As a new member, I thought it would be a good idea to discuss how much my acne has affected me in my life.
In middle school and high school when the rest of the kids around me were getting acne, I never did. I suppose I took it for granted because I had no skin regimen whatsoever. Unfortunately when I turned 18 and started my first year of college, I got my first acne flare ups. I must have tried every over the counter treatment I could find at CVS: proactiv, clearasil, effaclar duo, all that jazz. Finally I saw a doctor about it but nothing they prescribed worked. In fact, one of the antibiotics they gave me gave me a severe allergic reaction. Anyways, since nothing has worked so far, it's really starting to take a toll on my self esteem. I am depressed all the time and often cry myself to sleep. Whenever my friends want to hang out, it all depends on how bad my acne is that day. I spend most of my days locked in my room afraid to come out. Honestly, I hate myself for it, but the thought of being out in public for all to judge scares me to death. Acne has screwed up my life beyond compare. I've lost many relationships because of it: because I don't feel like I measure up. All the boyfriends I've had try to tell me I'm still pretty, but how can they say that when their skin is flawless? So I dump them. It doesn't matter if they make me happy because they deserve someone better and prettier than me. If my acne were to go away, I think I'd finally be happy. And I would do everything I can to help anyone who suffers similarly because I know from experience how much it hurts. If my acne cleared up, I'd be more outgoing and have more friends and be able to keep them instead of pushing them away. Perhaps, if my acne went away, I'd be able to have actual fun. I wouldn't have to get up 2 hours early to put makeup on every day. Well I can only hope from here that things will get better from here because I'm not sure what I'll do if it doesn't. So wish me luck!!!