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  1. when I talk to people either they are nice and I talk to them for awhile and end up never hearing from them again or they just ignore me 
    some people have even blocked me for just saying hi
    does everyone else have a life but me ? 
    it's just sad even here I am the freak nobody wants to talk to
    seems there is something besides my acne that people find repulsive 
    seems like I am not a human being 
    seems like i am trash on the street for everyone to ignore
    i just wanted one friend from here
    is that too much to ask ? 
    i have posted and messaged a link to my Facebook profile so many times 
    the links are tough to write every time but I do it
    in my last blog post I had complained about my friend but it seems like she is the only besides my parents and sisters to care about me
    despite her being perfect she seems to understand my pain
    understand how much I need a friend
    i am just so angry
    i rather people just outright ignore me than get my hopes up
    do anyone talk to each other here ?
    what's the point of all this ?

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    I've been thinking about and meaning to make an update for so long but haven't got around to it lol.

    Anyways! I last posted around 15 days ago and a lot has happened on my face since then. ALOT of bad but a lot of good too. I went and got that facial extraction done on Thursday the 17th that I told you guys about and she removed let's say 85-90% of the bumps. I wasn't expecting her to get rid of them all because I know that's unrealistic considering there was probably about 200 all over my face. So she definitely did all she could and some small ones have stayed but that's okay because it's so much better now and I have faith these'll come out in time one by one, and if they look ready here and there I can attempt to extract them myself. My face was SO red coming out of that appointment and I had to bus AND subway home so I literally wrapped a scarf around my face up to my eyes. There was no way anyone was seeing that! The next day I woke up with such a dry face and Saturday it was even worse. My whole face was SO dry that it was plain gross to look at. And that Saturday my family and I were leaving to go to Niagara because we had a family day weekend planned. I didn't wear makeup that weekend except for when we went out to dinner at a fancy steakhouse. We also went to the waterpark which was painful because I know everyyybody was looking at my face. I think the chlorine from the pool helped my face though. It would've been a really fun weekend if my face was clear but its not so it was just decent. The crazy dryness had stopped by the time we left Niagara which was Monday and ever since then my face has just been continuing to heal. There's not many active pimples right now, it's more so just red marks on my face. My face is actually really smooth right now, and I have extracted a few pimples myself since that appointment and it's went pretty well. I have a pimple on my cheek that just won't turn into a whitehead but I'm just not going to touch it until I see something change. Most of my pimples come and go pretty quickly but new ones just come back. However, I've noticed that I'm not waking up with 3 new pimples every day recently so that's great. It just sucks because these dark spots have covering most of my cheeks looks like acne but it's not so on photos and to others it doesn't even look like I've made any progress. I really hope they'll fade sooner than later.

    The ear eczema Accutane has given me has been really annoying. I got a eczema cream to put in my ears to combat the dryness but now I can barely hear cause of it! I'm fairly certain the cream has dried and just blocked my ear passage. I definitely have to go to the doctor soon because it is becoming incredibly difficult while trying to go about my day. I can't hear my coworkers most of the time and sometimes my customers. It's quite upsetting. Also my shoulder pain has been kinda bad lately which is hard to deal with too. I've always had it, Accutane has just increased it. I'm also starting to get more and more worried about drinking on Accutane because of what I'm reading on this fb group I'm a part of. My manager also told me he was on Accutane, drank on it and ruined his stomach lining because of it. I really don't want my stomach or liver to get messed up because of Accutane but I still want a drink or two here and there! Ugh.
    Well I think that's all for now guys, I'll update again soon hopefully.
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    I've just re read my blog '26' and i spoke about my PD in that, in-between blog 26 and 27 my PD flared up and went down. The ACV and zinc soap did manage it to a certain extent, but the skin where it had been was not healing and stayed dry/shiny. It's only since I've cut out all SLS that my skin has completely gone back to normal, this is the first time it's looked normal in about 7 months! 

  2. Hey guys,

    So I'm now on my 3rd week and still feeling fab. My skin is completely clear (aside from old marks) still and I am LOVING the no oil. My make up stays perfect ALL day! :)

    My hair has started to dry out a little this week but I have started putting a few drops of jojoba oil with my conditioner which sorts it out straight away. My lips are slightly chapped but barely bother me as long as I have a balm on. My favourite is still Blistex - Intensive Moisture, this stuff is brilliant and makes my lips silky smooth. 

