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[ilikeicedtea]

Sup kind people. I don't know where to begin. Okay I'll just start rambling, well I don't have acne, it's not in my genetics, it's more of something I did that causes one pimple here and there but it's left me with scars. I'm 22 right now, and before I got these scars I couldn't even see acne on other people, nor scars, hell I didn't even know they existed. I don't really want to talk about how I inflicted the pimples on myself in the first place, I posted that in my introduction post a while back.

Well now everytime I go outside all I can do is look at other peoples faces, and I'll end up with my heart racing so fast and I can't stand it, I have to go home. It's terrible. I hope I get over this, my scars according to my family are nothing. Of course they won't see it the way they do, they don't get it, they don't have any acne or scars. I wouldn't have gotten it either if I was talking to myself 4 years ago when I still had my perfect skin cause I couldn't SEE it ya know?

I'm mainly posting this because going out is just not the same anymore. I just don't understand how traumatic could be and now I feel for people with acne, I can't believe what you all go through, it's insane! In a way it's a good thing I had my little bout with pimples and scars because it opened my eyes to people who really have it bad. Weird thing is even when someone had acne it didn't bother me at all. I remember flirting with this gorgeous girl who had lots and lots of pimples back when I was clear. I didn't even care about them, she was just so hot! But see that's the thing, I'm having a hard time just being myself and talking to girls like I used to. Just talking to people in general, I feel as if I need to hide something. Eugh.

Edited by ilikeicedtea, 17 January 2012 - 03:56 PM.

[Tyga]

If you could see that girl was gorgeous despite her acne, why can't another girl see beyond your acne and scars? Of course you are going to be super critical of your skin. You look at it in the mirror every single day.

There are hundreds of personality traits and quirks that go beyond physical appearance. I know all of us want to be secretly desired by the other people in society. Why else would we put in the work to get dressed up, practice good hygiene and care about our skin? Too bad poor hygiene is mistakenly associated with acne.

You said it yourself. You didn't notice acne on other people, so why do you assume every day strangers are going to be staring at your face? And you will find a girl who can see past your acne, but you won't ever find her if you stay closed off.

[JSA]

Tyga, on 17 January 2012 - 04:31 PM, said:

If you could see that girl was gorgeous despite her acne, why can't another girl see beyond your acne and scars? Of course you are going to be super critical of your skin. You look at it in the mirror every single day.

There are hundreds of personality traits and quirks that go beyond physical appearance. I know all of us want to be secretly desired by the other people in society. Why else would we put in the work to get dressed up, practice good hygiene and care about our skin? Too bad poor hygiene is mistakenly associated with acne.

You said it yourself. You didn't notice acne on other people, so why do you assume every day strangers are going to be staring at your face? And you will find a girl who can see past your acne, but you won't ever find her if you stay closed off.

Don't take this the wrong way, and maybe I'm just imagining things, but your posts the past two days are a lot more optimistic/positive than before (not that they were pessimistic before or anything, just they are more optimistic now), haha. Good to see, though right now I'm the most pessimistic about my acne/PIH situation that I've been in a long time, heh.

Edited by JSA, 17 January 2012 - 05:39 PM.

[ilikeicedtea]

Tyga, on 17 January 2012 - 04:31 PM, said:

If you could see that girl was gorgeous despite her acne, why can't another girl see beyond your acne and scars? Of course you are going to be super critical of your skin. You look at it in the mirror every single day.

There are hundreds of personality traits and quirks that go beyond physical appearance. I know all of us want to be secretly desired by the other people in society. Why else would we put in the work to get dressed up, practice good hygiene and care about our skin? Too bad poor hygiene is mistakenly associated with acne.

You said it yourself. You didn't notice acne on other people, so why do you assume every day strangers are going to be staring at your face? And you will find a girl who can see past your acne, but you won't ever find her if you stay closed off.

See I know what you mean, I've thought the same thing to myself and I knew someone would say so too. I can see past others acne but I just didn't know how difficult it would be to actually HAVE it. My perspective has changed a whole lot. And I had ever even had a single pimple when I was flirting with that girl years ago so my mindset was way different. I mean it still doesn't bother ME that others have problems with their skin but others aren't as nice as I am all the time.I haven't had acne my whole life, like I said, it came just suddenly out of nowhere... it's something I have to get used to but it's ridiculous how hard it is. Though I don't actually have acne, it's just scars now because it was a temporary thing until I found out what was actually breaking me out. I just wish scars were temporary too. I don't think acne would bother me if I always had it but having it come out of nowhere especially when I'm this much older is something I can't really get used to. I think I'm more upset that it was my fault I did this to myself. it's just really upsetting.

[mini7]

I know exactly what you mean. I've had acne for many years but just recently it got way way worse (my own fault for using a really bad product) and I currently have cystic acne all over my lower face. I never realized how much pain and self consciousness this can cause. I mean don't get me wrong, I've had plenty of acne and breakouts in the past, but never this severe. I used to see bad acne on other people, and I would feel badly for them but I never really wondered how they felt walking around the world with severe acne especially in a society that is as image conscious as ours. I can honestly say this has been a really really painful yet eye opening experience for me. If I take nothing else from this, at least it has let me walk a mile in other people's shoes

[ilikeicedtea]

Ugh crap, I just woke up this morning and had to look at myself in the mirror, I just dropped to the ground and felt like my heart was gonna blow up. Just six months ago my skin was all perfect. This is bullshit.

