, eating pinepple (wtf i know), yasmin bc pill nothing works. i know i dont have genetically huge pores cause they fluctuate all the time from looking huge to looking barely visible. its when i have loadsa oil or use some products LIKE NEUTROGENA PILE OF SHIT DONT BUY IT. my spots take ages to heal also, like whiteheads take 2 weeks to go and they're only whiteheads. ive been on half termthis week with mates calling me up and me making up excuses saying im ill so i dont have 2 go out, and me running to the mirror every 2 minutes. i just feel so dirty and trampy cause my skin is bad. also i have acne on my legs upper arms n sometimes back and chest too. i have eczema also on my chest neck and back where i have acne so im pretty fucked. that kills me too cause it itches like crazy n looks even shittier than acne sometimes.

whats more i went to a make up party last night. didnt wanna go cause i knew peeps would be lookin at my skin. but it was my sisters party n my mom made me go. some fuck ass beautician tellin evry1 to cleanse tone and moisturise then u will have perfect skin WHATEVER. i no more about skincare than u love let me take over. ill tell evry1 how ur shit products r supposed to heal spots when it smells of artifical fragance contains oil and has loadsa parabens in it. n every time she mentioned spots i went red :@ it was just so uncomfortable. then when i thought it couldnt get worse she directly spoke 2 me about how i should tone and use spot stuff. i was like DONT U THINK I KNOW BITCH. (well thinking that)
i just ummedn went to the loo at every opportunity to get away

i jsut wanna stop this crap now before my pores stay permanently like craters, get more red marks and raised scars. im only 16 this s the time u should look the most beautiful when your young. and the thing is without this plague i would look good. lookin at photos of me before this i was attractive. and i had more friends. FUCKING HELL its just so unfair

and by da way dont reply if you r gonna say what u complaining about wait till u get cysts cause i aint in the mood. each person experiences what they have and unless it gets worse they think its the shittiest.

[MysteryGirl]

I can definitely relate, girl. I HATE my skin. Have you visited a derm?

[scarred4lyfe]

Sometimes I wish I could rip it off and have replaced with better skin.

[xXillusion]

seriously, what's wrong with the people giving you stupid advices? Can't they just shut up? I wish that when people advice this, they were fat and/or ugly, then I can answer in te same way!
assholes. The whole world is made of ance people and assholes... well except the relatives and stuff

[-Misfits-]

Would you rather have acne or be a leper??

[Goody317]

I wana be a leper

[InfiniteQuestions]

Yeah, it's true that this isnt fair for us, but complaining isnt going to help our situation. I know from experience its disappointing trying many things and they dont work, but we just have to suck it up, keep our heads high and keep pursuing our cure. And when we do find it, we'll ultimately become greater people.

I dont think people should be called " bitches " and shit unless they are mean when they offer suggestions. Something along the lines of " Man! you skin looks like Grade A shit! You should try this! " If someone comes up to me and is like " hey, I tried this product and it worked for me, maybe it'll work for you " Ill just be like " Cool, I tried it. Thanks " or " No, tell me more about it"

No need to pop a vein unless its like the former.

Good Luck.

[adultAcne]

I feel for you Kathryn. You didn't mention B5. If you haven't tried it, try 15 grams/day. I know Solaray's Pantothenic Acid works. Also, instead of trying one thing at a time, just try everything that has a high probability of working, just so you don't waste any more time. Try ALL the reputable holistic stuff like immunity support and EFA's, etc.. Sulfur is good for the skin and does't irritate. B5 is good for body acne too. EFA's are supposed to be anti-inflammatory and I think they are good for eczema too.

Yeah, I'm trying everything at once because I don't have the time to try everything one at a time. B5 took care of my cystic acne, but I use sulfur for general redness and blackheads, but I'm adding immune support now to see if I can reduce my B5 and cuz I get swollen lymph nodes under my jaw for some reason like there is an infection somewhere. Anyway, sorry to rant, but just throwing out ideas. Good luck and hang tough!

[JulietteR]

Kathryn,
I completely understand how you feel. Although I am older than you, I had a very similar experience in jr. high and high school. My face was so bad it could have been in a dermatology text book. My dermatologist eventually told me there was nothing more he could do for me and that he felt as if he was wasting my money.

I know accutane gets a bad rap because of the side effects, but have you considered trying it? It's the only thing that ever worked for me. It was truly like a magic pill. I had hundreds and hundreds of pimples covering my face, back, and chest and within a month they were gone. It was like someone waved a magic wand and made them disappear. I took it through most of college, and I had girls beg me to tell them how my skin was so crystal clear (lol). Unfortunately, I'm one of those people it doesn't cure permanently and it always came back, although nowhere near as severe. Anyway, I'm sure you already know lots about it from reading the boards, but I just wanted to throw my two cents in. The suggestion about B5 is also good. Although it didn't work for me, I know it has helped some people, so it's worth a shot.
Best of luck,
Juliette

[arya]

Man, I feel for you girl. I gotta say I'm in the same boat, I feel like "why me???" and I also think that I would be relatively attractive if it weren't for my acne (NOT trying to sound conceited), but I feel like it totally pulls me down. I have like zero confidence when I'm out during the day, I turn my head when I'm talking to someone and just try to get the hell away from there asap! Ugh and the worst are the fluorescent lights in my classrooms. Why the hell can't they have less harsh lights???
God, it's quite pathetic, you know I wouldn't EVER think about lightint, angles of where it's pointing, before I got bloody acne. Now it's like, okay, don't sit there, that's directly under the light. I literally ANALYZE everywhere I sit....how pathetic is that????
God, sorry, this is supposed to be your thread and I'm totally babbling about myself. Anyway, I just wanted to say, TOTALLY understand. And you're so right about this being the time when you're supposed to be most beautiful, with a youthful glow, etc etc.... I have worse skin than my mom and she's 45.....SHE on the other hand has glowing skin...*sigh*

[Bleeding Soul]

guys grab a 40 and drink up lol thats what i did this weekend. fuck my skin it just keeps getting worse. girls aren't gonna like me so i already gave up on trying to ge them. so just do things that you don't hav eto worry about ur appearance like getting completely slopped. no i'm not an alcoholic just a guy who likes to party.

[cbfog]

yes... if you drink, you're invincible! except for the next day when you wake up feeling like crap with 5 new zits and a pounding headache.