Feeling Low

So my skin has not been doing well ever since I came to college. Well, for a couple weeks anyway I was happy with how it was looking- it was just getting to the point that I wanted. But all of a sudden I got a pretty bad break out, and now, although it is better, I still have evidence of that horror- Im left with red marks to remind me of my troubles. I didn't even pop those pimples, thats just how my skin is! On top of the red marks I can't seem to get rid of all the white heads on my forehead, and now I am getting more whiteheads all over my face.

I thought my skin was starting to clear up since I finally got my meds back, but they don't seem to be working too well. I just feel really low, and the fact that my roommate has perfect skin makes me feel even worse. I can't seem to be happy. I feel that I have no good qualities and I have no idea why my boyfriend continues to date me. This sounds sooooo pathetic, but I know I need to get these feelings out somewhere, and I guess there's no better place but a forum dedicated to acne. I can't be happy when I have these pimples and it really fucks with every aspect of my life. It's all I have on my mind all the time, and that is just not good when you are supposed to be focused on your studies! I just need some reassurance and/or some tips on how to clear up my skin. Please help!

Incredibly Bad Breakout!

So I just started my freshman year of college. Everything was going so well. My skin was dong well, I met so many awesome people and I even started dating someone who I really like. I felt confident and beautiful.

Then I ran out of my medication.

I thought it would last until my parents came for parents weekend, which is tomorrow, but it ran out a couple weeks ago. Now my acne is back and with a vengeance. I have an incredible amount of little white heads and a couple bad, big red suckers on on checks. I thought that by using Mario Badescu's drying lotion it would make them disappear relatively quickly but all it did was dry out my skin horribly. So now I have a ton of ugly fucking acne, and my skin is dried out. So far, the guy I am dating doesn't seem to mind, or at least he acts as if he doesn't. I'm just really frustrated and I know I sound so dumb and like a typical teenage girl, but I just don't know what to do anymore. Back home it was easy to get my prescriptions. I feel so hopeless and ugly. I can't even look at myself in mirrors anymore and I hide my face from people.

I thought I was starting to grow out of this shit since I'm nineteen now, but obviously I have not. I know that freaking out all day everyday about this is not doing anything to help the condition of my skin, but I can't help it. I see girls around campus with incredibly perfect skin and I wonder how they do it. I hate who acne makes me become. I just can't be happy when I have these horrible breakouts. All I can hope for is my medication to make me look and feel better and that is just pathetic. I feel like the typical American, taking a pill to solve all her problems, but I don't know what else to do. Why can't things be different?