How I almost killed myself.

Just a couple weeks ago I was certain I was going to kill myself. I had broken out the worst in a very long time after eating some binging for a week, eating whatever I wanted and not washing my face, and when I came out I couldn't recognize myself in the mirror. I looked like a monster and I wanted to scream. I had been through this same shit, this same cycle, over and over, an endless number of times and I realize that I couldn't take it anymore. Well, I was so close to killing myself. I was going to crash my car. Or take some pills. But thankfully it's cleared up after stopping bp and really cleaning up my diet and washing habits. There is hope once again. That was a dark time in my life. I don't want to ever go back to that. But you never know what the future holds...

Acne clearing after I stopped working out and eating so much.

I used to really be into bodybuilding and I am still... mentally. I used to train 6 times a week and eat over 3000 calories a day with a lot of protein and carbohydrates. I would generally eat at least 6 meals a day.

I haven't trained in 2 months. Now I barely eat 3 meals a day and I'm on a ketonic diet, which is basically the same thing as the Paleo diet. No carbs, mostly protein, some vegetables and fruits, a bit of nuts here and there.

I have stopped Benzoyl Peroxide. Now I just wash my face with soap and water in the morning and before I go to sleep. I have stopped breaking out other than very very small, shallow pimples.

I suspect that first starting training at a young age (I have been training for about 3 or 4 years and started when I was only 15 or 16) made me produce excess male hormones and androgens. The fact that I was eating over 3000 calories a day and a lot of protein and carbohydrates and fats didn't help either. I remember when I would always eat right before bed to help me gain weight because I was so skinny. I would usually down 50 grams of Whey protein and maybe 20 cashews/almonds.

I've stopped all that and I've stopped breaking out. I'll miss working out, however. I'll probably start again when I can be sure that I have grown out of acne, perhaps some time in my mid 20s. As long as I know how to train smart and eat smart that's all that matters. I can go back whenever I want. In the meantime, however, I've lost a lot of muscle and weight...

Wouldn't an all tangerine diet be good for acne?

Recently I had a day where all I ate, all day, was just tangerines. Nothing else. No rice, no meat, nothing. Just tangerines. I probably had at least 50 tangerines all day.

I thought that the next day my acne would be worse because of all the sugars I was taking in from this very sweet fruit, but my acne actually got better.

Also, these days I haven't been putting anymore chemicals on my face.

Maybe all we need to do is just stop consuming animal fats/cholesterol? Sebum is, afterall, made from those fats and cholesterols and can only get those materials from the foods we put in our bodies.

A tangerine is basically just water and sugar and a little thin sac and vitamins. No way the body can produce sebum from that. Plus, all that vitamin C will boost the immune system and help fight acne. Also, tangerines are rich in many other vitamins and minerals, such as Vitamin A, B5, Niacin, Riboflavin, etc.

One tangerine contains nearly 100 percent daily value for vitamin C and 30 percent daily value for vitamin A.

Sebum is the bane of my existence.

That is all.

Acne is a fucking bitch.

That is all.