[beentheredonethat1]

R.I.P

[lightersUP]

Icedtea, sorry to hear what you're going through. I can definitely relate to the feeling of going from clear-faced to acne. It's always been a back and forth thing for me. What happened that cause you to breakout? Did it just come outta nowhere?

[Shello]

Wow, it's almost creepy with howmuch I can relate to your story. Still here waiting for "the miracle cure" to appear. Hang on there bro, we will have clear skin eventually.

[ilikeicedtea]

beentheredonethat1, on 18 January 2012 - 02:23 PM, said:

R.I.P

lol.

lightersUP, on 18 January 2012 - 04:10 PM, said:

Icedtea, sorry to hear what you're going through. I can definitely relate to the feeling of going from clear-faced to acne. It's always been a back and forth thing for me. What happened that cause you to breakout? Did it just come outta nowhere?

I wrote all of that in my introduction post, it's kind of ridiculous but here I am with clear skin (its the scars that are bothering me at this point) Umm but to sum it up, I started breaking out after becoming sexually active. lol it's not like I have an STD though! I just get oily skin which on my naturally dry skin doesn't make for a pretty sight. It took my 3 years to figure this out, at first, with my first break out ever I was confused as hell, then by trial and error I figured out what was causing me pimples. I recently became abstinent for a whole year and my skin was back to normal like it was when I was a teenager. I even went to my cousins wedding and with full confidence, clear skin and looked like a badass haha. But I mean come on after a year of feeling like a monk I said a little fun can't hurt. Mother fuckin caused me 3 big ass cysts on my cheek which have scarred along with other tiny pimples. Eugh. I hope this post isn't too vulgar, I'm not trying for it to be. It's just my story. That's also why it's hard to even talk about it with my family, I just can't... too awkward. Also after every time I stopped anything sexy I went back to normal skin, but when I started again it came back WORSE. EVERYTIME! I'm feeling alright at the moment though, felt like crap in the morning. I'll probably get over this but will always have that regret. I can at least control any break outs now though. After this happening so many times I know exactly how much oilyness will cause me to break out. Lol I never thought I'd wish I was that virgin high school kid again hahaha.

Edited by ilikeicedtea, 18 January 2012 - 09:19 PM.

[snsdgirl14]

ilikeicedtea, on 18 January 2012 - 09:47 AM, said:

Ugh crap, I just woke up this morning and had to look at myself in the mirror, I just dropped to the ground and felt like my heart was gonna blow up. Just six months ago my skin was all perfect. This is bullshit.

Just think, if six months ago your skin was perfect (and in perspective, six months isn't a really long time) then what do you think it will look like in six more months? If you've seen a derm, taking medication etc. then I have no doubt that your skin will improve, gradually. You just have to give it time. I'm going through a bad breakout right now too, and even though I get really down about it, I know in the end the worst thing to do would be to give up. And I've felt like I was giving up this week---I've missed classes, stayed in bed all day, cried in the middle of the day because of my skin...but I know that things can only improve from here, and in a few months, my skin will be looking a lot better.

Give it time. Time heals all, and I know you'll feel better about all of this with time.

[ilikeicedtea]

I'm more angry that I did this to myself. I think I'd be more okay if I got pimples out of nowhere for no reason, but just knowing that I did it all makes me so infuriated.

[ilikeicedtea]

Damn. Every second I'm awake I'm thinking about this, these scars and the fact this is real for me. That I get pimples from something as natural as sex. I feel guilty as hell, I don't get it. From the second a wake up to the moment I go to bed; constant remorse. Eugh.

[mrjarjarbinks77]

Tyga, on 17 January 2012 - 04:31 PM, said:

If you could see that girl was gorgeous despite her acne, why can't another girl see beyond your acne and scars? Of course you are going to be super critical of your skin. You look at it in the mirror every single day.

There are hundreds of personality traits and quirks that go beyond physical appearance. I know all of us want to be secretly desired by the other people in society. Why else would we put in the work to get dressed up, practice good hygiene and care about our skin? Too bad poor hygiene is mistakenly associated with acne.

You said it yourself. You didn't notice acne on other people, so why do you assume every day strangers are going to be staring at your face? And you will find a girl who can see past your acne, but you won't ever find her if you stay closed off.

This is so true. I met a girl over a year ago and I didn't think about my skin. I was over powered with the desire and feeling compelled to meet her. We really hit it off and the circumstances and situation was far from perfect. It still didn't put me down or stop me and if I didn't take the chance, I would have missed out on this experience. What i didnt know was just how bad I was and my skin was broken out or early stages of a breakout which is the worst. She liked me. I was trying to make her like me. We just had chemistry and hit it off. It felt good and it was past the limiting beliefs or crap we have to go through on a regular basis.