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Finally decided to take accutane

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Feeling Weird

So I have been in a funk ever since I started accutane. I have moments where I feel like I'm in a dream like state and it really freaks me out. I have been looking around on the Internet and I have found things about 'hormonal acne' and I for the description. I have found people who take a drug called spironactine(or something like that) have really found it helpful. I think I am going to talk to my derm about it tomorrow. Maybe in a couple months when I'm not feeling so weird I can try accutane again, but for right now something just does not feel right so I think I need I listen to my gut instinct, and it's telling me I need to stop taking it.

So sometimes my face just feels so dry and painful from washing my face. I use cetaphil normal to oily face wash and sometimes it really burns to use. Right now I'm washing my face twice a day. In the morning with cetaphil gentle wash then at night with the normal to oily stuff. Would I be okay to go some nights without washing my face? I hate sleeping in my makeup but I feel like washing it all the time isn't good for it. Anyone have some opinions? Will sleeping in my makeup like ruin my skin?

Day 25!

So I think for now ill stay on accutane. We shall see! Right now the left side of my face is sooo broken out. I'm really frustrated because my face looked better before I started than now. My forehead has completely cleared up of all the little bumps I used to have. My chin has also cleared up, I did have huge pimples like last week. My chest is also really broken out. I used to just have bumps but now it's like actual painful pimples and white heads. Ugh.

So I've always been a super paranoid person and lately I cannot get these scary side effects out of my head. I'm really scared I'm going to like go crazy on this medicine. A girl at my work said her friend got hallucinations while on it and I am seriously so freaked out. I'm considering taking a break from the pills because I think I'm really scaring myself

My face is so dry!!! I'm putting on moisturizer after moisturizer and it's not helping. Does anyone have any advice on how to help the dry flakes? If I put lotion on them it just kinda smears around on top. Should I buy a gentle exfoliatior? It's sooo hard to not pick at the flakes or scratch them.

My chin is starting to break out really bad, which is also where I have the dry skin flakes. So that just looks lovely. The left left of my temple had tons of little bumps. My forehead has cleared up though. I have one big pimple coming in on my right cheek. My chest is still broken out, which sucks because when I first started it cleared up really nice and now it's back to being gross. This is so annoying. I start school in mid August so in praying my face is atleast under control by then.

So I'm starting to get a few more pimples and that's kind of annoying. All these side effects are really starting to scare me. This may be a little gross for some guys soo if you're a guy I suggest not reading on.

My lady parts have been so dry lately, which I usually get dry before I start my period so that's not out of the normal. I looked thing a up online though to see if accutane has an effect on your vagina and sure enough there's girls complaining of being off accutane for a year and still not being about to get wet down there. That sounds horrible.

I'm starting to wonder if all these crazy side effects are worth it. Yeah clear skin will be nice but damn, is it worth having a these things wrong with you? What if these side effects are irreversible once you go off them?

So yesterday marked two weeks on accutane! So far nothing too crazy has happened. One thing is weird though and I'd really like some thoughts on it. The second day I started accutane I was swimming and when I got out and went inside to go to the bathroom I was bleeding. I thought that was kinda weird. I bled the rest of the day like a normal period. It stopped for a couple days and I then forgot to take a birth control pill and the next day I started bleeding ( which always happens when I miss a pill) it stopped bleeding a couple days later but then I started to bleed again out of no where. It's like a constant period. And now I'm at the end of my pill packet so I'm about to start what should be my actual period. I don't get what's going on?? Why won't I stop bleeding?

I think my initial breakout is beginning. The right side if my face is clear but I'm getting a huge pimple on my chin, a big pimple above my lip, and I'm having a breakout around my left jaw. Also my forehead has little bumps all over and my chest is getting pimples. This sucks, and I know it's only going to get worse.

My lips have been like the desert lately. I freak out if I don't have Chapstick with me. My boyfriend is really supportive about everything and makes me feel better about my breakouts so I really think that's the only thing keeping me positive! Hopefully my face clears up before school in a month.

So far so good. I'm probably jinxing myself but both my cheeks have really cleared up. I used to have a pimple on each side that was pretty deep and would constantly come and go, now they have cleared up. My skin isn't dry, but man my lips are so dry! That's still my only side effect.

Not much of a change today, but I will say my lips are like a freaking desert!! My lips are normally pretty dry and now they are so cracked if I go like an hour without Chapstick. My face looks really clear now besides my scars.