    I have experienced no dry skin on my body at all and barely any on my face either. In fact, the texture of my face is lovely. It is so soft and smooth!

    I am still using the same products and I swear by jojoba oil. It is the BEST stuff ever and can be used for everything. It is also 100% organic which is a bonus.

    On top of my Accutane treatment, I am also on my 4th week of quitting smoking which I am super proud of. I definitely feel this has contributed to the current condition of my skin.

    I have an appointment with my dermatologist Friday so will update after with my progress!

    See pictures attached from a couple of days ago.



    Hi there I'm 22 years old and I've been suffering from acne from around the age of 15. It was bad and cystic at times but it was still manageable and used to come and go. During this time I was still using cosmetic facial products and benzoyl peroxide continuously and my face was very oily all the time.  

    Anyhow, about 5 months ago my acne got servilely worse. I had sore cysts all across my forehead and all across my chin and the sides of my mouth. I felt disgusting and didn't want to leave the house I didn't know what to do.
    I went out and bought continuous chemical laden face products that only made my skin worse and tried numerous diets and pills in a bid to clean up my acne. 

    However these were the only things that helped me and I must urge you if you have sudden cystic hormonal acne to do the same!!

    1) girls-  go and get your hormone levels checked at your doctors- I found out I had high testosterone and this was the cause of my acne- pcos 
    2) girls- if you have pcos or high testosterone have a test to make sure you are not insulin resistant. 
    3) if you have the time and the money try and find a naturopath 
    4) take a GOOD QUALITY probiotic supplement- most ordinary supplements can be laden with other chemicals- a good brand I use is biocare or physica energetics- they are more pricey but worth it- make sure they are good companies- and gluten free 
    5) go on an elimination diet to help with inflammation
    - this means for me- foods you can eat include: veg (except the nightshades), fruit (try and cut down on this though 1-2 pieces a day), coconut containing products- (look out for added ingredients like anything with gum at the end), (chicken and turkey), quinoa, buckwheat, amaranth, millet, occasionally rice if you don't have a problem with it 
    foods to avoid: sugars (including natural e.g. dried fruit, honey), ALCOHOL, red meat, NUTS and seeds, legumes, eggs, gluten and grains- (especially gluten), diary, fizzy drinks- etc any thing with preservatives in 
    6) stop washing your face with chemicals! I only use rose water and rosehip oil- as cleanser toners and moisturisers and makeup removers(I tried caveman but it made my skin really dry- I think using an oil helps)
    7) stop picking your skin- (I know this is hard and something I've really struggled with but just really try!!)
    8) start using natural products- e.g. shampoo, conditioner, shower gel, makeup 
    9) invest in a good vitamin C supplement e.g from biocare
    10) invest in a good vitaminD supplement e.g from biocare
    11) invest in a good magnesium and calcium supplement e.g from physica energetics (this helped with stress and sleep) and really got rid of ALL my acne- do try this 

    Now I only have marks left from old acne and the occasional pimple which is a lot easier to deal with! Good luck everyone acne is hard but it IS curable. 
  4. Also, does anyone know if your oil/collagen/sebum barrier has anything to do with facial blushing/flushing? I know that accutane ruins your skins natural barrier because it gets rid of oil and such (which is definitely true in my case at least). For that possibility that it has something to do with flushing/blushing, i want to know how to rebuild this barrier NATURALLY. I have def learned natural is the way to go. TIPS FOR REBUILDING COLLAGEN? SEBUM?

  5. Brigitte18
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    It's the very beginning of week five and holy crap, my skin is so clear! There are still a few tiny scabs and red dots where some blemishes are still healing but I don't have any active pimples. My skin tone is very even as well, and I've noticed that I have almost zero clogged pores! That's such a miracle to me because in the past even when my skin was perfectly clear, I always had clogged pores in my problem areas. This is such a relief to me because now when my skin clears up it won't breakout again because there's nothing lurking inside my skin. The last little purging bumps on my forehead are beginning to subside and will be almost completely clear I hope in out a week. Don't give up on this stuff! It really does seem to be working! I will post a picture of my skin when it's finally cleared up hopefully in the next week or two. 

