I have done this for years and can really understand how you feel. I'm trying to not pick as well and have gotten a little bit better but I still attempt to destroy my face from time to time when my anxiety flares up. My advice to you is to avoid mirrors and anything that you can see your reflection in well enough to notice your zits. Go outside and do things that distract you from thinking about your face because not only does picking scar aggravate and create new acne, it also takes time out of your day that you could be doing positive productive things. Plus chances are, your acne is really not as bad as you think it is- people do not see your face at every single angle and inspect every little pore. I wish you the best of luck, you can do it!
Thanks Seashell!! How are you getting on with the whole not picking thing at the minute? Have you tried any anxiety relief things, yoga etc?
I am doing much better but still far from perfect. I'm just slowly learning that picking does not make my face look any better and actually worsens it in the long run so I have to keep reminding myself that! It's definitely hard though, I have my good and bad days. I am an obsessive face checker as well, I am CONSTANTLY examining and making myself depressed and it's been completely killing my social life, so i'm also working on forcing myself to do more things. I am a high anxiety person anyway so I try and do yoga which calms me down a bit but I do not do it nearly enough! Working out helps, abvoiding mirrors helps, talking KINDLY to yourself and saying positive things instead of putting yourself down...sounds so cheesy but it helps!