I forgot to mention in my first blog I am on 40 mg a day, and because of my weight I will continue to stay on this dosage for the whole time.

So far I have not really seen much of a change. My left temple is starting to break out a little, and I normally never get white heads but now that's all I'm getting. Since I have such oily skin I have noticed that I now don't need to really touch of my makeup as much throughout the day because its not getting super oily. Nervous for the initial break out but I'd rather just get it out of the way!

Here is what I'm using everyday.


Cetaphil gentle wash

Cetaphil oil control moisturizer

Garnier moisture rescue moisturizer


Clearasil rapid action face wash

Garnier moisturizer

Oxy pads for my chest and back

And for right now I am using Tazorac cream on my face so try and clear up some pimples. Idk if that's a bad idea but I've been using it for years so I feel like it'll be okay!

Update On Skin

So I just wanted to make an entry on how my skin is looking since I start accutane on Tuesday. Right now I only have about 5 pimples, one that appeared this morning on my chin, one on my forehead and the other 3 are the persistent ones on my cheeks that just will not clear up. i do have some little bumps on my cheeks that are not quite pimples. my scars aren't as red today. I think this has to due with I just got back from vacation where I was out on the beach and ocean in the sun all day every day.

My scars are still pretty noticeable even through my makeup so I'm thinking I might buy a liquid foundation to wear to cover them better. I'm glad my face has cleared up a little before starting my treatment but I am a little nervous that its going to go crazy once I start. Just trying to hope for the best!

I get my blood work done tomorrow and then I can finally get things started!

I am at my breaking point with my acne scars right now. My cheeks used to be completely clear but after a bad breakout about 2 months ago my entire left cheek is covered is red dots. I use Tazorac on them but it doesn't seem to be helping at all. I'm so embarrassed of them and I really just don't know what to do about them anymore!! I start accutane in less than a week so I'm really hoping it can help these scars. Right now I only have like 7 or 8 little pimples, every other blemish is red and purple marks and it is so frustrating!! My face would look 10x better if they would just go away

Having acne has held me back so much in my life. I cannot count how many times I've looked in the mirror and wish I could change what I see. Having acne has stolen my confidence from me. I do not feel comfortable without makeup on because of all the pimples on my cheeks and how red my face is. Not only does acne take a hit on my confidence but a lot of it has to do with my scars. I don't have deep ice pick scars, they're all just red and purple marks on my skin. I'm not sure why I even have scars, I avoid popping and picking as much as I possibly can. I've tried some creams for scars but I've yet to find one that works. I'm hoping accutane can help me with my scars too.

All these flaws have constantly made myself second guess how look. If a person is staring at me I suddenly hope they're not thinking about my acne. There has been nights where I've just completely canceled plans because my face looked too bad and I would rather just stay in. I've spent nights crying because I just feel so ugly. I never would have thought acne could have such an effect on someone but it truly has affected me. I feel as though I can't fully live how I want to live and I'm never as outgoing as I could be.

On the rare days that my face clears up its amazing how much more confident I am. I smile to people more, I'm a lot more willing to follow through on plans, I'm just happier. I am sure to live it up on the days that my skin decides to look presentable.

So I just wanted to talk about how acne had made me feel, and I hope maybe a year from now ill never have to have these depressing feelings again. If anyone has any sort of acne scar cream they have used to lighten scars I would love to know! Half my battle is scars. My face is honestly not bad with my powder on, but once you take it off my cheeks are just covered in dark marks.

I'd really appreciate any sort of suggestion!

My Decision

I started getting acne when I was 11 and in the fifth grade. It was really just little bumps on my forehead. That all changed when I got into middle school and hit puberty. My acne and oily face exploded. I am now almost 18 years old and I wish I could say my struggle is over but as of late my acne has just gotten worse.

I have tried literally everything. Proactive, store washes, antibiotics, birth control. EVERYTHING. So I have finally decided that I am done with acne and I am taking accutane and I am so excited.

My acne is usually pretty mild, no cystic acne but lots of red and purple scars. I have periods where my face is very clear but the next week I have twenty pimples on my face. I'm sick of it and I'm happy I have finally decided to take accutane. Once I start i plan on keeping a log, mostly for myself but also for anyone who wants to see how my progress goes!

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