I've suffered from body dysmorphic disorder for about three years. I've had a minor eating disorder and become a skin picker, which has completely exhausted me, worn down, and killed my social life and self esteem. Lately it has been bad. I have four large wounds on my cheek from picking. I have no control over myself- I tell myself to stop but cannot seem to do it...I just keep going til I bleed and hate myself. This is the worst it's been in a long time and I don't know what to do, but I desperately want out of this self loathing self destructive cycle. I would very much like some advice on how to stop. I would be so thankful for any support, because i'm feeling pretty alone and stuck in my own head lately. Thanks.
Just needing some support and encouragement
Started by cl12, Aug 11 2011 10:13 AM
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#1
Posted 11 August 2011 - 10:13 AM
#2
Posted 11 August 2011 - 01:43 PM
I don't have any advice, but just wanted to say that I know how you feel. I am really depressed right now over a mark I have now from picking at it probably too early. My skin gives me such major anxiety. I hate how it makes me feel sick.
#3
Posted 11 August 2011 - 02:02 PM
I can only imagine how hard it is for you to have had a eating disorder as well as BDD. I too have BDD, self diagnosed so I don't know if it counts, but it's really taken a toll on my life as well. It's made me an angry and very bitter person and even at times jealous and envious. It's been this way since high school. I've pretty much have tried to better myself by taking the time I do have alone and really finding things about me that are positive or that others say are positive about me and really take it to heart as these people do not have to say these things but do because they love and support me. Especially within the last couple months of being re-acquainted with my first love after 6 years of just off and on between us. It's really helped me be more positive and feel like there's actually a purpose out there for me.
You just need to think about all you want in life and the steps you're going to have to take in order to get there. It's definitely not going to be easy. I remember a time when a spent countless hours and days just not knowing if I was ever going to amount to anything. But a few years later and I'm exactly where I want to be and I couldn't be happier. The only thing that hinders me at times are my breakouts and BDD. 2 very serious things in my eyes that could ruin my life. If I let it. But I'm not going to and neither should you. Look at today as a moment in your life, not the rest of your life. Get the support of your family and friends and really make an effort to better yourself both physically and mentally and get yourself in a better state of mind. It can only get better from here.
You just need to think about all you want in life and the steps you're going to have to take in order to get there. It's definitely not going to be easy. I remember a time when a spent countless hours and days just not knowing if I was ever going to amount to anything. But a few years later and I'm exactly where I want to be and I couldn't be happier. The only thing that hinders me at times are my breakouts and BDD. 2 very serious things in my eyes that could ruin my life. If I let it. But I'm not going to and neither should you. Look at today as a moment in your life, not the rest of your life. Get the support of your family and friends and really make an effort to better yourself both physically and mentally and get yourself in a better state of mind. It can only get better from here.
#4
Posted 12 August 2011 - 11:35 AM
QUOTE (AriannaL @ Aug 11 2011, 03:02 PM) <{POST_SNAPBACK}>
I can only imagine how hard it is for you to have had a eating disorder as well as BDD. I too have BDD, self diagnosed so I don't know if it counts, but it's really taken a toll on my life as well. It's made me an angry and very bitter person and even at times jealous and envious. It's been this way since high school. I've pretty much have tried to better myself by taking the time I do have alone and really finding things about me that are positive or that others say are positive about me and really take it to heart as these people do not have to say these things but do because they love and support me. Especially within the last couple months of being re-acquainted with my first love after 6 years of just off and on between us. It's really helped me be more positive and feel like there's actually a purpose out there for me.
You just need to think about all you want in life and the steps you're going to have to take in order to get there. It's definitely not going to be easy. I remember a time when a spent countless hours and days just not knowing if I was ever going to amount to anything. But a few years later and I'm exactly where I want to be and I couldn't be happier. The only thing that hinders me at times are my breakouts and BDD. 2 very serious things in my eyes that could ruin my life. If I let it. But I'm not going to and neither should you. Look at today as a moment in your life, not the rest of your life. Get the support of your family and friends and really make an effort to better yourself both physically and mentally and get yourself in a better state of mind. It can only get better from here.
You just need to think about all you want in life and the steps you're going to have to take in order to get there. It's definitely not going to be easy. I remember a time when a spent countless hours and days just not knowing if I was ever going to amount to anything. But a few years later and I'm exactly where I want to be and I couldn't be happier. The only thing that hinders me at times are my breakouts and BDD. 2 very serious things in my eyes that could ruin my life. If I let it. But I'm not going to and neither should you. Look at today as a moment in your life, not the rest of your life. Get the support of your family and friends and really make an effort to better yourself both physically and mentally and get yourself in a better state of mind. It can only get better from here.
Thank you so much, I cannot begin to tell you how much your support means to me. It's all a matter of learning that while most things in life are out of my control, what I do to my body IS in my control so i need to take as good of care of it as I can. It's difficult and i'm trying to convince myself of this every second so that I don't think self destructive comments. But your advice is making it easier, so thank you!
#5
Posted 13 August 2011 - 02:13 AM
QUOTE (cl12 @ Aug 12 2011, 09:35 AM) <{POST_SNAPBACK}>
QUOTE (AriannaL @ Aug 11 2011, 03:02 PM) <{POST_SNAPBACK}>
I can only imagine how hard it is for you to have had a eating disorder as well as BDD. I too have BDD, self diagnosed so I don't know if it counts, but it's really taken a toll on my life as well. It's made me an angry and very bitter person and even at times jealous and envious. It's been this way since high school. I've pretty much have tried to better myself by taking the time I do have alone and really finding things about me that are positive or that others say are positive about me and really take it to heart as these people do not have to say these things but do because they love and support me. Especially within the last couple months of being re-acquainted with my first love after 6 years of just off and on between us. It's really helped me be more positive and feel like there's actually a purpose out there for me.
You just need to think about all you want in life and the steps you're going to have to take in order to get there. It's definitely not going to be easy. I remember a time when a spent countless hours and days just not knowing if I was ever going to amount to anything. But a few years later and I'm exactly where I want to be and I couldn't be happier. The only thing that hinders me at times are my breakouts and BDD. 2 very serious things in my eyes that could ruin my life. If I let it. But I'm not going to and neither should you. Look at today as a moment in your life, not the rest of your life. Get the support of your family and friends and really make an effort to better yourself both physically and mentally and get yourself in a better state of mind. It can only get better from here.
You just need to think about all you want in life and the steps you're going to have to take in order to get there. It's definitely not going to be easy. I remember a time when a spent countless hours and days just not knowing if I was ever going to amount to anything. But a few years later and I'm exactly where I want to be and I couldn't be happier. The only thing that hinders me at times are my breakouts and BDD. 2 very serious things in my eyes that could ruin my life. If I let it. But I'm not going to and neither should you. Look at today as a moment in your life, not the rest of your life. Get the support of your family and friends and really make an effort to better yourself both physically and mentally and get yourself in a better state of mind. It can only get better from here.
Thank you so much, I cannot begin to tell you how much your support means to me. It's all a matter of learning that while most things in life are out of my control, what I do to my body IS in my control so i need to take as good of care of it as I can. It's difficult and i'm trying to convince myself of this every second so that I don't think self destructive comments. But your advice is making it easier, so thank you!
No problem. You always have support. and If you're ever looking for a bit more advice or support just shoot me a message!!!
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