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[Kaylei]

So today is lame old' Christmas . I don't care if I sound like the grinch but I just hate all the holidays now . This year my acne has been the worst and I've become a drepressed anti social weird freak .I wasn't like this even a year back today , I remember being exited for Christmas last year and all the years before and buying little sentimental gifts for my family and being exited to open my presents and spending time .... Blah blah .... Now this year I wasn't even exited for ANY holiday or even my birthday that I didn't even have any cake or presents . 17 years in my life an I'm like this , it just makes me tear up . Wasting my life but I can't help it , something unnavoidable , well today was freaking horrible as well . My family and some cousins who came to visit went to eat breakfast at IHop and it was terrible . They sat us in a booth near the window with harsh day light and I was trying my best to cover my face . I wanted to eat some pankakes or an omelette but no I had to get a stupid ceasar salad with grilled chicken because I wanted the healthiest choice .the lettuce was nasty and they nearly put any dressing , I ate like 1/4 of it . Everyone else was eating pankakes with eggs and steaks and Crepes and waffles ... Ughhhh I was just drooling and I looked stupid eating a salad for breakfast . I was all anxious because my cousins could see my nasty skin even with makeup in harsh lighting and it's all dry looking because of the regimen -_- last nights dinner was terrible too , I don't laugh/smile or enjoy any moment anymore , I always want to be alone . I mean some family members are watching a movie ATM and im stuck here in my parents room . Just hate how acne has sucked all the best of me and I don't know who I am anymore . Just a rant .

[Kara =)]

I know exactly how you feel especially today cause you have to visit family, and it's horrible and whenever they look at my face I get self conscious and look away. When I woke up to open my presents, my mom had her camera and was taking pictures and I wasn't too excited about that. I tried my hardest to stay away from the camera and to just keep my back to it. Holidays aren't as fun for me anymore.

[Kittyx3]

I know how you feel.
I woke up today with a huge cyst on my cheek
(Thank you Santa!)
But then I realised..they are my family, they don't care about my skin. Not one person made a comment about it or even glanced to it, they were just happy and wanted to see me & open up presents!
Please, don't beat yourself up to hard!
Go and be with your family. The last thing they're thinking of at christmas is how your skin looks.
The push to go and do something totally out of your comfort zone is the hardest :\
I really hope you feel better soon

Edited by Kittyx3, 25 December 2011 - 04:17 PM.

[PaulH85]

Upsets me to hear things like this. I've been there for so many years, especially with pictures and stuff like that. This year, my skin just happens to be looking really good and it's the first time in thirteen I've been happy with it on Christmas day. I guess Kitty's right. I mean, whether the issue be acne specifically or something like self confidence, shying away from things and denying ourselves pleasure doesn't do us any good and it's not like it actually fixes things or makes the acne go away. With that in mind, all you can do is try and let things go, even if it's only so that you can have some care-free fun just for today.

[DesiAngel]

Kaylei, on 25 December 2011 - 04:09 PM, said:

So today is lame old' Christmas . I don't care if I sound like the grinch but I just hate all the holidays now . This year my acne has been the worst and I've become a drepressed anti social weird freak .I wasn't like this even a year back today , I remember being exited for Christmas last year and all the years before and buying little sentimental gifts for my family and being exited to open my presents and spending time .... Blah blah .... Now this year I wasn't even exited for ANY holiday or even my birthday that I didn't even have any cake or presents . 17 years in my life an I'm like this , it just makes me tear up . Wasting my life but I can't help it , something unnavoidable , well today was freaking horrible as well . My family and some cousins who came to visit went to eat breakfast at IHop and it was terrible . They sat us in a booth near the window with harsh day light and I was trying my best to cover my face . I wanted to eat some pankakes or an omelette but no I had to get a stupid ceasar salad with grilled chicken because I wanted the healthiest choice .the lettuce was nasty and they nearly put any dressing , I ate like 1/4 of it . Everyone else was eating pankakes with eggs and steaks and Crepes and waffles ... Ughhhh I was just drooling and I looked stupid eating a salad for breakfast . I was all anxious because my cousins could see my nasty skin even with makeup in harsh lighting and it's all dry looking because of the regimen -_- last nights dinner was terrible too , I don't laugh/smile or enjoy any moment anymore , I always want to be alone . I mean some family members are watching a movie ATM and im stuck here in my parents room . Just hate how acne has sucked all the best of me and I don't know who I am anymore . Just a rant .