  6. End of week 7 and barely any change. Frustrating but just means that the lymecycline and epiduo combination is probably not working. Had a flare up this weekend which is super fun! But trying to keep a positive attitude as hopefully my skin will show some changes soon :)


  7. Hello again!

    So I have used BP for a week now. I don't see any notable differences in my skin, which I'm fine with considering that it usually takes a month before people see results. I'm gonna start using BP both in the morning and the evening from now one.

    These are the products I'm using:
    Cleanser - Basiderm Oil Control Foam Wash
    Benzoyl Peroxide - Basiron 5% AC Wash
    Moisturizer - Basiderm Oil Control Daily Moisturizer

    I haven't really changed anything in my lifestyle, except that I'm trying to drink less milk and trying to not touch my face as much.

    I'll do an update with pictures when I start seeing notable results.


  8. Sound terrifying, right? Just something about the words "acid/chemical peel" and "face" together just makes me envision a burn victim or something.  It actually went fine.  Surprisingly fine (well, I guess not surprisingly, since I read a lot of reviews about doing mandelic acid peels at home, and made sure I knew what I was doing.)
    So WHY a mandelic acid peel? Well, a few weeks ago, as I was staring at my oodles and oodles of closed comedones on the side of my mouth, I remember thinking back to when I had the same problem on my forehead.  I got sunburned, and when the skin peeled off, my forehead was much more smooth and nicer.  So, I started reading up on chemical peels for acne.  It's probably one of the ONLY things I have not used in an attempt to treat my acne.  After much reading, I decided that mandelic acid was the best fit for my skin: it's very mild, which is great for sensitive/dry skin and it helps with closed comedones.  PERFECT.  I ordered a bottle of it from the website Makeup Artists Choice and waited for it to arrive.  (I will also say, this website has good customer service, so if you have any questions about what you're doing, you can email them and they will help you out.)
    First, I did a test patch on my arm to make sure that I wouldn't have a reaction to the product.  Three days later, nothing happened, so I decided to put some on my face.  Now, I will stop here and say, if you are going to do this, you have to stop all other acne treatments and exfoliation at least 24 hours beforehand.  I made sure to do that, and then I just applied the peel along the right side of my face, where I have some blackhead issues.  I figured if I had a reaction on my face, at least then it's only in one spot and not the entire face.  You apply the peel with a q-tip: you just dip the q-tip in the bottle and then spread it across the area.  Wait three to five minutes (I waited three) then rinse it off well with soap or whatever cleanser you use on your face.  It did not burn or tingle while it was on, and I had no adverse reactions over the next couple of days.  I had a bit of mild peeling (just the slightest) but that was it.
    So, three days after that, I decided to take the plunge and put it on the areas around my mouth that have the terrible closed comedones I am trying to hard to get rid of.  I've been using Tactuo around that area for about a month now, and it has been working, just very slowly.  Well, after applying that peel, it definitely  got things.. erm... moving, so to speak.  The comedones have FINALLY began to come to a head.  I got two or three on one side of my face, then they began to heal, then got two or three on the other side of my face, and now those are healing, and now more are coming to a head.  FINALLY.  So, I guess this product is excellent for purging your skin, just be sure not to do it right before you have to go somewhere where you have to look like a human being.  I hate the fact that every single little bump on my face has to turn into a full-blown zit and make my skin look WORSE, but it always seems you have to make your skin worse before it gets better, in terms of fighting acne.
    As of now, the comedones are roughly 75% cleared out on the right side of my face, and about 50% on the left side.  Which is great.  It's nice to finally see progress, especially after a month of just getting a random spot here and there, but still having so, so many whiteheads everywhere.  I think I will continue to use the peel every ten days or so until all this nonsense is cleared out.  Then I may continue to use to it maintain my skin, but we will cross that bridge when we get to it.
    The rest of my face is doing well.  I recently changed around my skin care routine.  After months and months of denial, I finally decided it was time to say goodbye to the Cerave cream.  The moisturizer and face cleanser is great, but the cream, not so much.  It most definitely gives me closed comedones.  Don't know why, it's not supposed to, but after reading on the internet, it apparently does this to a lot of people.  And with how dry my skin has been this winter, I need a heavy cream for my face.  I ordered a facial cream from a company called Era Organics, and it's aimed towards eczema mainly, but it says it's good for all skin types/conditions.  So far, it's been good.  I also stopped occasionally using my Burt's Bees cleansers.  There's something about Burt's Bees products that also give me closed comedones like crazy.  I don't know why I keep buying their products, I think it's because their eye cream is so great, I just think all the other products will be too, but it turns out that it not the case.  Anyways, the whole point of this long-winded paragraph is that I have hopefully gotten rid of the products that were contributing more to my clogged pores.  So far, so good.

