14- acne, not worried, my acne started mild, got to moderate.use over the counter stuff, with lessening success as time went on.
15-after trying the not do anything for acne shit, my acne got severe. retina and some oral antibiotic didnt do shit. also, i wasent using the retina properly, just as spot treatment.
then i found proactiv and it calmed my acne to 90-95% of what it was. I was pretty damn satisfied with that. sometimes i would be 100% clear, but it must have been because my acne was in remission.....
then the 5 years I was fine acnewise....then proactiv stop working!! wtf!! i thought you were not suppose to grow immune to bp!!!
i panicked, and i went to a derm. he gave me plexion/benzaclin combo which worked for another 5 years, plus oral solodyn. that shit worked even better than proactiv!!! 100% clear, absolutely no pimples. after several months i dropped the pill. still clear. after a year and some months i dropped the benzaclin. still clear. well a year ago i started breaking out more than usual. i immediately added the pills and benzaclin. clear in less than a month. i dropped both the pills and benzaclin after several months again, and stayed clear for several months afterwards. i say six. BUT THAT BREAKOUT WAS A SIGNAL OF WHAT WAS TO COME!!!
in august i started again big pustules again. i was like, ok, no need to panic, just add the benzaclin and pills. well that shit didnt work anymore. and i immediately knew it when i wasent clear in a month. i went to a new derm which prescribed me epiduo, bp wash, and doxycyclin pills. after a week i went to my old derm to get a second opinion, and he said to use my old shit that i didnt give it enough time. i foolishly believed him, when i knew how this shit work since ive been using it for 5 years. it doesnt take that fucking long!! so after a whole 2 months wasted, i went to a derm that i researched and had good ratings. he looked at my face and said you need accutane.
so this is my 8th day on 20mg claravis.
but here is the story, at the same time iam dealing with this crap, my BF dumped me ( . so iam dealing with a heartbreak at the same time with this shit!! i try not to let the depression hit me, but it fucking hurts having acne and being dumped!! damn why did i have to get hit with a double wammy. AND THE FUCKING SHIT IS THAT I STILL LOVE HIM!! WHY CANT I GET OVER HIM LIKE HE GOT OVER ME SO EASILY!!
well Ill reveal more of my story as I update my log for all those that are interested.
so anyways, thought I would update since I have nothing else to do. I know its fast lmao!!
maybe dry lips?? but I dont know if its the winter....besides that, I still have the oil refinery that is my face!!! I really think maybe I should have been started at a higher dose than 20 mg/ a day. I mean granted my acne is not mild by all means. it moderate and sometimes it gets moderately severe. shit is gonna move at a snail phase at this rate. so i have absolutely no side effects. i guess i broke with one tiny whitehead on my nose which is rare, cause i never broke out with in my nose. is that an accutane effect. as far as my mood, well ive been depressed and anxious before accutane, so not the accutane sorry.
well I am still talking to my ex, but he treats me like I am a stranger and kinda shitty... i should prob stop talking to him right?? also, I think I found a potential sex buddy friend, but he hasent seen me in person. what would he say when he actually sees me. will he run for the hills?? everybody keeps telling me i should date, hook up and stuff, but dont they not see my face?? like seriously?? even one of my friends tried to get laid with me, but I just dont feel him that way.....am I a hard judge on myself??
i mean i have 2 small pimples on my forehead with a shitload of hyperpigmentation. my right temple has a shitload of hyperpigmentation and my left has a big pustule or nodule thats dying. my cheeck has a medium size pustule, and my left has two small pimples. but my jawline has 2-4 pimples each. and did a mention a shitload of hyperpigmentation?? can someone really be attracted to me??
Edited by jhonyguy04, 05 January 2012 - 12:17 PM.