Having acne has held me back so much in my life. I cannot count how many times I've looked in the mirror and wish I could change what I see. Having acne has stolen my confidence from me. I do not feel comfortable without makeup on because of all the pimples on my cheeks and how red my face is. Not only does acne take a hit on my confidence but a lot of it has to do with my scars. I don't have deep ice pick scars, they're all just red and purple marks on my skin. I'm not sure why I even have scars, I avoid popping and picking as much as I possibly can. I've tried some creams for scars but I've yet to find one that works. I'm hoping accutane can help me with my scars too.
All these flaws have constantly made myself second guess how look. If a person is staring at me I suddenly hope they're not thinking about my acne. There has been nights where I've just completely canceled plans because my face looked too bad and I would rather just stay in. I've spent nights crying because I just feel so ugly. I never would have thought acne could have such an effect on someone but it truly has affected me. I feel as though I can't fully live how I want to live and I'm never as outgoing as I could be.
On the rare days that my face clears up its amazing how much more confident I am. I smile to people more, I'm a lot more willing to follow through on plans, I'm just happier. I am sure to live it up on the days that my skin decides to look presentable.
So I just wanted to talk about how acne had made me feel, and I hope maybe a year from now ill never have to have these depressing feelings again. If anyone has any sort of acne scar cream they have used to lighten scars I would love to know! Half my battle is scars. My face is honestly not bad with my powder on, but once you take it off my cheeks are just covered in dark marks.
I'd really appreciate any sort of suggestion!