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[shelliebear]

I keep getting this ridiculous acne all over my face. These aren't just whiteheads or blackheads, these are painful lumps under my skin that turn red the second I just press my finger to them, angry and burning. They swell under my skin a bit and are very painful to just touch.
I have a severe skin picking problem, and I *CANNOT* tolerate these bumps on my face. I pick at the bumps and scratch the surface off, leaving a large scab, and then I pick the scab til it scars.
I get around 10 pimples or more when I do have a break-out, lots around my forehead, the side of my nose, and ESPECIALLY the chin. My skin around the pimple turns purply red.
I'm not sure if it's rosacea or pimples. If they're pimples, they really have no reason to be here--I'm on birth control pills, I was gently every two days and use acne pads daily.
THIS WILL NOT GO AWAY.
On top of it, when I notice them, I freak out, and pick, and pick, and get stressed. Then it seems more come and they don't stop.
When I scratch them, clear fluid comes out the first few times til a scab forms, and then after that, blood.
I'm scarring my face over this, it hurts really bad, and I'm sick of it.
PLEASE help...anyone else experienced this? What can I do, if anything? Should I call my doctor? My insurance runs out next month as I'll be turning 19.
I don't have enough money to go buy expensive products; the acne pads I have now were a gracious gift from my sister in law, when she found a spare pack of them in her apartment while moving and said she no longer used the brand, so I could have it.
What do I do??
I hate this. I'm ugly, I'm scarring myself, and my boyfriend is getting upset with me because I keep picking my scabs on my face and it's making him sad to see.
Shelliebear

Also, I sometimes get extremely painful, swollen pimples with lumps under the skin on my back or neck. These hurt even to have my shirt touch against. Don't know what to do anymore.