Well I went to the dermatologist today and he told me no more accutane! I am excited, but a little nervous that he isn't having me do a full six months (I just finished month 5). Below is my skin today (its honestly like a babys bottom!) and it has been completley acne free for a little over a month. My lips are still chapped and the doctor said it might take a month for them to completly heal. We also discussed ways to prevent breakouts from happening again. He told me to avoid mosturizer and spf if possible, as these both cause pores to clog. He said you absolutly want to protect your self from the sun, so if possible wear a hat that covers your entire face, but avoid the spf on your face. Couldn't be happier! This is absolutly worth it. Just hoping it stays like this. If I start breaking out again I will be back, but as for now.. good luck! You will make it through and be so happy you decided to go on the "journey."
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Well I just finished Month 4 and I could not be happier. I have zero pimples and my skin is like a baby's bottom. My lips are still really chapped and my hair dry, but no dry skin. I have been on 40mg as of month 2. I am really worried that my acne will come back. I have asked my dermatologist to up my dosage, but for some reason she refuses. My sister weighs the same as I do and was on 80mg... so idk why my dermatologist wont up mine past 40mg. Anyways.. I hope my results thus far bring hope to those still in your early months! I know that inital breakout can be tough!
Sorry for the poor photo quality and the zombie stare =)
I can certainly feel a difference in my skin. My skin is much smoother and my pores are now tiny. Almost all blackheads gone. I am still getting acne on my chin, but nothing that isn't able to be covered with a little makeup. Any pimple I do get are just pimples, no cysts anymore. I don't know if you are able to tell from the photo, but my complexion, especially on my cheeks, has really evened out. My scalp is no longer itchy... finally going to get my hair done! My lips are still chapped (they are bright red but not crusty). Last week I did get a little back acne, but it has all gone away. Thinking it may have been cause by me starting to go to the gym again.
Sorry I haven't posted in a while! I don't know if I said this before but my doctor upped my dosage to 40mg. I was hoping for more but because of my itchy scalp she didn't want to go higher. She said if my scalp doesn't get any worse she will up it again next month. I will start the 40mg pills tomorrow. My lips are still chapped and red, but not super cracked or gross looking. As long as I apply chapstick every 10mins I'm okay. My skin has improved sooooo much! I had no active or new pimple for about a week! Then two days ago I started to get some new ones. I think this is from my period. I have always had hormonal acne so I am hoping that is the cause and not another bad breakout. I am also a little nervous about the new dosage. Worried I might get another initial breakout. Here is a photo from today. Everything on the right side of the photo is just scabs/scarring. My chin area is also extremely red.
I no longer have anxiety going out in public. However, I am stressing over my job.... or should I say job search. I am a recent grad and need to find a job that can pay my bills. I absolutely LOVE my job and enjoy going to work everyday, but it is a non-profit which means minimum wage for employees. I just got an email from a potential employer requesting an interview. I am worried about the affect my acne will have on my ability of getting hired. It is bad to say this, but looks do matter when you go in for an interview. Who is going to want to hire someone who looks gross? My lips are still chapped and my skin still dry, but acne is improving daily.
Got bloodwork done this morning. Dermatology appointment on Wednesday.
Gross Advice: I have dealt with acne for as long as I can remember, but I have no scars. Use a needle cleaned with alcohol if you MUST pop a pesty whitehead. Everyone on here stresses DO NOT POP ... which is true.. you shouldn't. But accutane causes a crazy amount of whiteheads that would be awful to walk around with. I just prick the white head and push down on the sides. I DO NOT SQUEEZE! This gets rid of the gross white head without irritating the skin or causing scars.
Continually improving. Each day I wake up I have less acne. Even though my skin is still far from perfect, I am more confident just knowing I am just several months away from that perfection. My lips are still tight and my scalp is still itchy. I started globing on the Waxelene which helps me resist the urge to pick at my lips.
Tonight my best friend gets back from her month long trip to Chile (so jealous). A group of us are going to World of Beer to catch up before she leaves for Georgetown Law. Not only does she travel the world and is a genius (graduated summa cum laude), but she also has the most beautiful "dewy" skin I have ever seen. Hopefully soon mine will be all the same...but the point of all this was the drinking. I have heard mixed reviews on drinking and accutane. I am not the type that drinks to get obliterated. So I am just curious if I will be okay after a couple beers.
It is summer in Florida and I am pasty white (as you can see).
Cruising, sunbathing, tanning. I may have been oily, but at least I had some color and wasn't a complete mask of acne. Friends are going to the beach and pool. I cant.
**Everything is really drying out. My pimples are all becoming super dry and eventually flaking off. My scalp is not as itchy as it was. I use to wash my hair everyday, but my hair is super dry so I can go a couple days. I know this sounds gross, but it helps with the itchy scalp. My lips are all I can think about. They don't look chapped at all, but boy do they feel it! I put on Waxelene about every five minutes. Tyler and I ran to chick fil a yesterday and I forgot my jar. Had to go through the drive thru instead because I couldn't live without my Waxelene.
Not much happening besides drying out. Still curious about highlighting my hair.
Day 15 (above). Definitely seeing improvement
Wow. The improvement from 4 days ago. It might not look it from these photos because my face is still red, but no new pimples today! I am thinking that maybe it has started to improve because my period ended and I began my new cycle of birth control. I guess I wont find out until next month, but for now I am content.
I feel like this is too good to be true. Everyone else I have talked to didn't start to see improvements this early. I am almost certain that this means my dermatologist will up my dosage. Not necessarily a bad thing. I want to only have to go through this one time. So if I am going to do it I mine as well do it right the first time.
