so month 2 has been eventful!
meaning, i broke out a few times. last weekend for whatever reason, i went on a picking spree. hadn't done that in so long that i felt so ashamed. luckily i had the weekend to let it calm down. everything dried up and peeled off. we had dinner at a friend's on sunday and i remember sitting at the table under the bright lights wondering if my face was peeling off because we were eating cheeseburgers and you know you have to open your mouth wide for that..and the war zone was all over the chin. also i obviously wiped all my Carmex off from eating and had to sit there Carmex-less for at least 45 minutes because everyone was talking. omg my lips were so dry i thought they were gonna fall off. but i didn't want to be rude to go put on chapstick. that'd just be plain weird. so every 5 seconds i was licking my lips. i prolly looked like an effing lizard. finally dinner was over and i got to get up and grab my Carmex and head to the bathroom to see what the damage was. it actually wasn't too bad. i had a couple flakes that i peeled off. and my lips had some skin peeling as well. i carefully pulled the skin off and applied a shitload of Carmex again. then i went back out to join the friends.
i went to see my mom about a week ago. this was the first time she's seen me since before starting accutane. everyone was telling me how amazingly different my skin looked. it made me feel really good. although every time i get a compliment, i have this big fear that i'm gonna jinx myself. it seems like i always have a breakout the day after.
like last night, my boyfriend was telling me my faced looked amazing. i got that happy but anxious feeling. and of course i woke up with some whiteheads. so i got all bummed out. i took my blog photos for today BEFORE i popped the pimples so that it didn't look worse than it really is. and actually it's not even that bad. the whiteheads were all small (except the one last night..that was a big guy) so i should be grateful for that.
anyway i took the pics and i just looked at day 7 next to today's pics. wow. i could cry. i can't believe the difference already. i am telling you guys, if you're not taking a photo every week, do it! you will feel so much better when you see it working.
so here are pics of each side from day 7 to day 44