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[fatalbert911]

I'm a 19 year old male who has suffered with acne since i was 12 years old. i'll never forget the first day i got it, one night i was fine, but the next morning i woke up to what felt like ant bites on my face. As i made my way to the bathroom mirror i stared in horror as 4 huge zit's came out at once! little did i know back then that i was about to start a journey that would leave me in psychological & emotional ruin.. You see acne hit my like a ton of bricks at a very early age & it only got worse with time. I had it all you name dozens of Huge puss filled pimples that left scabs fore month's, huge pores, Many many dark marks, the dry pealing of the skin. please do realize that i had all of this all at once when it was at it's worse & it lasted a few years. i truly did look like a monster, really that's how much i't disfigured my face. I can honestly say these last 7 years have been a true nightmare. My high school career was nothing more than one massively depressing existence day after day. i didn't even go to my own dame graduation... had almost no friends and let's not even mention anything about a gf. i almost never went out of the house because every time i would, i would be treated like a walking freak show. i'v lost count as to how many times i'v been called ugly, how many people i'v seen cringing their face when they'd looked at me. no matter what i did or where i was it was always the same. i'v been to the airport 3 times each a year apart & every time i would go into a near panic attack because i knew what laid in store for me. god i'v been so humiliated enough perhaps for even a life time! All because of acne! my face has FINALLY started to clear up but i can already tell that i'll be left with ice pick scars that i'll probably have to blow a lot of money to get rid off -_-. Even if my face got back to near perfect condition's witch by now i would gladly live with. how in the hell can i or anyone expect me to become a functional member of society as if nothing has happened!? it's been a year sense high school and i haven't done a dame thing with my life, i have no job haven't looked into college all because i'm w8ting for my skin to get just a tad bit better to where i fell comfortable enough with my self at least to communicate with others and get thing's done, I WANT to better myself. I want a good job, a happy family & children to call my own someday... i'm just grateful that my skin has gotten good enough to where i'm not a walking freak show anymore. but man did it do a number on me, my confidence is next to none. i just want to start my freaking life already & put this horrific chapter to rest permanently...

[Binga]

Have you been to dermatologists? What kind of medication are u taking ? If your acne is severe u should go for accutane.

[Murph89]

I'm a 19 year old male who has suffered with acne since i was 12 years old. i'll never forget the first day i got it, one night i was fine, but the next morning i woke up to what felt like ant bites on my face. As i made my way to the bathroom mirror i stared in horror as 4 huge zit's came out at once! little did i know back then that i was about to start a journey that would leave me in psychological & emotional ruin.. You see acne hit my like a ton of bricks at a very early age & it only got worse with time. I had it all you name dozens of Huge puss filled pimples that left scabs fore month's, huge pores, Many many dark marks, the dry pealing of the skin. please do realize that i had all of this all at once when it was at it's worse & it lasted a few years. i truly did look like a monster, really that's how much i't disfigured my face. I can honestly say these last 7 years have been a true nightmare. My high school career was nothing more than one massively depressing existence day after day. i didn't even go to my own dame graduation... had almost no friends and let's not even mention anything about a gf. i almost never went out of the house because every time i would, i would be treated like a walking freak show. i'v lost count as to how many times i'v been called ugly, how many people i'v seen cringing their face when they'd looked at me. no matter what i did or where i was it was always the same. i'v been to the airport 3 times each a year apart & every time i would go into a near panic attack because i knew what laid in store for me. god i'v been so humiliated enough perhaps for even a life time! All because of acne! my face has FINALLY started to clear up but i can already tell that i'll be left with ice pick scars that i'll probably have to blow a lot of money to get rid off -_-. Even if my face got back to near perfect condition's witch by now i would gladly live with. how in the hell can i or anyone expect me to become a functional member of society as if nothing has happened!? it's been a year sense high school and i haven't done a dame thing with my life, i have no job haven't looked into college all because i'm w8ting for my skin to get just a tad bit better to where i fell comfortable enough with my self at least to communicate with others and get thing's done, I WANT to better myself. I want a good job, a happy family & children to call my own someday... i'm just grateful that my skin has gotten good enough to where i'm not a walking freak show anymore. but man did it do a number on me, my confidence is next to none. i just want to start my freaking life already & put this horrific chapter to rest permanently...

As you search and read more in the forum, you will find you are not alone when it comes to this. Sure we all experience different shit at different times, but it when it all boils down to it, its alllllllll because of acne. I know where your coming from. I was in your place at your age. Things got great and my skin cleared up by the time I was 21, only to last a year and a half. It is what it is. Its not permanent. Nothing is.

Have you considered seeing a therapist? I see one once or twice and a week and its been a godsend for me. We are all here for you man! This forum is amazing and has amazing people.

[fatalbert911]

i'v never really used anything for it, in my case it's been purely hormonal. i did try proactive a LONG time ago but that didn't do much & most recently i tryed the murad acne system that did have some effect but again nothing too special. currently i'm not using anything because i felt that there is no need to sense my hormone levels are finally beginning to stabilize i can tell this simply by looking at my face, it's nothing like it was 2 years ago or even last year. the hyper pigmentation is slowly going away, but like i said the last thing i'll have to deal with is mostly the ice pick scars after that i think it will look as normal as possible at least i hope. As of yet i'v never really gone to any sort of counseling for this, i'v just managed to "man" it out really although there where day's where i almost gave up i think at some point i was an emotional zombie of sorts. But that was during high school, i had to be tough emotional just to keep living. the only thing that gave me comfort was knowing that it wasn't always gonna be like that & it's beginning to come true but i'm not fully there yet. even though it's only been a year sense school it's really helped me out emotionally because i'v thought about this whole mess in a rational and logical way, i don't blame people for how they treated me after all people are always afraid of what's different & who know's i might have done the same thing if i never had seen someone like i was before. i do realize that this....disease has opened my eye's to a lot of thing's some good, some bad but if i have learned anything from this whole ordeal it's that i'm now a better person over all because of it. i know that if i do manage to look normal enough to be accepted in society... well there's no limit's to what i could do. i'd probably join one of the branches in our armed forces for the experience and of course the benefit's it can offer me. But i MUST fell comfortable enough with myself before i can do anything. because my acne has been purely hormonal i don't really think it'll be coming back once it's gone & defiantly never as bad as i had it during my mid teen years! it's been a real hard journey but i can see the finish line ahead of me & believe me when i say i'm SO ready to get there! my hopes are to look completely or just about normal by the time i'm 19 & a half/ or 20. but no further then that because well i'm tiered of this effecting my social, emotional & spiritual well being.