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[margox]

...... i don't know what to do anymore.... i have tried many products and there aren't any improvements on my skin... heck i even tried that proactiv stuff and it made my skin worse.
...... i don't go out of my house....... i can't find a job.... i don't talk to my friends, i don't talk to anybody about my acne condition coz i'm scared shitless! i'm scared that they would judge me and it will hurt...and i'm already hurting inside so i don't need someone else to bug me about it.....
......i've been crying a lot lately... and i've been depressed (when my mom died 6yrs ago), but now that i'm having this acne problem, i feel like this wave of depression is much greater and that i can't talk to her about it.....
.....i'm still searching for the right products to help me with this problem...........
.....this site has been my refuge and it's helping me cope... i can rant about my feelings about my acne.....


......i'm open to your stories and advices..... (coz i'm planning to use celeteque products)....... so please feel free to drop any comments!

[Orchidsummer47]

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. I'm sorry about your mom. I know how frustrating acne can be. It can feel hopeless. I am not familiar with celeteque products. I have also tried everything. Finally I'm trying accutane again. I tried it 4 years ago but had to stop taking it after only 3 months because my insurance stopped covering it and I couldn't afford the $300 a month. But now I am determined to finish it once and for all. After the first time I took it I was clear for a full year. Then it slowly started to come back. Now 4 years later it was getting to point where I couldn't control it anymore and I decided to try accutane again. I am only 2 weeks in but I have a really good feeling about it. I don't know if accutane is something you would consider taking. I would suggest trying the celeteque products first. Accutane is strong and should only be used as a last resort.

[colostomus]

*hug* i wish i could give u one in person, you're right, this site is a great place to vent, and its a fantastic place to talk to ppl who truly understand how you feel, and not just about acne, i've found that everyone ive connected with here is a part of me and i can talk to them about almost anything. I'm very sorry about your mom, i lost my dad to cancer when i was 19, and sometimes it hurts more than i can bear, but life goes on.....

A great way for you to start feeling better is to not be so scared of talking, at least to ppl here, about your acne and your regimen; like most problems, acne is much more a psychological issue than it needs to be, you yourself percieve it so much worse than others might see it, and you know what, if u do go out and u mope, THEN ppl will notice your acne and think thats why you're sad, and you'll think you're sad because theyre thinking about your acne! its a crazy cycle...find an activity you enjoy and go do it to its fullest! there should be so much more to you than your acne, u have to have likes and dislikes, friends and (possibly) enemies, favourite coulours, foods, hobbies, etc. Try to focus on those, and dont be afraid to share your feelings with ppl you feel close to, im a dude and i still keep a journal (and proud of it!) when i feel like there are things i cant talk to anyone about, i write them in my journal, and if read those entries weeks later, they suddenly dont seem like such a huge deal because theyre already WAY in the past and just by being alive i proved im bigger than them and they cant affect my life. We're all with you as long as you need us http://www.acne.org/messageboard//public/style_emoticons/default/biggrin.png, ull beat this only if u commit.

Edited by colostomus, 05 October 2011 - 11:50 AM.

[Orchidsummer47]

I agree with what colostomus said.

[colostomus]

aha! take that margox, two against one (at least), now smile:) and dont stop till someone tells u its creepy.

Thx Orchidsummer47! your very name conjures up images of peaceful surroundings...

Edited by colostomus, 05 October 2011 - 12:04 PM.

[Orchidsummer47]

Aww thank you colostomus. Margox I also wish I could give you a hug in person. Please don't ever feel alone. There will always be someone here you can talk to. Now I am going to attempt to put eye drops in my eyes as the accutane is drying them out. If you could see me it would surely make you laugh because I end up getting it all over my face! It's not easy! And I blink like a maniac!

[pink11]

I know how you feel there have been really low points where I felt so depressed I wouldn't go out, talk to friends and just cry all day wishing I wasn't here. I find it hard still but slowing getting my confidence back but deep down I am always upset about it. I think you should go to your doctor and get them to refer you to a dermatologist for accutane treatment. I am on my 3rd month now and my skin is slowly improving, I do get breakouts but some people don't clear but till their last month of treatment. I would say since I have started taking it, it's made my life alot happier I am now coping instead of hiding. I hope you get the help you need to treat your acne and just remember your not alone, there are other people out there with the same acne problems. Good luck!

