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[MartinaL]

I just got back from my derm appointment, and i didnt want my mom in there with me cause she makes me feel worse...so when she left the room i started to cry, because im an idiot...and then the doctor comes in and scts like shes in a rush...and i just feel like she didnt care..and she injected me and now i feel uglier than ever..and she put me on more creams...i ran out and started crying so much and i was sobbing in the car...i tried to talk to her and ask her questions but she was just so hard to talk to...and now im going to see my boyfriend in south carolina on sat and i feel like the uggliest piece of shit, i dont even wanna go anymore..cause im just gonna cry the whole time...im so sorry for this, but im crying now locked in my room and i just had to get it out to people i know will understand....ugh...i hate this

[ayla]

I just got back from my derm appointment, and i didnt want my mom in there with me cause she makes me feel worse...so when she left the room i started to cry, because im an idiot...and then the doctor comes in and  scts like shes in a rush...and i just feel like she didnt care..and she injected me and now i feel uglier than ever..and she put me on more creams...i ran out and started crying so much and i was sobbing in the car...i tried to talk to her and ask her questions but she was just so hard to talk to...and now im going to see my boyfriend in south carolina on sat and i feel like the uggliest piece of shit, i dont even wanna go anymore..cause im just gonna cry the whole time...im so sorry for this, but im crying now locked in my room and i just had to get it out to people i know will understand....ugh...i hate this

Jeez..I'm sorry it's so rough. Your Doc sounds like a bit of a jerk, no offense. You're a very pretty girl, regardless of whether you have acne. It's not acne that makes people ugly, it's bad personality. I've never seen you post anything but sweetness. Try not to worry...I know that may sound all but impossible. But your BF loves you for you-not your face.

**HUGS**

Ayla
XXOO

[MartinaL]

thanks Ayla..you are ALWAYS so sweet as well, and beautiful at that

[Iarephel]

Try and enjoy yourself when you see your boyfriend. I know that is easier said then done, but you are very pretty and I am sure that is what your boyfriend sees and your personality. Not your acne. I can understand the crying...I mean all we want is to look like a normal person. But hang in there! There has to be something out there that will help us. And next time slap your derm. hehehe...j/k.

Last night I found out there is hope....I was talking to my bf on the phone and I told him I couldn't see him because I was sick, which is true. But also I haven't seen him in 3 weeks because I have been coming up with excuses since my face looks awful. I took a shower right after I got off the phone with him, and started crying. I wanted to see him but I didn't know what he would think. Right when I got out, there was a knock at the door. I was like crap, I hope that is not my boyfriend. I couldn't even begin to imagine the humilulation if he saw me like this since he's never seen me without makeup, let alone with my face this bad. So as pathetic as it was, I didn't answer the door. Then my phone rang. My roommate answers it and hands it to me...it was my bf telling me to go answer the door. I had no choice so I opened the door and he had a bottle of wine and flowers for me. I couldn't believe it. But he didn't care about my acne and being sick. We ended up having wonderful night, and to think I could have missed out on it!

Have a great weekend and have fun with your bf!

[MartinaL]

Try and enjoy yourself when you see your boyfriend. I know that is easier said then done, but you are very pretty and I am sure that is what your boyfriend sees and your personality. Not your acne. I can understand the crying...I mean all we want is to look like a normal person. But hang in there! There has to be something out there that will help us. And next time slap your derm. hehehe...j/k.

Last night I found out there is hope....I was talking to my bf on the phone and I told him I couldn't see him because I was sick, which is true. But also I haven't seen him in 3 weeks because I have been coming up with excuses since my face looks awful. I took a shower right after I got off the phone with him, and started crying. I wanted to see him but I didn't know what he would think. Right when I got out, there was a knock at the door. I was like crap, I hope that is not my boyfriend. I couldn't even begin to imagine the humilulation if he saw me like this since he's never seen me without makeup, let alone with my face this bad. So as pathetic as it was, I didn't answer the door. Then my phone rang. My roommate answers it and hands it to me...it was my bf telling me to go answer the door. I had no choice so I opened the door and he had a bottle of wine and flowers for me. I couldn't believe it. But he didn't care about my acne and being sick. We ended up having wonderful night, and to think I could have missed out on it!