  9. Here is a list of haircare, skincare, and supplemental products that I will be using during my Accutane treatment.  If anybody has any further product recommendations, please comment below!

    It's A 10 Miracle Moisture Shampoo and Conditioner (moisturizing)
    Joico K-Pak Shampoo and Conditioner (protein)
    Obliphica Professional Seaberry Mask (deep conditioning/repair)
    Head & Shoulders Dry Scalp Care Clinical Solutions Anti-Dandruff Shampoo (only  if dandruff occurs)
    Nizoral Anti-Dandruff Shampoo (only if dandruff occurs)

    I have not decided how often I plan to shampoo/condition or how often I intend to use each of these products, though I currently have extremely oily hair and shampoo/condition daily.  I will likely be attempting to cut back to 2-3 times per week depending on how my hair responds.

    Aveeno Baby Cleansing Therapy Moisturizing Wash
    Cetaphil Gentle Cleanser
    SkinCeuticals Gentle Cleanser

    Kiehl's Crème De Corps (body)
    Kiehl's Ultra Facial Cream (face)
    Kiehl's Ultimate Strength Hand Salve (hands, feet, and nails)
    Kiehl's Intensive Treatment and Moisturizer for Dry or Callused Areas (for problem dry spots if they come up)
    SkinCeuticals Hydrating B5 Gel (face)

    Aveeno Active Naturals Therapeutic Shave Gel
    Merkur Safety Razor
    FEATHER Hi-Stainless Platinum Double Edge Razor Blades
    Wahl Peanut Clipper/Trimmer
    Wahl Professional 5 Star Shaver

    Honestly, a bit nervous to continue using the safety razor and platinum blades to get a close shave.  No idea what disposable razors I might use.

    Lip Balms
    Jack Black
    Nova Scotia Fisherman

    Aveeno Active Naturals Soothing Bath Treatment (only if my skin gets really flakey/itchy)

    I will probably cut some of these products out as my treatment progresses, but I want to start out cleansing very gently and infrequently, while moisturizing pretty aggressively.  I have used all of these products off Accutane with great results, so I am hoping they will maintain their effectiveness.

    Biotics Research Bio-B Complex (B complex vitamin)
    Biotics Research Bio-E-Mulsion Forte (E vitamin)
    Biotics Research Bio-D-Mulsion (D Vitamin)
    Biotics Research Fe-Zyme (iron, copper, zinc vitamin for chronic anemia)

  10. I just want to cry.

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    I'm 27 about to turn 28. I started getting acne while pregnant with my oldest 6 yrs ago. It hasn't gone away and it's just getting worse. I have itchy pimples in my hairline, all over my forehead, my eyebrows, jawline, and I get cystic pimples on my chin quite often. I've tried everything from most drugstore brands, taking antibiotics, clinique, proactive, the oil cleansing method, just water, and well, maybe everything there is to try. I've seen a dermatologist and that did nothing. I guess I should mention I have sensitive skin as well. I can't use fragrances or I'll break out with eczema rashes. Every now and then I will try something with fragrance just praying it will clear up my acne but it never does. I'm at a loss. I'm giving up. I'm going to just go back to using Dove sensitive skin bar and pray that one day my acne will magically go away. I'm over trying new things, spending all kinds of money and time on new things for nothing. OVER IT 

