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[Verica]

Day 52

A couple nights ago I felt like a crazy person and started thinking about everything bad in my life. I was thinking why me? why am I suffering like this. I dont feel like I can be myself without freaking out when people see me and having anxiety about it and getting hot flushes and being anti social as a result. Family is fine but everyone else is like having a panic attack and i shut down. Well yer, I cried for 2 hours last night feeling sorry for myself and didnt think I could stop. So weird.
I will say there is some changes, I am sloowwwwwly noticing my mainly my forehead get smoother and less pimples just healing, and it seems the rest is trying to dry out and get crusty but I do have a nervous habit of picking the skin. I pray that this kicks in good soon and stops anymore coming through.

I cant wait to be done and oh my lips are getting way worse now, and I bite the skin on them aswell

Nearly Xmas yay

[Hopeful*]

Verica, on 17 December 2011 - 01:43 AM, said:

Day 52

A couple nights ago I felt like a crazy person and started thinking about everything bad in my life. I was thinking why me? why am I suffering like this. I dont feel like I can be myself without freaking out when people see me and having anxiety about it and getting hot flushes and being anti social as a result. Family is fine but everyone else is like having a panic attack and i shut down. Well yer, I cried for 2 hours last night feeling sorry for myself and didnt think I could stop. So weird.
I will say there is some changes, I am sloowwwwwly noticing my mainly my forehead get smoother and less pimples just healing, and it seems the rest is trying to dry out and get crusty but I do have a nervous habit of picking the skin. I pray that this kicks in good soon and stops anymore coming through.

I cant wait to be done and oh my lips are getting way worse now, and I bite the skin on them aswell

Nearly Xmas yay

I get like that also. I wonder why me? And I've cried and it's always on my mind. I've had times where I'd look in the mirror & panic! I bring out alot of anger to my mom for my skin being like this since she neglected getting cleared up for all these years and anytime I need to talk about it because it's bottled up inside.. She will tell me she doesn't want to hear about my skin and she'll leave.

I hope you start seeing great results soon !

Then no more "pity me" feelings because you'll be free from skin problems from now on hopefully

[Verica]

Hopeful*, on 17 December 2011 - 09:55 AM, said:

Verica, on 17 December 2011 - 01:43 AM, said:

Day 52

A couple nights ago I felt like a crazy person and started thinking about everything bad in my life. I was thinking why me? why am I suffering like this. I dont feel like I can be myself without freaking out when people see me and having anxiety about it and getting hot flushes and being anti social as a result. Family is fine but everyone else is like having a panic attack and i shut down. Well yer, I cried for 2 hours last night feeling sorry for myself and didnt think I could stop. So weird.
I will say there is some changes, I am sloowwwwwly noticing my mainly my forehead get smoother and less pimples just healing, and it seems the rest is trying to dry out and get crusty but I do have a nervous habit of picking the skin. I pray that this kicks in good soon and stops anymore coming through.

I cant wait to be done and oh my lips are getting way worse now, and I bite the skin on them aswell

Nearly Xmas yay

I get like that also. I wonder why me? And I've cried and it's always on my mind. I've had times where I'd look in the mirror & panic! I bring out alot of anger to my mom for my skin being like this since she neglected getting cleared up for all these years and anytime I need to talk about it because it's bottled up inside.. She will tell me she doesn't want to hear about my skin and she'll leave.

I hope you start seeing great results soon !

Then no more "pity me" feelings because you'll be free from skin problems from now on hopefully

It's hard times and I didnt think I would get that upset about this, but yes it really pushes your emotions to its limits.

Since the last post I made my forehead is actually getting smooth and my cheeks are slowly clearing but I know theres such a long way to go. My face is like covered in red and spottiness.
I try not to bottle so I am constantly like daily commenting to my mum with my doubts and how its upsetting me, she usually just listens and doesnt respond much but I dont care I just need to say it to someone otherwise I cry before bed.