[margox]

thanks u guys.....

Orchidsummer47...... you made me laugh today... haha

colostomus..... thanks a lot..............


....i feel like you really know and understand me.... thanks...
still building up the courage to talk to my family about my condition....... somehow reading your comments , made me feel at ease......


.....by the way, i purchased those Celeteque Products i've been rambling about... i've read that "moiusturizing" is the key to a healthy skin and these are non-comedogenic,hypoallergenic, hydrating products....so i'm just gonna try it, plus it's way cheaper than the others (like proactiv).......... hoping for the best!



.....continuing the fight against ACNE!!!!! aaaarrgggghhhh

[PaulH85]

Agree with what colostomus said, about finding the strength to talk to people. Even if it's not in person and instead with people here, that's a great start. For years I tried to hide the fact I had acne and felt as though I'd have to really deal with it and expose myself to people if I talked about it. It was silly really, given that they could see it on my face. Just because I avoided the subject didn't mean it wasn't there. I think the biggest fear is that people won't understand. Even when I started posting here, I still had reservations about talking it because I didn't think people would get where I was coming from. I couldn't have been more wrong. Learning to open up here as helped me learn to open up to the few people I do have left around me - the ones who didn't get fed up of me keeping them at arms length all the time because I was so self conscious and insecure about my skin. If your experience is anything like mine turned out, margox, you may well find that people are a lot more understanding than you would think they would be.

As far as dealing with your acne and finding a regimen that works for you, here's hoping the new products you are trying go a long way towards helping you get the skin you want. All you can really do is take care of yourself and your mental well being, try to keep a good diet and be good to your skin. In theory, those things can help a lot.

I've been suffering with depression and anxiety this year and I came to learn that it's not as a direct result of my acne, but the circumstances I found myself in because I was letting the acne hold me back. It takes strength to start and turn that around. You've already made the first step in talking about it here and in looking for new ways to clear your skin. Sometimes, that's the hardest step to take so you should be proud of yourself for that.

[margox]

thanks a lot PaulH85.
i believe this is actually one of my problems right now.... i'm avoiding people even my relatives beacuse sometimes when they ask or tell me "what has happened to your face" or "your pimples are getting worse", it really hurts me soo much....
i would be just like "don't you think i already know that?" and "thanks for stating the obvious"...in my head but what comes out is just a shy "i know" (turn around and then walk away FAST_ reflex)....
i have not been able to go out of my house for 5months but now i think i'm making progress..... i've been out these few days and i've been going to my job interviews...... i figured it's time to take action... at least if i landed a job then i would have my incomeso that
i can finally consult a doctor...........
just hoping i will have the strength to face one!.........

....so here's to our gang! KEEP Fighting against ACNE!!!!!

[Orchidsummer47]

Just wanted to wish you good luck with your new products! I hope they work for you! Try to keep a positive attitude. I know it can be hard but try. I believe that makes a difference. I have also heard that moisturizing is very important when it comes to healthy skin. Plus it makes you look younger longer! Which is something we all want ... Just take it one day at a time. That's what I am doing with my accutane. As far as talking to your family about your condition, just remember that they love you and I'm sure they would want to help you. Maybe they could offer you advice about what you can do. One day I hope we can all beat this problem!!!!

[margox]

was there a time, when you feel like you're alive, but you're not "Living"?, it's as if you're soul is hovering above your body, a ghost wandering about aimlessly...... floating on a sea of guilt and shame... helpless and hopeless....

i'm trying so hard in fighting this kind of feeling everyday............ i take refuge in God, and in this site.......

oh blessed day of glory and triumph...when will you come?...... please hurry!

[PaulH85]

There's every chance that many people have had phases when they've felt like they're simply existing rather than living life. I know I have and still do. There could be any number of reasons why people may feel that way, although for me it is about my skin. For a number of years, I held myself back from social occasions, opportunities, experiences and basically making the most of my time. I did this because I felt ugly, like a failure, and as though nobody would ever like me because of my skin. To a degree, I still do. It seemed easier to avoid fears or potential mistakes than to battle through them. But all it does is make you sad because you are denying yourself happiness. We are all lucky to live in ways which mean happiness is available; in some areas of the world, we know very well that the quality of life is horrible. I'm sure many would happily swap with us. That is why it's important to keep battling and find happiness, otherwise life passes and we will regret it.

