So...I don't know how people even find these things or if anyone will read it, but whatever, here goes nothing.
My skin is currently just...revolting. It looks just terrible and makeup doesn't really go very far towards covering it up. Whatever coverage I do manage to get is usually completely gone by the end of the day. This has been going on for so long that I literally cannot even remember the last time I had clear skin. I can't even remember the last time I had under 20-30 red spots/pimples.
I've tried everything but Accutane. When I was thirteen and the breakouts started to really get bad, they tried putting me on tetracycline, but my body wasn't such a big fan and broke out in hives. Everywhere. The doctors said I'm most likely allergic to the whole "-cycline" family, which rules out the majority of oral medications.
They tried birth control pills after that, but those just made me insane and inflamed the acne even more. Which was awesome.
There really aren't a lot of options now besides Accutane, but I'm scared of it. I'm prone to depression (though that's in no small part because of my skin), and I've heard it can make that dramatically worse. I also am concerned about the dry skin, though honestly, how much worse could I possibly look? Not much.
I'll be twenty-five next month, and I am just unwilling to let this continue any longer. My thoughts are growing darker and darker whenever I look in a mirror, and its time to take action. Before I agree to go on Accutane, I want to give my skin one last ditch effort to get its act together and try Dan's regimen. I've used similar strategies in the past to no avail, but it seems worth giving it a shot before I risk destroying my liver with Accutane.
As of today, I have been using the regimen for a couple of days (about 3). My skin has been UNBELIEVABLY dry, but I'm hoping that the combination of jojoba oil (getting it tomorrow) and the increasingly humid weather will help with that. This is a particular concern since right now I'm only using a tiny amount in the evenings. I actually have more active pimples now than several days ago, but I know that's common when starting a new treatment (as we veterans of the acne wars all do), so it is obviously too early to judge.
At this moment I am way too embarassed to actually post any pictures showing my awful, awful skin. If I start to see any sign of improvement, I will post before/after, but it's just too hard right now.
Alright, well I know that this was probably just thrilling and you're desperate to hear more depressing acne blather, even writing about this is really difficult for me, and I'm going to wrap it up.
I'll try to update every couple of days with new info. In the mean time I'm going to get in touch with my insurance and figure out if they can help with the cost of Accutane. If not, time to start saving!
For anyone who actually took the time to read this...thank you. It helps to know that, even though I feel like a sore in world full of clear, pretty people, I'm not alone in this battle.
Till next time.
-Cleanse with Cetaphil (wait 5-10 minutes)
-Moisturize with Ponds Dry Skin Cream (wait 10-20 minutes)
-Foundation (Make Up For Ever), Concealer (L'Oreal True Match), Setting Powder (Make Up For Ever)
-Cleanse with Noxzema Cleansing Cream (to help with dryness)
-Clairisonic (every other day)
-1 pea sized amount of Dan's BP
-Moisturize with Ponds Dry Skin Cream