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Hyper Pigmentation

Not only do we have acne, but we have these fucking red marks that stay on our faces after the acne is gone. My face would look much less severe if all my spots had dissapeared. To people who know noting about acne, hyper pigmentation looks like acne. Anyway I'm fucking pissed off and tired of looking at my face like this. My cheeks got sooo bad over the last 2 months that the scars will be unreal. Not only that I'm still breaking out so ill have more scars. Parts of my face that are clear don't even look clear because I'm full of red marks. This is fucking bullshit. Getting my ears cleaned today though. I hope that makes some improvement. Xox good luck with your acne y'all.

Okay so I'll just start from the beginning. It's been a couple of months that both my ears are clogged up. About 2 months ago I had an ear infection, I went to the doctor and he looked in my ears and said they were so blocked he couldn't see the infection. He gave me anti biotics and said after 10 days of use go get your ears syringed. I took my anti biotics, pain was gone out of the ear but I never went to get them cleaned. My skin started not long after that, cyst had appeared right next to my left ear (my worst ear) but I thought nothing of it.. Gradually my acne got worse and worse and worse which led ir what it is now. I bet it's been a long time me ears are clogged probably more then 3 months. I couldn't find anything online regarding acne and wax .. Al though my dachas been telling me it might be my ears. Last night I thought I'd look one more time. And found something asking a question on the health board "does wax cause acne" he said his skin started to heal after getting his ears syringed when his skin was at its worst. Someone replied " your skin is trying to get rid of mucous that has built up and does this via ears, skin and eyes. If your ears are blocked up then your body has to get rid of the mucous via your skin mainly, thus flare up". I found this very interesting seeing as my skin blew up soon after my ears started giving me problems. I'm still breaking out, could this be why? I haven't taken the time to get my ears cleaned because all I was thinking about was my skin skin skin. But hey, this could be something ? I've started with the drops which you need to do a week before and then I'm making my appointment to get them cleaned. Any thoughts on this? I can't find anything on the Internet. Sorry for the long read!


So far topical treatments haven't been working. I'm breaking out on my cheeks now as well. They are healing but very very slowly... Today I picked up some Vitamin a and zinc supplements. I will update every week on how it's affecting my skin. I'm still using sulfar based products on my face. So maybe adding the supplements in my regime will help. Has anyone tried vitamin a and zinc supplements ? Tell me your story if you have. Have a good day ! xo

How I Feel.

You'd think by 2013 they'd come out with something that's actually affective? Battling acne is the hardest thing I've had to go through. It's like being at war with your own body and you are constantly losing the fight. I've had acne since I was 11 or 12 and it's never really left my side. Sometimes it calms down for a while but then it's right back to where it was before, as of now my skin has never been this bad. Which leaves me wondering why? What changed? I'm sure it's hormonal because I have other symptoms of a hormonal imbalance, pcos perhaps? Which I really hope not. Anyways I'm just venting over here. I hope everyone else is feeling good and hopeful about their skin. We are all in this together. xoo


Spots leave and 3 more pop up. I'm really getting fed up, I guess this treatment isn't doing anything. I don't understand where this breakout came from but now it won't leave and I'm getting acne everywhere. Usually a pimple will go down in a week but for some reason these pimples are taking a few weeks just to shrink down and size and once they are gone I get new ones around the same spots. This is very frustrating, I haven't broken out like this in a very long time. I am

Beyond discouraged. Being an adult it's very frustrating to have this problem.


Anybody get results from organic foods? My derm suggested it and I bought a few things because the grocery stores really don't offer much. I'm starting to eat fruit every morning with either a boiled egg or organic peanut butter on toast or bagel. I'm not really crazy about milk so I'm not at a loss with that but I'm definitely a lover of cheese which I won't be able to eat, although I did buy organic cheese but I'm only planning on having a little bit once in a while. Anybody try certain foods or diet that showed any results? Still using my topical treatments but trying to heal from the inside out because I'm sure the problem lies within.


Broke out with about 6 new pimples. Big ones. And totally my fault, left my makeup on at night for 2 nights. Hopefully they heal this week. I don't know what i was thinking... But that won't happen again!


