so tomorrow will be one month down! can't believe it. i have a derm appt at 10:45. my derm is out tomorrow, so i have to see his PA or whoever. kind of wish i could see the real doc but i can't do anything about that. wondering if my dose will be upped yet.
my first month on accutane was pretty eventuful, so i'm hoping my second month is a bit easier, meaning less breakouts. but time will tell.
comparing my pics from today to last wednesday... i think it looks a little better, though my right side is struggling at the moment. the middle of my cheek is giving me a hard time.
either way, i have to say i break out so much less than before accutane. i remember counting 29 whiteheads the month i was waiting to start accutane. 29! what a nightmare.
thing is, i don't want to get back to my old ways. whenever my skin starts clearing up, my hopes go up. and then the next day i break out and i get that sinking feeling in my heart and get anxious. i want to stop that right now. when my skin is eventually completely clear, i need to learn that i still might get a pimple here and there. and i want to be able to just look at it without getting upset. i feel like i can figure this out without going to cognitive behavioral therapy like i am supposed to. (i'm spending enough money on my health right now, i'm not paying for therapy too!) so if anybody has body dysmorphia and ocd.. please let me know how you broke your cycle of obsessing over your skin. i've been doing really good, but every once in a while i catch myself wanting to keep going to the mirror.
no new side effects! just the dry lips. i chewed a piece of skin off the other day while i was out shopping, and it started bleeding. that was no fun. so no more chewing. i'm chewing as i type. gah!
back has been hurting, but me and another therapist are going to trade massages next week. so i'm thuper duper excited about that. haha
oh and headaches are back. but probably lack of water again. some days i guzzle down 3 liters...some days barely 2. i do loads better on 3 liters, obviously. had my boyfriend massaging my scalp the other day. it felt amazing because my head was completely pounding.
k gotta go get ready for work. thanks for listening =)