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So today marks my (estimated) one week follow-up! Yay!
The dryness issue was getting pretty bad, especially around my temples, but adding the jojoba oil really helped both with the dryness and with applying makeup to cover up redness.
To be totally honest, my skin was looking better. I got stressed out yesterday after a fight with my boyfriend and picked my cheek a little bit, so there are a few more red spots now than there were. I'm sure dermatillomania is no stranger to the folks here. Usually I can keep mine under control (or at least off my face), but a big stressful event can trigger a major episode.
The left side of my face (which is usually clear for the most part) is completely clear. My forehead has cleared up quite a bit as well. My most severe spots, the right cheek and the chin, are still pretty bad. My chin in particular is just terrible. I'm trying to work out why that location is so hot right now. I don't touch it throughout the day and brush my teeth a lot (I heard oral hygiene can mess with the chin), but I still get a new pimple there every few days without fail.
I am extremely fair skinned, so my skin is pretty blotchy and red right now. It's really difficult to distinguish between active blemishes and scars. I was considering using an at-home Glycolic Acid peel next weekend to see if I can reduce the visibility of those just a bit.
I've been taking pictures every couple of days to document the progress (if any), but again, I still am too embarassed to post a picture of myself.
However, this past week was a big event for me. My school tuition includes a membership to a pretty nice on-campus gym, so I decided to bite the bullet and start working out on the elliptical before class/clinic every day. However, I know that working out with makeup on is a big no-no and not worth it. Unfortuantely, I am a grad student at a school full of very attractive (and wealthy!) undergrads who look like movie stars with no makeup on. Walking into the gym that first morning with a bare face was completely terrifying. The entire time I was convinced that everyone must just be thinking about how awful my acne looked or how grossed out they were by me.
Then, I went up to rent a lock from a student worker, anticipating his being totally revolted by me, and was completely taken aback when he was totally nice. In fact, everyone I interacted with was friendly. Nobody stopped and gawked at my skin - even after it was even more red and blotchy after working out. The entire experience forced me to recognize that obsessing over my skin and what other people think of it is selfish. It assumes the worst in people. It assumes that I am important enough for my skin's apperance to really matter to anyone else. IT DOESN'T!
I've gone a few more times since then and, not going to lie, I still feel uncomfortable going in with no makeup on, but it's getting easier. Maybe soon I'll work my way up to running errands bare-faced. I may just need to eat a little more humble pie, first. Mmmm.
Okay. That's all. I'll update in a few days!