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[snsdgirl14]

Hi all. So, I have no doubt in my mind that right now, I am depressed. I don't know if it's ever been this bad before....and my skin's never looked worse either.

I've always struggled with acne, but during my first semester in college, I got the worst breakout I think I've ever had. It was weird because it was a ton of red marks on my cheeks, but not many raised pimples. So, I would just cover it with makeup and I thought I was okay. I wasn't taking any medication or doing anything because I was in college so I couldn't get to a derm. I think, in all honesty, my birth control is what brought on the breakout.

Meanwhile, I have had this friend for months now who emotionally abuses me on a daily basis. We basically started off flirting with each other, and as the semester progressed and we became more comfortable with each other, he started teasing me a lot. The teasing has gotten worse and worse to the point where it seems like he actually wants to hurt me. He'll call me ugly, pretend to vomit when he sees me, talk about how stupid or useless I am, and then play off all these things as "jokes" if I seem upset. So, I played them off as "jokes" too. Meanwhile, near the middle of the semester, we started hooking up on the side whenever we were alone. He would only act nice to me when we were alone and then we would end up kissing etc. It made me feel as though he didn't mean all those "jokes" he made and actually cared about me.

But now, yesterday, I came to a breaking point when I heard him make a joke about my acne to another good friend of mine. I was so hurt because he knows that I care about him yet he doesn't care at all about me, obviously, or my feelings. He's manipulative, and has threatened me before that if I made him angry enough he could make me want to leave university. He uses these threats to make me not stand up to him and then reels me back in with false, sweet words when we're alone. I honestly have never met anyone in my life who speaks to me the way he does, and it's with utter disrespect. It depresses me that I've allowed myself to be treated like this by someone, and someone I thought cared for me deep down.

I have the support of my other friends, but it doesn't help my mood all that much. I feel so depressed about my skin, my social circle, everything. My skin is still pretty bad; the hyperpigmentation is bad. It could be worse, much much worse, but my depression is already set into motion. I feel like it's going to be so difficult to focus on my studies this semester, and I really need to make good grades this semester. I feel so broken and don't even know what to do anymore. Honestly, I wish I could be happy, I really do.

[FK in the coffee]

He sounds like a real charmer. :I
I'd tell him to go fall in a hole, based on what you've said he sounds like an unhealthy "friend" to have.

What he thinks is irrelevant, you need to focus on yourself. Have you tried treating your face with anything? You never know, maybe all it needs is a little bit of management. (:

[Tyga]

Why do you still associate with him? Seriously?

[soysauce]

He is a very unhealthy friend to have around, he knows exactly what hes doing. Im a guy, I know guys are manipulative and say what they want to get what they want. It honestly sounds like he has no heart whatsoever. I think you need to give him a backhand the next time you hear something from him. get rid of this "friend" right now

[Coppedsynergy999]

I agree with the above post. Look girly i know. Nowadays we have these desperate little gremlins some call men who spend alot of time trying to learn how to psychologically trick women into feeling desperate enough and in turn get themseves laid. He is just messing with your head. Hes using the push-pull trick. Hes making you psychologically invested and its working, the only thing is your becoming invested in a highly damaging way becuase hes a fucking tool. STOP HOOKING UP WITH HIM.....you are opening up yourself on a very primal sacred level to something harmful. If I didnt know better ide say it was the devil himself manipulating this guy becuase in the end he will end up alone and sad and depressed. Jump ship before this goofball goes under for good. Its not your problem honey, it his. Oh yeah, and if hes making such an effort to do this, your probably gorgeous.