[Verica]

Week 8

Photos in GALLERY

[PaulH85]

I was just looking at your pictures, can certainly see improvement from week six to week eight. That's good to see because it looks pretty angry at week six and I imagine that's painful and difficult to deal with.

Sorry to read of how you were feeling and about your anxieties and all. It's good that you feel comfortable around your family though and that you can talk to your Mum about your worries and doubts, helps a lot to get it out. Even though my acne's stuck around for thirteen years, it's usually been mild and hasn't left me with much scarring at all which is a blessing. I guess my problem is that it doesn't take much at all to knock my confidence so even the slightest breakout is enough to knock me back, but that's more about self esteem than the acne specifically. I've never really talked about how my skin bothered me and I'm not especially close to my family. Not having that outlet caused all those feelings to build up and that's done more harm than good, so it's great that you recognised the need to talk to someone and let it out.

Anyway, here's hoping things continue to improve!

Edited by PaulH85, 20 December 2011 - 08:09 AM.

[Hopeful*]

Verica, on 20 December 2011 - 07:02 AM, said:

Hopeful*, on 17 December 2011 - 09:55 AM, said:

Verica, on 17 December 2011 - 01:43 AM, said:

Day 52

A couple nights ago I felt like a crazy person and started thinking about everything bad in my life. I was thinking why me? why am I suffering like this. I dont feel like I can be myself without freaking out when people see me and having anxiety about it and getting hot flushes and being anti social as a result. Family is fine but everyone else is like having a panic attack and i shut down. Well yer, I cried for 2 hours last night feeling sorry for myself and didnt think I could stop. So weird.
I will say there is some changes, I am sloowwwwwly noticing my mainly my forehead get smoother and less pimples just healing, and it seems the rest is trying to dry out and get crusty but I do have a nervous habit of picking the skin. I pray that this kicks in good soon and stops anymore coming through.

I cant wait to be done and oh my lips are getting way worse now, and I bite the skin on them aswell

Nearly Xmas yay

I get like that also. I wonder why me? And I've cried and it's always on my mind. I've had times where I'd look in the mirror & panic! I bring out alot of anger to my mom for my skin being like this since she neglected getting cleared up for all these years and anytime I need to talk about it because it's bottled up inside.. She will tell me she doesn't want to hear about my skin and she'll leave.

I hope you start seeing great results soon !

Then no more "pity me" feelings because you'll be free from skin problems from now on hopefully

It's hard times and I didnt think I would get that upset about this, but yes it really pushes your emotions to its limits.

Since the last post I made my forehead is actually getting smooth and my cheeks are slowly clearing but I know theres such a long way to go. My face is like covered in red and spottiness.
I try not to bottle so I am constantly like daily commenting to my mum with my doubts and how its upsetting me, she usually just listens and doesnt respond much but I dont care I just need to say it to someone otherwise I cry before bed.

Well I hope things get better. And I wish parents could be helpful and supportive . My mom starts yelling and says she doesn't want to hear about my skin and then she stomps out and leaves. Talk about a supportive parent? It's hard to feel like your dealing with something alone!

[Again!]

Hi, I just read your log. Hang in there! You are not alone on this journey. I'm wishing you the best.

[Verica]

10 Weeks

I cant stess how much better I feel about life and myself right now, my skin is spotty and red and dry buuut its getting smoother and pimples are flat and healing. I have one cyst that popped up overnight and about 8 little pimples that are healing pretty fast. Even if I get a cyst its like I dont stress out because I know how fast it will go down and heal with the accutane.
I am in love with Lioele Triple The Solution BB cream as it is good for your skin and has great coverage and long wear. Its gentle on the skin compared to heavy colour stay foundations. Its also spf 30!
Still a long way to go but I am glad that I am seeing good results and that i am out of the HELL that accutane first put me in.
I haven't been moisturizing my body as I just thought meh its just a little dry, but yesterday I noticed on my arms that my skin looks so dry that it looks like I scraped them on cement. Like its really scaly in big patches. So I am definitely going to take care of my body and make sure I moisturize daily.

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any updates?

[Verica]

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