It's been 2 months since i started this blog. i recently joined a thread about picking. Here's my post after joining:
Thanks! What is my main concern? Mainly blackheads with the occasional white head or red lump as i call them. My topicals prescriptions do work but they have a tendency to make me irritated and flaky, which just exasperates the problem. The flaky skin gives me blackheads that i dig out unfortunately. If i didn’t pick, my face would be decent...not perfect but i could live with that i think.
i went back to my derm on Friday and she gave me a good non-comedogenic moisturizer and told me to use the topicals every few days not every day until the irritation heals. I'm hoping this moisturizer works b/c so far everything that i have tried over the counter doesn’t work enough.
I picked one small white head yesterday and i'm pissed at myself. it would’ve dried up on its own but instead not it's a stupid bigger scab. oh well. but i have to give myself credit b/c not too long ago (about 3 years ago) i was digging and squeezing so much it was scary. i've since sought help and slowly have been getting better. i wouldn’t call it an OCD but a form of anxiety. I’ve learned to breathe and use yoga. Especially when i feel myself getting anxious and freaking out over a zit.
It sounds so stupid to say...they are just zits right? but we know it's more than that.
thank you so much for making this thread. I can’t talk to anyone about this, except my doc. They say...just get over it and stop. It’s not that easy.
day 1 wish me luck