Haven't left my house in 3 years.

I'm 29 years old. I started getting acne at the age of 12. My mom wouldn't let me get on Accutane because my father tried to kill himself when he was taking it. I still break out even though im 29. I keep thinking it will stop next year.. or next year.. or the next. Now my face is completely scarred, and still breaking out. I moved back into my parents 3 years ago and have not gone outside since. I can't bring myself to go outside anymore because I am so ashamed of how I look. I have no money and don't know what to do. I just want a normal life.