  11. So here is my story. I've been battling acne since the age of 18. Initially my acne was not too bad, i had few breakouts on my forehead, but still it made me feel very uncormfortable.I went to see a dermatologist and he prescribed  tetraysal antibiotic for almost 2 years, which has helped me a lot. No blemishes at all while taking it. I stopped taking it and my acne was under control until i got married at 22. since then my acne has changed. i started having small cycts on my chin. I' ve used a number of harsh anti acne lotions; clean and clear, murad, ZO skin name it. it helped me only for a bit. no success with cycts.  i gave birth in 2015 and after that my acne went crazy. i started having cysts on my cheeks!!!!! my cheeks used to be so beautiful and now they are covered by pimples and scars from them. So i've tried everything; dairy free diet, candida diet, gluten free diet, sugar free diet. nothing helped. i've tried doing accupunture, regular sports, drinking lots of water- nothing. i even went to see a naturopath and paid lots of money to get supplements and vitamins against acne. It does help but only a little bit, my acne is not under control. it gets worse when i ovulate and when i menstruate.  I am so against taking accutane, but sometimes i think it is the only option that i have... i feel desperate and ugly. my skin looks horrible. i lost confidence and i feel so sad all the time. i try to approach my problem by using natural and chemical free products, eating organic food... but it does not help. i am so depressed i don't know what to do

  12. Even though i have some kind of allergy/eczema/atopic dermatitis going on in my face and neck... (My allergist confirmed that to me weeks ago), Diane-35 has helped me A LOT with my acne, so I´m happy to take it. The weight gain is the only side effect i´m having right now! But not other side effects for the moment.

    Do someone know what to eat/not to eat when you have atopic dermatitis? I´m confused with this disease...

    Thank you!

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    I had an appointment on Monday, and I just want to say that this meeting made me incredibly upset. I almost cried in the office. So first of all, the reason why I went to this appointment was because I wanted accutane. I've been on tretnoin for years and this November I tried minocycline, both helped had very small changes. The doctor refused to prescribe the medicine and told me accutane was a last resort, he gave me a higher prescription of tretnoin and new topical that started with a C. I'm not doubting the doctor's orders, but what will a topical do for my body acne? I feel anxious that I'm never going to get rid of the body acne. It really makes me feel insecure, sometimes I break down when I look at how bad my body acne is. 

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    Once upon a time there was a normal happy studious girl with large spectacles :D yup me!!. When I was doing my ninth grade, there was a friend of mine who seriously had lot of pimples. At that time, I didnt even know what acne meant. Even now I remember that day clearly,

    me: whoa, you seriously have many boils in your face..
    friend: even you have some small things on your forehead..
    me: (feeling proud)haa! not as bad as yours... these dont even qualify as boils....
    friend : (sad face)..

    That time I didnt know, 6 months afterwards my face would  look something similar to hers.  Now  I seriously regret those words that came out of my mouth that day. I just wish I could go back in time and take those words back. Now I have finished college and yep Iam continuously battling (roughly around 7years) with acne, scars, hypopigmentation, hyperpigmentation and everything. When My relatives or friends comment about my acne, "I JUST FORGIVE THEM". Because I have done the exact same thing some few years back, I didnt even have the slightest idea that I have hurt her in the worst possible way.

    PS : I had chickenpox first during the tenth grade, which left hideous scars ofcourse, which was immediately followed by my buddy "pimple",just imagine the combination. My friend missed the amazing transformation of me, as she switched schools that year. #murphy's law #karma

  13. achristinaaa
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    My skin seems to be clearing up again some... all the big pimples I had last week are now gone yay! I just had a couple whiteheads on my right cheek & I did squeeze them :| But I want them gone!
    I know Accutane makes it take longer to heal after you pop you pimples but usually once I pop them, they dry out & go away & then the skin peels off & it lightens the scar.

    Did any of you notice you guys broke out more while on accutane if you ate junk? 

  14. When it comes to treatment, amoxicillin for acne is very common. Many dermatologists prescribe this oral antibiotic to their patients with acne. But the question may still remain, is it effective to treat acne? Well, to find the answer we need to know the nature of acne and this antibiotic first.

