Hello, all. I have been reading tons of posts on this website for a while now and thought I would join. There have been so many great stories and I hope I will have one of those. Maybe I can help by detailing my experience too.
A little bit about me…I’m 21 years old, about to start my senior year in college and have been dealing with acne for probably 8 years now. I am going to begin taking Accutane at the end of this month. I want to start by saying that Accutane was my LAST resort. I have tried Arbonne (do they even exist anymore?), Proactive, Clinique, Neutrogena, Clean & Clear, Benzoyl Peroxide (I think I’m immune now), Minocycline, and natural remedies like honey, apple cider vinegar, lemons, etc. I was pretty hesitant about taking Accutane because of all of the nasty side effects. The one biggest thing I am still afraid of is potential hair loss. I’m really hoping that doesn’t happen.
My boyfriend, brother, and friend have all taken the drug and it did wonders for them. While they are guys and it’s a much easier process for them, I hope that I will have the same results.
My acne seems to have been at its worst the past few months. I’m sure most of it is hormonal, but I think stress is also involved. I recently realized how much of a negative effect acne has had on me. The other day, I was driving home from work with my boyfriend when he pointed out a guy on his bike. My boyfriend said that guy lived next door to us in our apartment for two years and moved out the past week. I had never seen him in my life. I could not have pointed him out if there was a line-up. For a while, I made jokes that I was really oblivious. But I now realized that I avoid eye contact constantly. I hated people looking at me because I was so self-conscious. The past few years have been full of excuses not to go out with friends to the point that they probably think I’m anti-social. I am so emotionally drained from worrying about my skin. There have been so many times that I wish I could skip work or ditch class, but I can’t bring myself to do it. And then when I am there, I constantly stress over my skin which I’m sure adds to the breakouts. I simply don’t want people to look at me.
A couple of weeks ago, I went on vacation and looked into a mirror and started to cry (granted, it was a mirror with the harshest lighting I had ever seen). It wasn’t the first time and I have been on the verge of panic attacks before, but it was enough to make me one hundred percent sure I wanted to use Accutane so that I could get rid of my skin problems once and for all.
I am so impatient to start Accutane. My dermatologist gave me the green light, but I still have to wait until August 22nd. I’m not sure what dosage I will be taking, but I know that I am going to have a one-pill day, two-pill day routine for five months. It’s irritating that girls have to go through such an ordeal, but I suppose I understand why the pregnancy tests are necessary even though I personally practice abstinence.
I hope that I can update my progress on Accutane with pictures here and there between two jobs and school. It is going to be a hectic next few months and I already am dreading the initial breakout that everyone talks about. But like I say, you need to make yourself worse off in the short run to be better off in the long run (including the $450 out-of-pocket I’ll be paying for the pills each month for the next few months *cries*). I really wish I had done this years ago when I didn’t care as much about my appearance. Dealing with acne in college when you have jobs and need to focus on impressing people for the future is so difficult.
Anyway, I hope to be done writing dull, depressing things. Any tips/expectations are welcome!
The two pictures below I have uploaded show my skin's current condition. I get a lot of painful, red bumps on my cheek areas. The picture on top is me with makeup and less blemishes than now. Hope my skin will look that way naturally one day!