Your back because threw weakness or stupidity your letting acne crap on your life again. Your making irrational snap judgments and looking for a quick fix for days, weeks and months of not investing enough time, effort, money and willpower in the most important battle of your life.
Maybe you let that desire to be normal and be like everyone else, trick you into breaking the rules that only effect you.
Did you get tired? Did your focus or willpower fail when you should have been disciplined and strong? Do you think you have a God given right to health, and you just deserve clear skin? Get Over It.
Maybe deep down you like this half-ass disease. Maybe you use the pain free bullshit symptoms to hide from life, people and that One Thing you know you really want to do, but too chickenshit to go for it. Never try-never fail. Maybe you use it to hide from yourself and how great you really are and can be. Maybe your a fighter and you think to beat this beast you will gain more self knowledge,confidence andcontrol than most people will ever know... Stop wasteing your life with weakness. Lets do this.
Accept the facts once and for all. Your body is handicapped, fucked up, defective. Your body limits the things you can put into it by effecting your skin. Does a blind man ever think hes not blind and cross the street in traffic? No stupid. Your digestion, hormones and inflammation process is jacked, suck it up. Stop lying to yourself, let people know up front you've got food allergies and you wont compromise. Some people can die from certain food allergies, you know its killed a large part of your life.
This is the only body you got, you'd better get with the fucking program, for the rest of your life, or pay the price. This is more than looks or feeling ugly. Thats right, happiness- success- love- sanity.
Certainty is a human need- its a fact. Inconsistency and uncertainty are used in some forms of torture. Acne is lethal to the concept and feeling of certainty (how will your face look tomorrow?) This uncertainty breeds fear and subconscious conflict, this Literally drives you crazy to find and be certain of what the root of the uncertainty is, the cause of breakouts. When you cant solve the problem others see you as dirty, ugly- genetically inferior-less loveable..Add to that your own frustration, feeling stupid and confused- you loose trust in yourself- feel and act like a loser- worthless to a degree. My answer to this..
My body is handicapped, fucked up, defective. This is MY certainty- this is power. I NEVER ask why me. I ask what now. I am certain of this- I have very conststant behaviors that offset my weakness, I have a battle plan and I don't flinch or waver when it comes to doing something unhealthy.
Why cant I eat whats not healthy? The side effects. Why don't I use heroin, crack or risky sex? the side effects. Its all or nothing with this fight. I cant let my guard down. Acne is the dEvil and will do everything in its power to make me cave in, forget, be lazy or plain stupid. Acne wants me to have that hot cappuccino, that one slice of pizza, that one bud light beer, that one hand full of chips. It knows just one small misfire in the system is all it takes to stall, crash and have a life meltdown... Fuck That!
Not only will I be wounded and feeling helpless, it will Literally steal my Future! How? Because I'd be so afraid to make plans and make goals and dates. Uncertainty remember. Fail to plan=Plan to fail. IS IT WORTH IT?
-HAVE PLANS AND FOLLOW THREW - Makes the most of your good days and hibernation times,.
Expholiate- cold water 3x day toner and BP 1x day EVERYDAY, Fiber/colon- daily pills and veggies, Never ever get dehydrated, Get Sound Sleep (lights,noise) Boil pillow case, "Clean" detergents every thing else, NEVER skip a meal- your body is literally a factory- with cycles, Never over-do workouts/CARDIO- throws off all body systems, DETOX- oil change for your body every 3000 miles. Fish Oil WD-40 for your body/mind, NEVER TOUCH COFFEE IT IS LETHAL you know it!- NO SALT! its made with evil and iodine, and will fuck you when you least expect it- its hiding on everything, No Sugar- how good does it feel to be free from that shit-powerful!(good job) ALWAYS- lots of Water IMMEDIATLY After Workouts and Sexxx,- Yeast is a beast, DAIRY makes you SCARY, Anything that stresses the heart/blood vessels/cells- caffine, nicotine, trans-fats, heavy cardio, salt, sugar, severe emotional shocks, fear stress ect..,Cut out all Wheat and Dairy-infamation, Most baked goods contain Lard-cement for your cells and system, Juice as much as poss-see Sick,Tired and Fat movie again, De-clutter your life-fight the skuz- create room for change, GET TESTED blood, vitamines, hair toxicity, thyroid, diabeties, psa, whatever-keep a record for future. Deep breath/visual/box, Avoid long hot showers- get clean get out, Use vinagars, carrots, almonds, fruits, vita drinks, If you must drink alcohol- agave tequilla-milk thistle before- apple cider vinagar after- suppliments asap. Sunscreen will not give you acne-use it alot. Whats left to eat after I reject the BS that effects acne? The EXACT diet thats scientificly proven to fight Every other disease, things could be worse.
When you get a large cyst it IS NOT effected by diet or topicals anymore, it is part of the circulitory/pulmonary system now (lol), not the skin, its alive and must be killed-get a shot asap, or wait for it to die when it wants to.
Your self-worth is directly related to what you focus on, what you focus on is controlled by your will power.
I'm proud of you for never giving up, never giving in, You've gotten so strong and smart, and this is just the start of a freedom you've never known.
Edited by sureshot, 04 February 2012 - 05:17 PM.