    Acne, a common skin problem consists of two different types according to the appearance. The first is non-inflammatory acne or comedonal acne. It includes whiteheads (closed comedones) and blackheads (open comedones). The blackheads occur in skin with partial blocked pores while whiteheads occur in skin with deeper blockage.

    The second type is inflammatory acnes. These are usually papules, nodules and cysts. Papules are inflamed lesions that are small, pink in color and tender when touched. These are closed inflamed closed comedos. Nodules are large swollen lesions while cysts are deep and painful lesion.

    Amoxicillin for Inflammatory Acnes

    Here comes the truth. Amoxicillin works much more effective for inflammatory acnes and is less effective for non-inflammatory acnes. Why? That’s because this antibiotic doesn’t have the ability to unplug blocked pores that are causing whiteheads and blackheads. Therefore, before you decide to buy this antibiotic at nearby pharmacy, find out whether you have inflammatory or non-inflammatory acnes. You certainly don’t want to pay for nothing, right?

    This antibiotic type can work for inflammatory acnes because it stops the reproductions of the bacteria. As quoted from PimplesRemedyIdeas, this antibiotic kills and immobilizes them at cellular level. When the bacteria are killed, the acne eruptions will no longer happen.

    Amoxicillin is available in the form of pills and cream or lotion. Each has different usage instructions. The cream is used based on your doctors’ instruction. As for the oral antibiotic, it is usually taken twice a day, in the morning and evening. Usually, it takes at least 3 weeks to see the positive effects and 3 months for full recovery. Why? It’s because the acne-causing bacteria are persistent unlike other bacteria. The important thing is the medicine doesn’t show improvement yet in the first couple of weeks. And lots of people decide to give up. So, you’d better wait for at least 3 weeks to see whether it works or not.

    Despite positive results for inflammatory acnes, amoxicillin also have possible side effects like other antibiotics. The most common side effect is rash occurring on the body. It usually happens few minutes after taking the medicine. If you see it happens, stop taking it right away. Some other visible side effects that you need to be aware of are cottony mouth and yeast infection. For sure, it causes side effects for women with pregnancy. Amoxicillin has negative effect for the fetus and disturb the growth. There is also another thing to be aware of. It’s antibiotic resistant. It means the body gets used to amoxicillin causing the drug to be no longer effective. When it occurs, switch to other antibiotics.

    Amoxicillin is similar to other antibiotics. It can be effective for some people and not effective for others depending on the condition. As well as side effects, it can happen and not happen. Therefore, have the dermatologist assistance to determine whether it is the right medicine or not for you.


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    Today I'm on day 19 of 20mg of Zenatane, so middle of 3rd week.  I was supposed to start on 40mg but when I went to my last appointment my doctor decided to start me on 20mg once a day, which I am completely fine with.  I was scared starting this drug again at my age.  Last time when I went on it at the age of 32, I was on 80 mg.  I remember the body aches, nosebleeds  and flushed skin were a problem for me.  I know I had dry skin and chapped lips but they weren't bothersome,  I also remember how quickly my oily skin went away and how quickly my skin cleared,  I don't remember getting an initial breakout.  Now, I work out quite a bit and love to be outdoors so starting on a lower dose should help with symptoms. 

    My acne is under the skin, stubborn acne.  Honestly I sometimes wonder if it is something other than acne.  Tons of bumps on forehead and cheeks that you can feel but not so much see, only in certain lighting and then the occasional breakout around my chin and my temples lately.  None on my cheeks, like when I was younger.

    Week 1:  Not much to report during this week,  I was really hoping for my oily skin to go away which is a huge problem for me.  I could blot my skin every 1 to 2 hours.  It has it pros and cons though.  People always think I'm younger than what I am (must be the oil).^_^

    Week 2: Lips started getting chapped and oil is somewhat down.  Started getting breakouts mid week. I would assume its the initial breakout because these breakouts were cysts and I maybe get a cyst near my chin a few times a year.  These new breakouts were on my cheeks.:smileys_n_people_57:  I was completely scared because of all the pics and horror stories on line of the IB. There have been several days I don't want to leave the house because of the state of my skin especially at my age.  Completely sucks!! I always try to push forward and try to convince my self that no one cares what my skin looks like and I am beautiful.  My whole face also feels rough, yes the sandpaper feeling.  I know its all the gunk coming out and drying up but why must I get new massive pimple too????

