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[Johnnie]

Im about a week into my course and Ive decided to start a log to track my progress. Man Am I ready for my acne to be cleared up, this has been a 5 year war and I hope Im getting the answer to a few of my problems at least. If anyone gets anything good out of this, I will consider it a success.

I am taking a 40mg and 80mg dosage alternating dosages between days.

HERE WE GO!

Day 8:
Nasty arse cyst on the cheek, two on my jawline, one under my nose, two on the upper portion of the back of my neck, one on the forehead, one on the chin, two invisible, but paintful ones on my nose. Initial breakout? I hope so. Skin seems oilier than normal which is a little confusing. Lips REALLY FREAKIN DRY. Through all of this Im trying to remain optimistic, the general red tone of my acne free skin seems to be getting a little better and the little bumps of old cysts and pimples feel a little smaller! With Christmas coming and my bands 2nd gig coming up I hope I get a little better before I have to be social.

[Johnnie]

Day 9:
I little dryer today, I think that may have been my IB becuase everything looks a little better. Bump under my eye got a little smaller, one under my nose is very painful. Im leaving for Cuba soon and I hope the Tan will clear me up and hide some spots, it has before. I hear ocean water is nice on your skin too. HA, cant wait.

[Johnnie]

Day 10:
I little depressed about my skin. It seems like my skin is continuing its trudge on to digustingness as normal. Its paintful. My lips are really dry and there are these little redmarks all over my face. The general tone of my face looks like crap, its all red, I look like an apple or something . Anyways, Ive discontinued the use of BP now and switched to a weaker substance that my sister gave me while she was on accutane, its at her house, I forget what its called. Anyways, I feel like junk.

[Johnnie]

Day 11:
Feeling pouty, all I want to know is - WHY ME!? I feel like my acne sticks out like a sore thumb, Im so self conscious and I feel literally like I cant be who I really am. Every time I look in the mirror I want to cut my skin off with a knife and like, buy a new face at some skin dealership or something . Boy I wish it were that simple. I got a new one on my lip today, really deep seated, not very noticable but my face looks like its been beaten by a friggin tire iron. So many red marks... So many days left of my course. Ive seen a girl about 4 weeks ago when my acne wasnt that bad and shes coming over tommarow to visit my family. She means alot to me and weve known eachother for a long time now and I have started wanting to see her as the MORE THAN JUST A FRIEND girl. I hope my face doesnt compromise her view of me. Im really fet up with my skin and am feeling the side effects of Accutane, but every time I see a positive result, it seems to be overshadowed by another arrival of one of these god damned cysts. Im gunna reflect for a second here:


-Negetives currently outweighing positives
-Back hurts
-Lips dry and cracked
-Face looks like RAW SEWAGE
-Face hurts
-Generally nasty mood

On top of all this one of my lip piercings is infected and it feels like Im being stabbed in the face all the time. I hope Im not lapsing into depression because accutane is my last ditch attempt to rid me of my acne, and if Im pulled, I dont know what Im going to do.




Accutane you son of a bitch, work soon.



work soon.

[Johnnie]

PS: Just found another big ol zit coming out beside my lip

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH.

[Johnnie]

day 12:
Almost at the 2 week mark. My skin looks better this morning that I thought it would have. Im gunna change the way I write this log a little: Rather than wallow in my own self pitty Im only going to post when good things, or major bad things happen. Other than than I will just post a message with dosage taken per day.

[Johnnie]

day 13/14:
Didnt post yesterday. Nothing to report
40mg
80mg

[Johnnie]

Day 25:
Got home from Cuba and burnt the living hell out of myself. Although, my skin is getting a little less cysty. Bloodwork tommarow, Im feeling a little more optimistic now about my whole course. With a tan, Im look pretty good! Wait... make that decent.

[BeeBo x3]

sorry things have been so tough.. it`ll get better and your skin will clear and you'll look amazing

if u dont mind me asking, howd it go with that girl?

anyways hope your still doin well, just remember to keep applying moisturizer and lip balm. and keep in mind how clear you'll be in a few months..

best wishes

[Johnnie]

Things went ok with the whole girly thing, she really seemed to look by the whole acne thing, I actually dont look to bad right now. Shes leaving for a month to go visit family in the states. Hopefully when she comes back Ill be looking better HAHA!

Day 26:
Dry, skin looks ok, just took 2 pills. Im seeing some improvements and Im really looking forward to being able to say my first month is done. Bloodwork today, hope it checks out ok. My nose is REALLY sore and burn though, peeling too. It seems like the burn got rid of my blackheads :S. Im really starting to notice my waking up and have my hair not oily of feeling really dirty at all, but some of it is falling out, not in clumps or anything though.

[Johnnie]

Day 27:
No time for bloodwork yesterday, I went today instead. Skin looks good, no nodules or lesions or anything. Just one itty bitty whitehead on my forehead which I quickly took care of . Accutane is really starting to work some magic here, and Im only 1/4 done! Hope bloodwork checks out, cant see why it wouldnt really, Im decently healthy. My eyes are SUUUUPER dry and Im gaining a weee bit of weight. Im really tired at the end of the day, but I sleep REALLY good at night and wake up feeling alot more awake.

I like Accutane again.

[Johnnie]

Day 29:
Fun hurty thing on my chin, its not a zit or anything, its dying too, which is nice. My face has the little red tinge again in little blotches. Its ok though.

[Johnnie]

Day 31?:
I lost track a litte, my face looks red and blotchy again. A little frustrated... Going to get my license tommarow which will be nice. The infection in my piercings has dulled and I have stretched my ears to 3/4 OF AN INCH! Now I will stop for a while. I still think that Accutane is doing something positive and I cant wait to be done my course and start the whole "Reconstruction" period if you will.

[Johnnie]

Day 32:
-Red face
-One zit on my cheek
-Failed drivers exam

Poop.

[Johnnie]

Day 33:
Bloodwork must have come back ok. So my face is kinda red again, but the thing on my cheek is leaving. My lip are all dry and cracked and my face is dry too, most cause of the sunburn and all. Oh yea, bands 4th gig on monday. were getting some local buzz.

[Johnnie]

Day 34:
Uh, looking ok, just this thing on my cheek and my dry skin. Lips are cracket and bloody. Ew.
Nothing big.

[Johnnie]

Day 35:
See day 34.

[Matt007]

Good luck johnny...im on month 5 and 100% clear.you will be SOOOOO glad youve made the choice.congrats

[Johnnie]

Day 40:
Gross thing on my chin. And I have to get my picture taken tommarow for work ID HAHAHAA crap.

[Johnnie]

43:
Face calm... I hope this lasts. My derm has upped me to a 80mg per day dosage and my weight flucuates around 135-140 so I hope this is ok. Mild exzema on my hand on the right side, if I put lotion on it it looks fine. My skins overall is REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY dry. I see the half way mark coming, and I am happy.