i cant believe i thort i be one who wud suffer from this stupid disorder but yeah i got it 2 but wat can ya du..
wel thats y am ere, seen that this benzoyl peroxide wil hpefuly work, alongside the cleanser and moisturiser... wel here goes:
ok then, basically ive had it for a gud 2 years. mostly last year and this 1. thing for me - im not consistent. sumdays i wash ma face 1 way wid cold water. then warm. and i got no specific decent routine going. but i eat healthy, do sports - football. ALOT. and im in reli gud shape - overall im in gud shape. back in the day ive had so many compliments - alot of crushes on me. people say im quite a gud lucking lad and stuf. i used 2 think 'uh spots? thats for people who r dirty' yeah so rong was I...SO RONG
i thort i wud neva get this bulshit disorder but yh. it started off slow.. then out of no where - more and more. It started off with my forhead - little small 1nes spreaded around. i cudnt believe it
i was like fuk no - not me plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. then yh.. eventually moved on2 ma cheeks.
and til 2day. they come and go. got a few scars and...
yh ma social life has bin totaly fucked up. sory for the bad language but yeah reli fukd up. i dont even go out in the mornings no more... i always keep ma face covered wid a scarf or hat 2 cover the forehead 1nes maybe.
coz am so ashamed of myself. NO1 IN MY FAMILY HAS GOT IT. why me? all my fam members are so proud of their skin. my older bro - NEVA HAD A SPOT IN HIS LIFE HOW THE FUK ME?
even wid ma spots, im stil an ok luking lad now. beta be4 but.. - i stil try 2 be confident - du ma nyc spikey hair - ma dress sense reli gud so it diverts the attention from ma skin.
in skool i cnt even go on the pull anymore.
ive been this way for like 2 years and yeah, most of u mite understand how it feels.
i reli dont wana go on like this man. i wish this stuf works but my mum dusnt want me 2 spend money and stuf. its reli complicated. all ma homies r fynnn - jus me.
every single day wen i wake up... how r ma spots? i always fukin think that. I CANT even luk in the god damn mirror - its so scary and worrying wen i walk up 2 it, i seriously wud rather suffer from a broken arm or sumfing than this omg im goin insane over them. and no - mine isnt severe but isnt that ok either.
havin acne and the few scars is extremmely upsetting, mentally depressing and jus fuks u up.
so sorry for making you read this long message. but i feel so miserable coz i wanted 2 go in 2 modeling or sumfing and im only 17. and now all aspects of my life r ruined.
- going out
- cant concentrate in skool
- cant pull
- dont go out wid family like restaurants coz of the BIG LIGHTING which shows up my spots etc
- play football at night only (coz ma face luks beta then sumhow?) lighting is beta..
- sit inside all day. ALL day til it gets night time then i cal ma homie over but i sit far away frm him. coz he luks up 2 me as a role model. he wants 2 be like me - hes ma best mate and like a bro. man that is heartbreaking man knowin i cnt luk him in the eye and say luk bro...
- interviews or getin a part time job - dont bother nymore - im 2 ashamed of goin out
WIL THIS WORK? only god knows or sum1 reading. help plz
thanks for reading



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