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[wishing2Bclear]

Everyday, my friends wake up, wash their faces with their CVS facewash that smells like fruit, brush their teeth, eat breakfast, put on some clothes, style their hair in a fun way, blink on some mascara, trace on some eyeliner, and go to school.

Everyday, I wake up, wash my face with my perscription face wash and clarisonic, brush my teeth, rub in my derm perscribed acid, rub in some mouisturizer, stand in front of a fan to help with the burning, put on my clothes, mix up my foundation (half foundation half mousterizer), wet my makeup sponge and apply it lightly, paint over any spots (correction: many spots), use a brush to pat on powder, go over most of the spots again, use powder again, go over some of the spots with powder and concealer a final time, maybe put on eye makeup if i have time, run a brush through my hair, take my antibiotics with my breakfast of fruit juice (my family has a juicer) on the car ride to school, and stumble into school, too afriad of my own reflection to look at myself in the mirror.

And you know what makes this even more unfair? My friends aren't even good people. They're mean. They never are nice just for the sake of being nice. I'm nice. I'm actually the only person I know whose nice just to make other people happy.

I don't want to live like this anymore. I just want to be normal. Don't I deserve to be normal?

[dmb41]

Your final sentences I can relate to. I try my best to do the right thing, help people, be nice to people, eat healthy, etc, and I get plagued with acne. But the meth addict on cops has clear skin, awesome.

Oh well, everything happens for a reason I guess.

[wishing2Bclear]

I suppose the only reason for me to have acne is that it has made me a better person. I don't judge on appearences so much anymore, I'm more aware of how my faults make me feel, so I take special care to never make anyone feel self- conscious of their flaws. But I've learned my lesson, can't I just be clear now? I'm tired of feeling ugly.

[snsdgirl14]

You're not ugly because of your acne. Your acne is a temporary problem - it will go away, trust me.

I know how you feel though. I look at my friends with clear skin and wonder what it must be like to be able to literally roll out of bed and get ready in 5 minutes, not having to use concealer or foundation. If I want to look as good as possible I take at least 10 minutes to get all of my makeup done, and most of that 10 minutes is rubbing in concealer and putting on powder. And the worst part is, the makeup only looks good for about 2 hours...after that, it just starts to cake.

I've never had GREAT skin so I've always had to use foundation and concealer, but never to this extent. I'm so exhausted. ugh.

[wishing2Bclear]

I take at least 30 minutes to do my face makeup when my skins being a little hard to deal with. when it's being impossible to deal with... well... those are the days I fake being sick and go back to bed.

And the worst part is knowing that I spent 45 minutes getting my face ready this morning, and my friends are still prettier than me, even when they're wearing absolutely no makeup and just rolled out of bed.

I hate knowing that with all the work I put into my face every morning, I'm still the ugly girl.

[Lee1234]

Acne is harsh. (an understatement) It forces you to change your way of thinking, your approach to life, it humbles you (against your will). It's great that acne has taught you lessons that a lot of people with clarity, never learn. The problem is, when you finally concede and say to yourself "Ok, I get it. I've learnt my lesson", it doesn't make a difference. Acne continues to plague you until you are defeated mentally, physically and emotionally. I and all the members on the board know your pain, so you're not alone and you have our empathy. Just keep trying to find what works for you and stick to it, hopefully you'll be completely free to live your life as you want (fun hairstyles and all ) This annoying disease stops A LOT of people form being themselves and I know how frustrating that can be. I'd like to suggest trying the caveman regime, perhaps when you're on holiday or something. That aided in getting my skin back to the way God intended. Although, do some research first and make your own decision, but I would never recommend something that wasn't effective. Good luck and smile

Edited by Lee1234, 24 January 2012 - 02:37 PM.

[thrillpink]

You're only focusing on one thing. Yes, acne is something nobody wants, but it happens, just like other diseases, accidents, family tragedies.
You're comparing yourself to your friends on only one level. You think just because they have good skin their life is perfect? There are so many things that can go wrong and do not show on the outside.
Asking yourself why this is happening is pointless. Do people deserve cancer? No. Do people deserve an abusive father? No. Life is messy.

[Lt Aldo raine]

Im a guy but I know exactly what you go through. I Have the typical "guy" friends who eat whatever, do whatever, and have never touch a bar of soap to their skin, Yet they are no skin problems.

But please keep holding on, your time will come. This pain is not eternal. Im not going to tell you not to worry about how you look because I know it is easier said then done. You will learn on your own how to be a stronger person, and sometimes that can take many years, but you will get there. I know because I finally am.

[gemmyjunebug]

This makes me sad.
You know you are nice. You know the difference. You can understand and relate to laughs and judgements. My love~ what goes around comes around. It's called Karma. Everything has a reason. Whether we choose to believe or see it later as life goes on... You are a beautiful heart with compassion that is struggling with the insecure feelings of mean friends. Stay friends with them or decide to move on..it's your move. Just know that life has a purpose. You have a meaning. You are not your prescriptions, medications, or creams..your stronger because of this.. YOU! have a purpose. Go through a few hoops of medications- my guess? You will shine beyond your beauty anyway. Beauty does fade. A heart of compassion..never.
It's a bump. You'll get through. Just believe. I think I can..I think I can..because you will.

[alexaaa]

wishing2Bclear, on 23 January 2012 - 09:16 PM, said:

wash their faces with their CVS facewash that smells like fruit

Hahahah that made me laugh. You seem like you have a great personality =)

[guillotineSavvy]

Oh, I can relate so much! I travel to different cities with my good friends a few times a year, and we usually all hang around in the bathroom, doing our hair and make-up together, but in the past months, I've been hiding in my room, putting on 'pre-make-up', so to speak. It's my dream to be able to roll out of bed, slap on a bit of eyeliner and be on my pretty way

But, hey, I do think that we'll all get there eventually. The problem with acne is that it takes months to go away with medicine, and sometimes years to go away on its own, but I can promise that it will one day be gone.

Stay strong. It seems like you're being proactive about your acne, and, for me at least, taking my pills in the morning makes me feel at ease, like I'm doing something about my problems.