Hi! I'm new here and completely desperate enough to have searched for a community where I can find some guidance. I am 27 years old and my acne is worse than ever! I blame nobody but myself. I used to always sleep with makeup, always pop my pimples, and always without a care. Growing up I was always told that I am "pretty, but lose a few pounds." So my whole youth I have been so focused on staying thin that I totally let my face go, taking it for granted! I feel so horrible. I used to be anorexic, so that may have something to do with it. I didn't realize how bad my face is, sadly, until my mother told me a few months ago, "Look in the mirror!!! Take off all that makeup and see yourself! You look awful, please take care of your face!!!" That has literally scarred me for life, I can't believe I didn't think it was so bad, and now I see that it is!! Anyway, here are photos of how I look now, right this moment. I just took a shower and put on L'oreal Advanced Revitalift Night Cream. I know, that is more for anti-aging than for acne, but I put it on because I hear it has Retin-A, which supposedly is good for scarring. (In the day, I've been wearing non-comodogenic cream by Neutrogena with SPF 15.
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EW, I know! And I try everything, and even if it "clears" a bit for a few days, it always comes back stronger like a nasty, undefeatable Chucky doll! I tried Acne Free Severe, and it dried me up so bad that I looked wrinkled and it hurt to smile. I try Noxema, which feels good, but I don't know if it's doing the trick. I sometimes use the Retinol by Acne Free, but not too sure it works. I tried the non-comodogenic cream by Neutrogena which I hear is good to prevent clogging of your pores, and nothing. It goes away and always comes back. Right now I really cannot afford to see a dermatologist. I'm trying to not put on makeup and live in seclusion for a while. My husband is so charming to me and acts like he doesn't care about my acne and like he doesn't even notice it, but I don't know, I am so embarrassed to let him see me in this condition.

As if that weren't bad enough, I think I am getting premature fine lines around my mouth which is probably due to weight loss AND the acne creams.
What do you recommend I do?