It's been about a week using the new products. Skin is improving but very slowly because the outbreak was so bad. The cysts aren't shrinking yet but I already know what will take a few weeks. I keep getting white heads in the same spots, I've extracted a few and they seem to fill up again. I guess I'll see some real changes in the next 2 weeks. Ill keep updating. My mood is getting better at least. So can only go up from here. Hope everyone else is doing great with their skin! Best of luck.


Question for my ladies! What foundation do you use? I need to buy a foundation that is aimed more towards acne prone skin. Any suggestions? Thanks :)

Mixed Feelings

The process is slow..I shouldn't of expected a miracle.. I don't know I feel sad because tomorrow's my last day off and then im back to work.. I know the make up wont do my skin any good but there's no way I can go out without it. The clusters on my chin and on the sides of my chin are taking the longest to heal.. I guess because they were the worst spots. I have a huge party on the 17.. This Friday. With a bunch of friends... I'm getting my makeup done hoping for a good coverage for that night but makeup can't cover cysts. I'm feeling like crap tonight. Fuck acne is such a pointless thing to have.

Alright, so I had a pretty good experience with my derm. Like i said wacky, but smart as hell! She gave me way too much information to take in though! Firstly new diet. Everything organic just to see if the hormones in the food is adding to my flare ups, only for 3 months so its basically just an experiment. She thinks 80% of my acne has to do with food. She actually wants me to change my tooth paste because of flouride! And seeing as your mouth is so close to the lymph nodes it could definitely have something to do with the cysts and swollen lymph nodes I always have. Again, just an experiment. She prescribed me a new soap which I already love! Effaclar purifying foaming gel by la Roche-Posay. It smells soooo good! And it's so gentle and soft on the skin. First time using it tonight and it felt really great! She doesn't want me using stievamycin gel anymore because she thinks its too strong for my skin and that's why I'm so inflamed, she prescribed me something called sulfacet-r lotion. It has no smell but looks really creamy and gentle which my swollen face will love! Going to use that in about 20 minutes when I know my skin is completely dry. I was also prescribed neo-medrol acne lotion for my shoulders which aren't in bad shape right now but still need clearing. This stuff smells really good too! It's up lifting when your acne products smell good.. It almost makes the experience a little fun. So anyways Ill keep posting more blogs to show my progress, I'm really hoping this does the trick!


Well I'm going to see an amazing derm today. She's a little wacky and abnormal in a cluttered office with no staff and everyone waits in a small room for hours but its all worth it in the end. She's a legend. I'm having mixed feelings about it because I have a feeling she will take me off the stievamycin gel (she prefers natural ways) and I'm worried about another breakout since dealing with this one is hard enough right now. But she's helped me as a child with something else and it was a success so i am hoping she will know what to do. Ill write a blog when I get home and let you guys know what she says. Wish me luck!

Need Some Help?!

My skin is extremely dry and flaky in certain areas most where I'm swollen. I don't know what type of moisturizer to use so I've been using the leftovers of my murad perfecting lotion only because its the closest thing I can think of to use on acne skin, anyone use this moisturizer or know of any good moisturizers to use ?!? I don't want to make my skin worse then it already is. Help would be appreciated !!!! Xo


Just wondering if this product is doing more harm to my face then good. But worried that if I stop it ill break out even more. I put a very small amount of gel on last night and woke up less red but the redness came back as soon as i got out of the shower... Cannot wait for this swelling to go down..

Well.. It's been a rough 10 years that's for sure. Recently feeling more depressed then usual because of a crazy breakout that is not only noticeable from far but painful. Using stievamycin gel, was on the mild form before which seemed to he working, not clearing completely but keeping things at bay, then finding out they no longer have this in Quebec.. One pharmacy had stievamycin regular form so I grabbed it.. Doctor told me if I reacted well to the mild I could move on to the regular so that's what I did. It's been about 2 weeks that I've been using it and I'm completely broken out. Nodules and cysts are extremely active and inflamed on my chin , jaw line, neck and forehead. Many people experience an initial breakout from this product but I'm hoping its at its worst because at this point I'm already avoiding Coctact with anyone.