23/f starting accutane

Hi there im 23 female and have mild acne -

i have been on this website alot recently because over the last few months my skin has become problematic again. For the past 8 months i have been using retin a on my face at night and dalacin T in the morning. this routine worked for a bit until a few months ago. And now i have become very hopeless and want to consider accutane. i have been depressed about my skin i would say for the last 5 or 6 yrs which is a long time to be thinking about your skin day in and day out. i will admit that there were some good times when my skin would behave and things were perfect and i would be able to live my life freely. but it would always come back and make me depressed and socially akward (either becuase i would blow people of if my skin was not good or i just wouldnt go out at all and people thought i disappeared or something) actually i take that back when my skin was good it was never perfect but i was like the odd zit or two in places that i did not mind and i was totally fine with that. but once i would get like 10-15 zits at a time big and small thats when i would start to feel completely overwhelmed and would want to not even attempt to conceal them and just stay inside until they all went away. i hope this sounds familar to some. another big proeblme of mine is that i pick my skin and then get extremely mad at myself for doing it after. ill always wake up the next day and be like dam my skin woulndt be half as bad if i hadn't picked this, this and this last night ughhh!

so anywho... ive written on some peoples logs recently asking them about accutane and whether or not its worth it and after much thought and consideration (side effects and all) ive decided that i want to go on it.

I have been seeing this acne doctor (only works with people with acne) and he has given me the option of going on accutane --sidenote -- he wanted to put me on it 8 months ago when i first went to go see him but i refused bc i was soo scared of it and didnt think my skin was that bad. but now looking back i am a little sad to think that i could have already gone through the whole course by now instead of wasting so much money on topical products that only semi-worked up until recently!

so anyways i am hoping that once i see him it wont be that much longer until i can get on it.
i have a few questions that ill ask him but also want your opinions for those who have been on it or are on it and who have mild/moderate acne and who are around my age (since i dont find i relate to teenage acne- im now at the age where this stuff should be out of my system and it makes me mad that i am now in that catagory of adult acne boohoo:(!! )

so mainly what i want to know is if i have already been taking retin a's over the course of 8 months 9and yes i think my skin is fairly better than when i started using that) do you think my chances of IB will be as high as opposed to if i hadnt been on retin a during that time period. also to decrease the IB what dosage should i ask my doctor to go on 10,20 , 30 or 40 ??or does it just pay to start semi high so i can get it all over with in the beginning?

i will post pictures from start to finish .. even though that sounds super embaressing to post pics of my acne .. but i will do it once i officially decide and start taking the pills.

i will keep posting on here .. sinc ei already come on here about once a day to check up on everyone elses logs...eheh.... everyone on here is so heplful and so supportive and i can not even begin to tell you how much i relate to so many of you and our issues of self esteem when it comes to our skin... its insane how so many of us feel this way!!!!

keeep me posted on anything and everything ... be back tomorrow to report on what my doc told me.