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[whatamihere4]

Day 60

idk whats going on with me. i didnt think i would be the one to break down and cry but the other night i just couldn't help it. i'm feeling extremely miserable nowadays and far overloaded with stress. today i had a really nasty nosebleed where i literally just gushed for 30 mins straight, was pretty scary. repainted my bathroom. not sure if the nosbleed is from the accutane or from all this stress.

i dont want to do anything but sleep. i have no motivation to get up or go to the gym either. :/

Edited by whatamihere4, 02 December 2011 - 10:25 PM.

[hotburrito]

Ugh, I am so sorry to hear that. I'm currently on a week-long Accutane hiatus because my higher dosage triggered my depression in a really huge way, so the Accutane might be the culprit here for you as well? It's worth talking to your derma about at least. Now that I'm into the fourth day of my hiatus, I'm actually quite shocked at just how much more clear-headed I feel. Still depressed, but no longer as irrationally devastated. Either way, I hope you feel better soon.

[whatamihere4]

losing my mind :L

[Hopeful*]

Hope you feel better =/

[Ham84]

Chin up, be strong.

[ILLmatic718]

hang in there man. youll be alright.

[Riosha]

All the best thoughts for you...

[breesy]

How are you doing? Any progress?

[Ham84]

Hope you're doing better now.

[whatamihere4]

Derm has referred me to acne specialist at general hospital.

[Quiescence]

Are they sorting you with counselling etc? You sound so down love x x

[Ham84]

whatamihere4, on 23 December 2011 - 01:35 PM, said:

Derm has referred me to acne specialist at general hospital.

When will you visit the specialist or did you already go? Are the breakouts getting that worse?

[followyourbliss]

Damn, I hope things get better for you. I'm feeling about the same, random crying bouts, irrationally upset over everything, bad mood constantly... unfortunately my derm told me that at the first sign of depression I'd have to stop taking it so, I can't tell her :\ I really hope things get better for you, stay strong! Happy Holidays!

[whatamihere4]

Quiescence, on 23 December 2011 - 05:07 PM, said:

Are they sorting you with counselling etc? You sound so down love x x

Nope, sort of just trying to get through it on my own. Lots of other sources of stress in my life is making this really hard too. Even more so when you see relatives that all decide to straight up ask what happened to my face, and even people that try to subtly give me skincare tips as if i dont already know. ugh.

Ham84, on 24 December 2011 - 05:52 AM, said:

whatamihere4, on 23 December 2011 - 01:35 PM, said:

Derm has referred me to acne specialist at general hospital.

When will you visit the specialist or did you already go? Are the breakouts getting that worse?

I haven't gone yet, apt. is in late january. It's still pretty bad and breakouts still coming. Derm said i might just not respond well to the medicine at all, i dont know

followyourbliss, on 24 December 2011 - 09:45 PM, said:

Damn, I hope things get better for you. I'm feeling about the same, random crying bouts, irrationally upset over everything, bad mood constantly... unfortunately my derm told me that at the first sign of depression I'd have to stop taking it so, I can't tell her :\ I really hope things get better for you, stay strong! Happy Holidays!

meh my only mood now is the i dont want to talk to anybody mood, unfortunately i still have to go to school and go to family events and stuff...pretty terrible, life is at an all around low right now. Hell, even my christmas sucked
and thanks, happy holidays to you too

Edited by whatamihere4, 26 December 2011 - 02:28 AM.

[Quiescence]

whatamihere4, on 26 December 2011 - 02:27 AM, said:

Quiescence, on 23 December 2011 - 05:07 PM, said:

Are they sorting you with counselling etc? You sound so down love x x

Nope, sort of just trying to get through it on my own. Lots of other sources of stress in my life is making this really hard too. Even more so when you see relatives that all decide to straight up ask what happened to my face, and even people that try to subtly give me skincare tips as if i dont already know. ugh.

Haha tell me about it, Seems like every single day a 'clear skinned' person asks me "have you tried...(such and such obvious thing that I tried when my skin first went bad)?"..... or even to my wrath and anger my familly say things like... "oh well you should wash your face every day"...DUH.... or "I only ever use just water on MY face, its the best thing for it"... WELL GOOD FOR YOU!!! Makes me so angry, feel sorry for the next clear skinner person to give me skincare tips!!

x x x

[Kittyx3]

Quiescence, on 26 December 2011 - 08:02 AM, said:

whatamihere4, on 26 December 2011 - 02:27 AM, said:

Quiescence, on 23 December 2011 - 05:07 PM, said:

Are they sorting you with counselling etc? You sound so down love x x

Nope, sort of just trying to get through it on my own. Lots of other sources of stress in my life is making this really hard too. Even more so when you see relatives that all decide to straight up ask what happened to my face, and even people that try to subtly give me skincare tips as if i dont already know. ugh.

