I seriously cannot believe I'm going into six months on Accutane. And it's also hard to imagine that six months ago I was this girl so desperate to be herself again, to be able to look in the mirror again. My doctor has bumped me to 80 mg a day and the brand I am now on is Amnesteem (spelled right?). I've heard this brand is more effective then Claravis. But, I honestly have no idea. As far as my face goes, it's completely smooth. I do not have any breakouts at the moment. It looks SO much better then when I started in February. I still have those small purple/red marks on the left side of my face, though. Not sure what to do about those. Maybe I'll have to wait to do a chemical peel or something. Or they should just fade with time which is honestly the hope.
I'm just ready to be at peace with everything. With my skin, who I present to the world. Everything. Because there are too many amazing things in this world and too many reasons to be happy to let one small flaw on your face ruin it. And if someone doesn't like the way you look, they can go look at someone else haha and then you can spend the time with the people who really love you for everything you are.