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[BJ'sGuRL]

hey omg lol i luv ur name Hows school going? i hope all is well! im on 20mg aswel...just poped my 5th tab lol Keep posting XxOoxX!!!

[omgomg]

DAY 81
Long Long time no update! Becuase i have an test the day im suppose to see my derm for my monthly checkup, I had to reschedule which makes me miss a week of pills, arg. I had 2 left over from before so thats about 5 days which i have to spread out my pills. Its all good, i just wont take a pill the day i drink

Anyways, I broke out pretty bad on my forehead over the past week and i have the redmarks to show for it. Usually redmarks dont even appear on my forehead, but these dont seem like they're leaving anytime soon... Somedays i feel as if my redmarks on my cheeks are getting better and better but I just looked in my bathroom mirror today and they're still horrible and worse than ever. I feel as if i never look at myself in the mirror i would live a better life but then i think of all the other peopel who see my face and force myself to look in the mirror.

Since ive had these redmarks and stuff ive noticed tons of kids with acne and redmarks around and even when kids only have some red marks, not as much as me, it looks pretty bad. Maybe its because im conditioned to spot the red marks because i have them and it looks worse to me than other people. I wonder if id even notice other peoples if i didnt have any.... sigh. I'll find out in like 5 years when ive forgotten about my epic journey with acne.

Last time i went to the derm i didnt look into the mirror because it was a day before i went off to school and didnt want to feel bad about myself so im not going to notice any change for my next derm appt. Ill make sure to look this time and compare next.

[omgomg]

Pill 91

I've changed it to pills instead of days because sometimes i have to miss some days for to make up for the days i dont have pills.

Anyways, I had my derm appointment yesterday and i missed like 3 classes since my derms all the way in san francisco but thats ok i guess. He said that my face was doing great in terms of active acne. But i still have a bitch load of redness/redmarks and theres really nothing i can do about it except wait it out. Im praying that by december the redness and marks fade a good amount. I can only pray though..

[omgomg]

Pill 110

Ahh, long time no update! 19 days went by pretty fast but it seems like it was a long time ago when i last updated. Anyways, Seems like my redmarks are getting better, fading a bit or im just getting use to it... hopefully its the first one. My derm told me to take no more than 2 drinks a week. But its really been more like 6-7 and it doesnt seem like its going to be any less this weekend :doh:hopefully the bloodtest show if i really am killing my liver.

I just got aquaphor for this month and I have got to say, its the best lip treatment so far. Too bad its not in chapstick form where I can just carry it around. Next time i update I'll probably be done with my next derm appointment. Im pretty sure hes going to bump me up from 20mg. I'm a bit scared because of the drinking thing though... we'll see..

[omgomg]

Pill 119

I had my derm appointment yesterday and while looking in the mirror there it seems that my face has gotten better which is sweet! The redness seems to be going away but itll probably be a long time before it completely goes away. I just hope around Christmas it improves dramatically. My derm also finally upped my dose so I'm going to be taking 20x2 a day now. Also my bloodwork seems to be good even though I've been drinking more than i should be..

Things are going pretty good now! Lets hope things just keep continues to get better!

[flowerburn]

Hey, sounds like you are doing pretty good. Hopefully in another 118 days I'll be doing well to..
So you're on 20mg twice daily? Hm, I start to wonder why I'm on 40mg once daily... could that be a mistake or am I obsessing?

[omgomg]

DAY 131


Well I am about 1/2 way through the month of taking 40 mg. The side effects aren't that much different from 20 thank god EXCEPT i have to apply aquaphor/vaseline lip therapy like 8-10 times a day. If i forget to bring some to school my lips practically would fall off.

ZIT REPORT:
Right now i am currently clear. Zero pimples woo hoo. my backs been clear for probably 2 months now. But i didnt really care about that when i started since i didnt have THAT many back there to begin with and plus, i dont really go walking around in public with my shirt off. These past weeks I've had a pretty big nodule on my forehead but it has died down and it has left a little redmark. This is ok cause the marks on my forehead USUALLY disappear. I also got on my upper lip which used to be a HUGE problem area for me a a little less than a year ago. Im pretty surprised that i havent broke out these past 2 days since i've been running on like 5 hours avg of sleep and lack of sleep use to REALLY break me out.

Redness report:
When i wake up in the morning my skin looks awesome. Dunno why but its barely red and the redmarks are not too apparent. Then during the day it gets a bit redder. I try not to look at my skin at all during the day since im at school and rather not have to concentrate on my skin so i can concentrate on important things..like lecture... ha. So it could look really really horrible and i wouldnt know. But then after i take a shower its so bad. My whole face turns really really red. The marks then look horrible I dont know why this happens.. The only thing i can think of is that of the heat and the blood rushing to my face, but why does it show more cause of the redmarks? it doesnt turn other peoples skin red, those without redmarks..

Any ways, tis the season to...............STUDY FOR FINALS

hopefully this winter break is good to me and i can come back to college with MUCH LESS REDNESS THATS ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

[omgomg]

Month 7 Day 1

Long long time no update, not like many people read this log tho so its cool. I went through my last month of 40 mg/day. During the course of last month I probably got a total of 2-3 pimples if i remember correctly. I got 2 on my forehead which went away in a matter of days. The side effects is still dry lips but its getting pretty bad now. I need to start apply more aquaphor on it i guess. My face is still really really red thats my biggest concern at the moment. My derm just bumped me up to 60mg/day so we'll see how that goes. Im scared that the redness will stay even after im done with accutane. that would be a nightmare. I also bought the redness relief eucerin line. But it doesnt seem to help THAT much arggg

Anyways so far this has been the doses i have taken so far

month 1: 20mg
month 2: 20mg
month 3: 20mg
month 4: 20mg
month 5: 40mg
month 6: 40mg
month 7: 60mg

my derm said that he wants to see me a couple months without any acne and then i can stop my treatment. Hopefully i only do 8 months and have it over with. And hopefully the redness goes away when im done haha. Oh yeah, ive been still drinking about once a week but its way over the 1-2 beers that my derm recommended but my liver test are fine... i dunno. my dose also has increased. But im going home this weekend so i wont drink this weekend. Haha give my liver a rest!

[omgomg]

Month 8 Day 2

Last Month of Tane! Yes, cant wait to get this over and done with. Still on 60mg/day and my face is still red as hell. It seems like its getting better but its probably me getting used to it. I try to avoid mirrors all the time especially in public like bathrooms and stuff.... I REALLY REALLY pray that the redness goes back to normal after going off tane....Reading post that say that the redness has stayed over the course of 2 years for some people really depresses me. Whatever, just 30 days left. That is all. Im excited, i can enjoy the rest of the school year without having to take pills.