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[WildStaringEyes]

I was suffering from depression. I didn't care about myself or about anything. I spent all day at home, asleep. I didn't eat much, I literally didn't do ANYTHING.

Then the girl of my dreams asks me out on the phone, we haven't seen each other since grade school but I make up some excuse of why I can't see her. The real reason was because I hated/HATE my physical appearance. I was afraid she'd puke and just leave after seeing me. So then I started improving my physical appearance and when I was at my clearest I asked her out and NOW SHE'S MARRIED. HA. I'm so stupid.

This is the only time anyone has ever asked me out, let alone talk to me. I've had depression since I was very young, maybe 13-14. I am now 22 and I do not speak to anyone. No one speaks to me and I don't go out, ever. I live alone and just go to class, come home, sleep and repeat. Sometimes I check if anything new is happening online. Everyday I regret not saying yes to her question. Sigh..

Don't worry about your acne, the best thing to do is to talk to her about it. Tell her how you feel and see how it goes from there. Don't wait, you will just keep losing confidence and making the relationship works.