Have a great weekend and have fun with your bf!

wow, thanks a lot for that....that story made me tingle!!!!! your boyfriend sounds like an amazing guy....im so happy for you...i know it's gonna take time.....so hopefully i can distract myself andnot look in the mirror....i dont want him to see me without makeup either...but i wanna tan and go swimming...ugh...i hope i feel better by this saturday...thanks again...such a sweet reply

[bumbum21]

The hardest thing about acne really is the emotional part and people who don't have this problem really juss don't understand. I was really down this whole month too...I brokedown a lot..hmm maybe everyday?! Seriously even though you do have other people's support, in the end you will juss realize that you are the one who has to stay strong because no matter how much people support you or don't support you, only you can feel the emotional pain. It's okay to feel down because it really is the only way you can be strong and realize that all this pain isn't worth your self-worth. But anytime you need anyone we are all here for you

[Goody317]

yeah at times we can all feel ugly inside out and out side in deeply. You'll get over it though, the older you grow you can look back at things and learn from them. I'm sry that happened to you but be strong. Worst things happen to other people, just make your self feel special as you are. Dry your eyes and keep walking... just face what you have to face. There is nothing more special than to see a person face what is given to them. Good Luck!

no more crying though, wipe your tears and be happy SMILE!

[MartinaL]

thanks a lot...both of you make very valid points, and i just hope i can be strong and see some beauty in me...i dont want to cry anymore...i'm really over it...and im over seeing red all over my face...ughhh

[bumbum21]

There is nothing more special than to see a person face what is given to them.

awwww...i really like dat one

[MartinaL]

yea i really liked that too

[Vince Is A Stud Muffin]

if he doesn't like u with acne then he wasn't the guy you were in love with in the first place.

[MartinaL]

thinking im ugly affects my personality

[MartinaL]

throw some zits on my cheeks and red marks.....that pic was a few months ago..

[adultAcne]

Hang in there Martina! It'll be over one day!

[mari]

i'm new to this site, but yesterday was so bad that i think without it i wouldn't have made it. everyone here is so amazing, i am so encouraged to hear all the wondeful things said and the strength and honesty everyone displays that i feel my own strength restored. i always thought i looked pretty good, i guess i hid my less good personality behind my looks. Through acne i have found out who i really am i have been given the oppurtunity to 'get real' and yes to face what i have been given. i was always very shy, but strangely in some ways have more confidence now and i am less judgemental. For me some good has come from this blight. i feel ugly, i could hardly believe any guy would be interested, but slowly and surely i feel more real, less fake, less superficial, less concerned by appearences. it still hurts tremendously. i totally relate. i am so touched by everyone. i just needed to make contact, i'm not sure how this site really works yet, whether i'm saying the right stuff in the right places.... i just know the emotional side of this is really really hard. i feel damaged and i feel that all the bad stuff about my personality is written in my scars. it is almost never out my mind. i hope you have a wonderful time on saturday. best wishes.x

[MartinaL]

i'm new to this site, but yesterday was so bad that i think without it i wouldn't have made it. everyone here is so amazing, i am so encouraged to hear all the wondeful things said and the strength and honesty everyone displays that i feel my own strength restored. i always thought i looked pretty good, i guess i hid my less good personality behind my looks. Through acne i have found out who i really am i have been given the oppurtunity to 'get real' and yes to face what i have been given.  i was always very shy, but strangely in some ways have more confidence now and i am less judgemental. For me some good has come from this blight. i feel ugly, i could hardly believe any guy would be interested, but slowly and surely i feel more real, less fake, less superficial, less concerned by appearences. it still hurts tremendously. i totally relate. i am so touched by everyone. i just needed to make contact, i'm not sure how this site really works yet, whether i'm saying the right stuff in the right places.... i just know the emotional side of this is really really hard. i feel damaged and i feel that all the bad stuff about my personality is written in my scars. it is almost never out my mind. i hope you have a wonderful time on saturday. best wishes.x

hey thanks so much, you are a sweetheart, and i am very happy to hear that you are benefiting from this in some way...im sure you are a wonderful person, and its awesome that you are seeing that too...thanks for your reply and welcome to the boards....i hope i wil be able to help you in some way sometime...

[ayla]

thinking im ugly affects my personality

Still, unless you're a drastically different person in the flesh than you are this board, you're a sweetie. And thanks for the compliment...I'm having the breakout f/hell right now too...stupid #$@%* period...hope marvin's not around

So is it mostly isolated to your cheeks? Hmmm, that could be a symptom of some things...if you don't mind, could we try and see if we can figure out if something
besides life's cruel jokes?

Ayla
xxoo