[margox]

____ desperately need to be saved!!!!!!!!!

[kiyah]

I just want you to know your not alone . . . im 20 and have had acne . . severe acne sence i was in 8th grade, i have been on everything including accutane, and right now im hiding at home too, no job, had to move back in with my parents. . . im also scared to go out . . and makeup wont cover it up. i just wish everyone with acne could live in a village together!!! hahaha i have severe acne on my neck face all over my chest arms all of my back and even on my stomach. i guess i just try to think well i could have it worse . . even though that seems crazy to me, there are people with it worse. but your not alone, its hard trying everything and being failed. i will say get on birth control though, that will help you, not get rid of it but get on it it regulates your horamones, instead of them going up and dowm up and down it flattens your horamones if that make sence? dont do accutane though, it does make you clear for about a year then it comes back worse. . . and its horrible for you, my hair fell out, i have thin hair and acne now, awesome! and that is because of accutane. but idk get on tetro or dextrocyclene and birth control, maybe depression meds, thats what im doing . . . and i have acne BAD good luck, im right there with you.

[margox]

kiyah, on 12 October 2011 - 01:15 PM, said:

I just want you to know your not alone . . . im 20 and have had acne . . severe acne sence i was in 8th grade, i have been on everything including accutane, and right now im hiding at home too, no job, had to move back in with my parents. . . im also scared to go out . . and makeup wont cover it up. i just wish everyone with acne could live in a village together!!! hahaha i have severe acne on my neck face all over my chest arms all of my back and even on my stomach. i guess i just try to think well i could have it worse . . even though that seems crazy to me, there are people with it worse. but your not alone, its hard trying everything and being failed. i will say get on birth control though, that will help you, not get rid of it but get on it it regulates your horamones, instead of them going up and dowm up and down it flattens your horamones if that make sence? dont do accutane though, it does make you clear for about a year then it comes back worse. . . and its horrible for you, my hair fell out, i have thin hair and acne now, awesome! and that is because of accutane. but idk get on tetro or dextrocyclene and birth control, maybe depression meds, thats what im doing . . . and i have acne BAD good luck, im right there with you.

...thanks kiyah.... i have actually made up my mind and i will be consulting a dermatologist soon, and my cousin is an OB_GYN and i have already scheduled an appointment with her............
... i have been researching about accutane on the internet.i'll ask the doctor about it..... so i will let you guys know whatever the dermatologist prescribe me.....
i hope it works... really works!!!!!!

[colostomus]

I really hope Accutane works for you, im the meantime we can work on your confidence! You're making so many right moves for yourself since i first talked to you! im happy for you, just be patient, best of luck and of course, all my love

[kiyah]

it works, you will have clear skin for awhile. in most cases it comes back :/ just make sure you really read about it good luck.

[margox]

... i have just recently consulted a dermatologist ('twas my first time and boy did it hurt!!!!) he cleaned my face and pricked my pimples... his diagnosis of my condition is Comedonal acne..... i've just uploaded my gallery with my pictures after 2 days of using the regimen..... <<i forgot to take a before shot>>
my brother says he sees an improvement.... i've been talking with him about how i feel about my acne and it's really helping...... he understands and he's very supportive of me........ i'm really glad this weight on my chest is being lifted though not entirely but gradually...........

....... i asked my dermatologist about that accutane <i've researched like crazy before i consulted him>..... he said he doesn't wanna put me on accutane yet coz' my condition is not worse...... so i'm under this new regimen and hoping it'll help clear up my acne..... next consult in 2weeks


...this is my new regimen:
Doxycycline 1 cap am/pm on full stomach
Facial Scrub Solution <doctor's>
Clindamycin Solution <apply on face am/pm>
Glycolic + Salicylic Acid Solution <apply on face am>
Acne cream <doctor's : pm>

Edited by margox, 18 October 2011 - 05:17 AM.

[margox]

...today... i went back into my Blackhole of a Universe!