    Week 3 Day 19: I gently exfoliated in the shower at the beginning of this week.  So  much skin came off and a lot of those clogged pores are clear now.  My skin was pretty red after the shower but it felt good to remove some of the dead skin.  I was super gentle too.  I just rubbed off the skin with my fingers and face wash.  I have a couple of pretty stubborn cysts on my left cheek that wont budge.  They've gone down in size but are just hanging around. The few below my  bottom lip are drying up and I have a pretty big pimple that showed up on my forehead a couple days ago.  It has a white head but I will not pick.  Ill just let the beast dry up.  I've learned if I pick my skin it just gets irritated and the red marks takes longer to heal.  Plus I don't want anymore scars. Also sometimes even if it looks like its ready to pop it really isn't and the whole area just becomes swollen and so much worse.  No thank you!!  My skin is a little flushed and lips aren't to bad.
    I'll list the products I've been using in my next post.  Hope you all are doing well!

  15. Readysteadylove
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    I made it to the end of Week 2 and I'm much happier with my skin. 

    Took some side profile pictures as well to get a better look at my cheek areas (one of these days I might work up the nerve to post my full face).  In this lighting you can definitely see some of the flakey skin that I've been dealing with but it's not nearly as bad as it had been.  No active lesions on my face, just lots of red spots from old acne. They seem to already be fading compared to last week.

    This past week is typically when I start to see a flare up in my acne but so far, nothing new has really cropped up other than a few white heads that were easily removed and didn't leave behind any marks or redness.

    I seem to be having a much much better experience this time than I have in he past. I think the biggest difference is that I'm much more patient and I'm treating my skin far more gently.

    Yesterday was my 2-year anniversary with my fiancé and looking at some of our photos today, I'm really, really happy. I did wear makeup out to dinner last night but normally it doesn't "cover all". My face looks nearly flawless now when done up. Hopefully my skin can someday look that way too, without the coverup. Fingers crossed.  


  16. I'm noticing some improvement for the acne that is on my forehead and cheeks. There is still acne,  but they have minimized! I have experienced flaking,  but it seems to lessen every week.  I hope there will be more improvement for my acne soon. 
    I am becoming a little bit more comfortable without concealer. I still wear some light eye makeup on the weekend,  but I am adjusting to not having face makeup. For school,  I use a mixture of Maybelline Age Rewind Concealer in Fair and Maybelline Fit Me Concealer in Light. I mix these two because the Maybelline Fit Me Concealer in Light is kinda dark and a tad bit orange. I think if I got the Maybelline Fit Me Concealer in Fair,  I would use it solely because it has good coverage by itself. To set my face,  I use Physicians Formula Mineral Wear Talc-Free Mineral Airbrushing Pressed Powder SPF 30 in Transparent. Transparent is dark and it's supposed to be the lightest shade,  so when I use the powder,  I tap off the excess powder from my brush.  It keeps my makeup on for school,  but it doesn't combat the oiliness I get throughout the day.  I also smells really strongly of sunscreen. That is just my face makeup routine for school and I hope everyone has a positive day! ❤
    xx Shelby xx

  17. Writing this I have a heavy heart. I wanted so bad for this to work, knowing I believe in holistic = health = happiness but I have ended this water only regimen at around day 62. So 2.5 ish months. Although my facial redness and facial oiliness decreased significantly doing this regimen, I can say with confidence that, for myself, it did not prevent acne. After my infection cleared, I realized I still had some bumps that had not disappeared and had been around since the start of the infection so I ran to the clinic and the doctor reassured me that the infection was gone but that I am now dealing with mod severe cystic acne on my face... I never really had a cystic issue before the oil cleansing ordeal. He suggested accutane. this has really been a struggle for me and I have tried almost everything so I am finally at a point where yes, I am in fact considering accutane. I have such an inner conflict about this medication, and have put it off for several years until now. 