At least you have a family.
At least you have a cohesive family that spends time together.
Its the holidays for me too, and both my parents are working double shift today.
Be thankful for what you have and enjoy it.
Many of us do not have what you do.

Didn't have a 17th birthday present?
Neither did I, but I was grateful to know that i survived 17 healthy years of life.

Its the little things in life, that make us stronger and more equipped to face the challenges that life will bring in the future.
Embrace them.

[Kaylei]

Saturine, on 25 December 2011 - 05:19 PM, said:

Kaylei, on 25 December 2011 - 04:09 PM, said:

So today is lame old' Christmas . I don't care if I sound like the grinch but I just hate all the holidays now . This year my acne has been the worst and I've become a drepressed anti social weird freak .I wasn't like this even a year back today , I remember being exited for Christmas last year and all the years before and buying little sentimental gifts for my family and being exited to open my presents and spending time .... Blah blah .... Now this year I wasn't even exited for ANY holiday or even my birthday that I didn't even have any cake or presents . 17 years in my life an I'm like this , it just makes me tear up . Wasting my life but I can't help it , something unnavoidable , well today was freaking horrible as well . My family and some cousins who came to visit went to eat breakfast at IHop and it was terrible . They sat us in a booth near the window with harsh day light and I was trying my best to cover my face . I wanted to eat some pankakes or an omelette but no I had to get a stupid ceasar salad with grilled chicken because I wanted the healthiest choice .the lettuce was nasty and they nearly put any dressing , I ate like 1/4 of it . Everyone else was eating pankakes with eggs and steaks and Crepes and waffles ... Ughhhh I was just drooling and I looked stupid eating a salad for breakfast . I was all anxious because my cousins could see my nasty skin even with makeup in harsh lighting and it's all dry looking because of the regimen -_- last nights dinner was terrible too , I don't laugh/smile or enjoy any moment anymore , I always want to be alone . I mean some family members are watching a movie ATM and im stuck here in my parents room . Just hate how acne has sucked all the best of me and I don't know who I am anymore . Just a rant .

At least you have a family.
At least you have a cohesive family that spends time together.
Its the holidays for me too, and both my parents are working double shift today.
Be thankful for what you have and enjoy it.
Many of us do not have what you do.

Didn't have a 17th birthday present?
Neither did I, but I was grateful to know that i survived 17 healthy years of life.

Its the little things in life, that make us stronger and more equipped to face the challenges that life will bring in the future.
Embrace them.

True , it's the little things that sometimes I don't notice ....

Kara =), on 25 December 2011 - 04:14 PM, said:

I know exactly how you feel especially today cause you have to visit family, and it's horrible and whenever they look at my face I get self conscious and look away. When I woke up to open my presents, my mom had her camera and was taking pictures and I wasn't too excited about that. I tried my hardest to stay away from the camera and to just keep my back to it. Holidays aren't as fun for me anymore.

My mom sometimes does that as well :/ she tries taking pictures when I look all crappy lol.

Kittyx3, on 25 December 2011 - 04:16 PM, said:

I know how you feel.
I woke up today with a huge cyst on my cheek
(Thank you Santa!)
But then I realised..they are my family, they don't care about my skin. Not one person made a comment about it or even glanced to it, they were just happy and wanted to see me & open up presents!
Please, don't beat yourself up to hard!
Go and be with your family. The last thing they're thinking of at christmas is how your skin looks.
The push to go and do something totally out of your comfort zone is the hardest :\
I really hope you feel better soon

Yeah one of my cousins actually has acne but he is the opposite of me , way more confident and laughs a lot . Even though he is self conscious of his acne a lot but doesn't show it except when going to the bathroom . That made me realize that my family doesnt really care because they see past his acne ...