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[liseee]

hello,

i didnt even realise that i had a problem until i found this tonight.
well i knew i had a problem but didnt realise anyone else had it.

im 40, and i have been picking at spots or anything resembling a spot for about 20 years. The main places for it are my shoulders chest and back areas, and some on my face but not too bad there until recently, it seems to be getting worse. i also have about 3 scabs on my head, one of which has been there so about a year.

its wierd.. i can spend hours just sat squeezing my skin even if there is nothing there but a pore, it totally relaxes me and i forget everything while im doing this. an hour or so later i feel sick from the state of myself, the red blotches and the soreness for the following couple of days... and i just want to stop. i alwys thought i had bad acne, but after reading so much here, i dont think this is the case. i think i am making it out of nothing, thinking that i will get it before it gets worse, when in reality there is barely anything there to start with.

i have never been to the doctor for anything regarding my skin ever, from the embaressmant i wont go. i have never been able to wear short sleeves and have to remain so covered up in the summer it makes me crazy. i cannot wait for the cooler months so i can hide under my clothes and nobody can see my ugly body. my relationships in the past have ended because of it, i refuse to remove my clothing, its been a nightmare. i even lied once to a guy and told him an ex burned me with a cigarette cos i had 2 large round sores on my chest area. this is disgusting i know. my current partner has started to get suspicious after 3 years... i dont know what to say, he thinks its because i fret about my weight, as i use that as an excuse for not liking myself.. ( i need to lose about 50lbs) he thinks im beautiful, and tells me it dont matter.. but he dont know the true reason for it.

i found this site just looking for a treatment off the internet and came across this by accident. im not happy that other peole are suffering with this, but it has given me some relief that im not alone. i want to try this going 30 days without picking, if i can give up smoking i can do this dang it!

[OmgZep]

your not alone,
and i found 30 days is not enough time for your skin to see dramatic improvements in your skin,
You should go 100 days without picking.
ive gotten 43 down so far....
its gonna be really hard at first but you can do it.