I live in Florida which in may means 95 and humid. This is good because my face is not drying out like it would in the winter, however after 5 minutes outside my face has melted off and I feel the need to take a shower. It is impossible to look 'fresh' while on accutane, I guess this is something I am going to have to accept.
Lips still very tight and dry. Not cracked or bleeding. Scalp is super itchy. It is driving me crazy! Also, ladies, is it risky to get my hair highlighted? I am worried about it falling out.
Neutrogena fresh foaming cleanser
Waxelene (for my lips)
* I hear it works wonders for skin as well (at night). I just can't stand the greasy feeling on my face
Ponds dry skin cream/ rich hydrating facial moisturizer ( morning)
Aveeno positively radiant intensive night cream (before bed)
Today is day 12 and I am feeling much better than I have been. I woke up this morning with only one white head! Weeee! Most "normal" people would not be thrilled by this, but when you have been waking up each morning with about 8 white heads surrounding your mouth, one is something to celebrate.
My lips are still super dry. No cracking or bleeding, just extremely uncomfortable and tight. Also, my back/shoulders are super sore.
Before going on accutane I read others strategies and experiences. I have found that only washing my face at night and rinsing it in the morning with warm water helps to keep it from getting further irritated. I know this sounds gross, but hey, it helps.
I still find myself embarrassed and looking to the floor when others are talking to me. Very rude of me, I know, but I can't help it. I wish I could cover my chin at all times. Everything above my upper lip is clear.
That is all for today. Feel free to ask any questions!
Im in a rush to take Bo to the vet so I will have to make it quick.
Today was my first full day of work since my acne has gone crazy! It was ok. I told everyone in my class about accutane. I work in a school for children with motor disabilities called CECO and today was the last day (aka class pictures). I explained why I didn't want to be the photo and everyone tried to make me feel better and talk me into it, but no.
Yesterday was the first time I cried. Broke down in the car otw back from walking challenge. Luckily Bo was at the door to greet me which made things better. Who can be sad when your 6 month old baby is trying to give you kisses?
Small amounts of hair still falling out. Woke up this morning with more white heads. Less than the pass two mornings though. Lips are killing me. Showers are amazing. The steam and water makes my skin feel like it is normal again.
Not much has changed as of yesterday.... so here is a picture of my baby Bo. When I first got him at the rescue and now.
P.S. I apologize for the poor writing and grammar. Rushing.
Here I am.
Sad. Angry. Miserable.
I wake up everyday with a bunch new white heads. I can't wait for the day I wake up to find no new acne. I am so embarrassed that I only leave the house to go to work or take the dog out. I am so frightened talking to people or looking them in the eye that I no longer take Bo for walks around the neighborhood for fear that someone will want to stop and talk. Does this make me selfish?
Lucky. I owe a lot to my boyfriend. He tries to make me believe that I am still beautiful, which is hard to do with this infestation. I am cranky at all times, imagine 24/7 PMS, yet he just complements me and tells me it will all be worth it in the end. I know I am lucky. I have someone who still makes me kiss him even though my lips are no longer soft and are framed with acne.
Concerned. Yesterday as I was rinsing out the shampoo I could feel hairs sliding along my backside. It wasn't clumps of hair. Maybe 15-20 strands total if I had to guess. But if this much hair is falling out on day 10 I am frightened to think of how much I will feel sliding down my back come month 6.
Curious. I am thinking that maybe I should just tell my coworkers about accutane. Has anyone done this? I feel as though this may make me feel less embarrassed.
P.S I am sorry for the photos. I know they are gross. I want to see my progress and also let future accutaners see that there is hope. I hope.
P.S.S. Just called the dermatologist to see if I can take antibiotics or go in and get some of these cysts injected. She said no. Very disappointing.
Well I have been on Isotretinoin 30mg for 8 days now, and my skin is the worse it has ever been in my life. Yesterday I woke up with a bunch of cystic white heads and this morning I woke up with even more! Luckily my lips arent chapped at all (Waxelene is a life saver!), but my face is dry and flakey. I can constantly feel the sore cysts on my chin... as if I need a constant reminder of how awful I look. I was doing some research and found that those who are on lower dosages often have to go on a second cycle of accutane. I am going to my dermatologist in three weeks and going to try and talk her into upping my dosage... no way can I go through this again! I have several vacations coming up in July and I am hoping that my skin is looking better by then. Please let me know when your skin started to clear up! I need some hope lol
P.S. If you have DRY LIPS go to CVS and purchase WAXELENE!!! It is AMAZING!
I am scheduled to begin my first month of accutane on May 7th. I am 21 years old and graduating with my Bachelors of Science in Communication Sciences and Disorders on May 1st. Never would I have thought that I would still be having cystic acne at almost 22 years old.
I decided to make the plunge after my sister, 23 years old, finished accutane and now has perfect skin. I am extremely nervous about the “initial breakout” and dryness after seeing how horrible my sister had it during her first few months of treatment. I will need lots of support! Some success stories are more than welcome!
Please let me know of any products that worked for you!
I will try and post pictures every day starting May th! This is a photo of my skin now without makeup….pretty rough.
****EDIT**** I originally had photos on each blog, however I put my username into google images and all my pimple pictures popped up. Therefore, I have deleated all my pictures. I will keep this "before" photo and have kept the photo from today (9/8/14) under blog "Month 4". My skin got A LOT worse than what it is in this photo, but stared to get better after the first month****