Haha tell me about it, Seems like every single day a 'clear skinned' person asks me "have you tried...(such and such obvious thing that I tried when my skin first went bad)?"..... or even to my wrath and anger my familly say things like... "oh well you should wash your face every day"...DUH.... or "I only ever use just water on MY face, its the best thing for it"... WELL GOOD FOR YOU!!! Makes me so angry, feel sorry for the next clear skinner person to give me skincare tips!!

x x x

Oh I totally know how annoying that is, got fairly pissed at my bf for telling me to just wash with water.
Yuh, he has perfect skin and always has had perfect skin. Some of us aren't that lucky. If I washed with just water my face wouldn't be best pleased
Anyway, Whatamihere4: I'm also hoping things get better for you, I hate to see someone so down & not be able to do anything
Stay strong x

[blahdeeblah]

Are you still taking accutane while you see this specialist? What dosage are you up to?

Hang in there

[whatamihere4]

Quiescence, on 26 December 2011 - 08:02 AM, said:

whatamihere4, on 26 December 2011 - 02:27 AM, said:

Quiescence, on 23 December 2011 - 05:07 PM, said:

Are they sorting you with counselling etc? You sound so down love x x

Nope, sort of just trying to get through it on my own. Lots of other sources of stress in my life is making this really hard too. Even more so when you see relatives that all decide to straight up ask what happened to my face, and even people that try to subtly give me skincare tips as if i dont already know. ugh.

Haha tell me about it, Seems like every single day a 'clear skinned' person asks me "have you tried...(such and such obvious thing that I tried when my skin first went bad)?"..... or even to my wrath and anger my familly say things like... "oh well you should wash your face every day"...DUH.... or "I only ever use just water on MY face, its the best thing for it"... WELL GOOD FOR YOU!!! Makes me so angry, feel sorry for the next clear skinner person to give me skincare tips!!

x x x

heh yeah, it seems as if every time im even remotely close to being content with my face some family member indirectly reminds me my face looks terrible.

Kittyx3, on 26 December 2011 - 08:44 AM, said:

Quiescence, on 26 December 2011 - 08:02 AM, said:

whatamihere4, on 26 December 2011 - 02:27 AM, said:

Quiescence, on 23 December 2011 - 05:07 PM, said:

Are they sorting you with counselling etc? You sound so down love x x

Nope, sort of just trying to get through it on my own. Lots of other sources of stress in my life is making this really hard too. Even more so when you see relatives that all decide to straight up ask what happened to my face, and even people that try to subtly give me skincare tips as if i dont already know. ugh.

Haha tell me about it, Seems like every single day a 'clear skinned' person asks me "have you tried...(such and such obvious thing that I tried when my skin first went bad)?"..... or even to my wrath and anger my familly say things like... "oh well you should wash your face every day"...DUH.... or "I only ever use just water on MY face, its the best thing for it"... WELL GOOD FOR YOU!!! Makes me so angry, feel sorry for the next clear skinner person to give me skincare tips!!

x x x

Oh I totally know how annoying that is, got fairly pissed at my bf for telling me to just wash with water.
Yuh, he has perfect skin and always has had perfect skin. Some of us aren't that lucky. If I washed with just water my face wouldn't be best pleased
Anyway, Whatamihere4: I'm also hoping things get better for you, I hate to see someone so down & not be able to do anything
Stay strong x

lol, cant help but feel like im goin to snap on the next person that does this to me =[ avoiding all contact i can to prevent this situation from happening. Even my mom, who knows i'm on the medication continues to try to give me skincare tips...sigh

PMalaska, on 26 December 2011 - 12:26 PM, said:

Are you still taking accutane while you see this specialist? What dosage are you up to?

Hang in there

Yeah am still on accutane, 60Mg and Derm refuses to raise dosage.

[Graciemeow]

Hi there! just came across this blog
http://www.acne.org/...accutane-users/ << saying about the initial breakout on accutane being bad for the first few months but then calming down. i honestly think that if you presist you'll be okay. When i started accutane, for the first 2 weeks i felt the same, i was tearful, lethargic and wanted to stay in my room and sleep. but this went away as my body adjusted to the med. be careful on feeling upset and try and get out there, even watching t.v with friends, me and my uni friends watched some t.v when i felt low with it which helped alot cos it kinda took my mind off it abit. good luck xxx

[sd85]

I hope you start seeing some results in the next few weeks. I had severe acne on my first course, and didn't see many changes until the end of my course. After my first course, my acne lessened to a moderate level (not a lot of cysts). I am now half way through my second course and have the clearest skin I have had in about 11 years. I REALLY do think that Accutane will eventually work for you. It seems like the more severe your acne is the longer it takes. Just keep pressing on with your pills, and I think by the end of the 4th month you REALLY will see some real improvement. Can you post some pictures of your skin?