Sometimes I feel like I am stuck between a rock and a hard place.
After buying and trying all the over the counter creams, lotions and potions under the sun, to using topical and medicated creams to having every available anti-biotic, cutting out various food groups from my diet, self esteem plumetting to an all time low, two courses of gruelling courses of roaccutane (accutane), I feel my acne slowly returning.
I am now at an endocrinologist but i feel as though i have lost all hope.
I feel like, to an extent, I should try and keep a posotive outlook on things, which I can sometimes in an "it could always be worse" sort of way.
But its hard to feel like things can get worse when you feel so low. I feel selfish feeling like this but I hate what I see when i look in the mirror.
Do I try and accept myself the way I am, or keep returning to life-ruling, gruelling medications that take toll on the rest of my looks whilst givnig me the skin i desire?
This is taking over my life and I don't know where to turn