    I'm mad at my body because I gave it every chance at healing itself holistically and on its own without having to come to a point of using the tane. The long term effects of accutane scare the heck out of me but my acne has also held me back from so much in life and changed my personality from an outgoing social butterfly to someone who would rather chill alone all the time watching Netflix. So I really need to weigh the pros and cons. I do not feel that my face exudes how I feel inside- inside, I'm confident with who I am, I love myself, I'm happy, yet I look in the mirror and I remember that I have acne and it brings me down. I'm really over it all, I want to look outside with the same confidence of how I feel inside for once in my 9 years of struggling with this disease. I wanted to know what the heck caused my acne but I just can't figure it out. I see the derm in 2 weeks to get the blood work rolling for the tane... In the meantime the doc gave me Epiduo, which surprisingly had deceased a lot of the active cystic bumps, but my face is really red tight and hurts... Very dry so right back to where we started prior to the water only.  

    The only thing left is to check my hormones out I guess, or get an allergy test done prior to going on accutane. A person only has so much energy to put into one thing and I am so sick of having this control my thoughts daily and affect me from doing what I want to do and what I would normally do. I deserve, and you guys deserve... All of us with skin diseases, deserve to look in the mirror and be proud and happy with how we look. I fought it off emotionally for many years but this year it's really coming to a head. Haha excuse the pun. My bf did accutane about 4 years ago and his skin is so soft and clear and I can't see a pore on his face. He doesn't seem to be dealing with any adverse long term side effects (yet anyways). From the research I've done it seems accutane has some mild side effects on the t then people report 5,10 years later some severe side effects pop up (Erectile dysfunction, lack of libido, constant hair thinning, IBS, premature aging and crazier stuff like personality changes, psychotic episodes and permanent mood disorders). Sounds fan-freaking-lovely don't it. but again correlation does not equal causation... There's always a lot of factors that play into someone developing a condition later in life. 

    I don't want to promote this medication because it is very very serious and really needs a lot of thought put into it before you choose to go this route.If anyone is following this blog and has tried accutane please comment below and let me know if it was worth it or what long term side effects if any you are dealing with. I've read a lot of horror stories and I'm scared to poison my body... Thank to all for following this blog. Hope the water only is working better at clearing your acne

  18. Even if you're eating right, getting enough sleep and a bit of exercise, those breakouts can be super sneaky. Nothing is more frustrating than having these acnes just before your big event day or job interview. If you are pressed for time and are looking for options to get glowing skin overnight then you must consider these tips that help you get glowy skin overnight:

    1. Clear Oils and Dirt From Your Skin

    Wash your face twice a day to remove the dust and oils and always wash your face before bed. If you're not washing away all the dirt and sweat from the day, you're asking for a breakout. Stash cleansing wipes on your nightstand for nights when you're too tired to move. 

    2. Skin Tightening Face Mask

    Whip up a spa-worthy mask right in your own home using strawberries and yogurt to help smooth bumps and unclog pores. 

    3. Hydrate Your Skin 

    A dry face is much more prone to wrinkles and aging. Simply wash your face before you sleep and applying a rich, non-pore clogging lotion with anti-aging properties will make a huge difference in the texture of your skin. 

    4. Spot Treatment

    Before bed, use a spot treatment containing a combination of sulfur and salicylic acid. After cleaning your face with this treatment lotion, use a Q-tip to apply a spot treatment directly to any budding blemishes. 

    5. Use A Clay Mask

    The ingredients will penetrate deep into your skin and clean out excess oil and bacteria. This can also double as an exfoliator to open pores and get rid of the gunk clogged inside. 

    6. Oatmeal Mask

    Combine cooked oatmeal with lemon juice and egg. The oatmeal's antioxidants will bring down swelling, while the acid in the lemon kills bacteria in your pores and the vitamin E in the egg will tighten your pores and shrink the size. 

    These are the few tips that help you get back your glow naturally and prevent such acne problems without even using any treatment cream.
  19. After a major mental breakdown about two weeks ago, I finally went to see a derm and asked her to put me on accutane. I told her that I had never been on anything prescription-strength, but I wanted to go on accutane right away because I had had enough of this dirty face. The doctor did not decline my request, but told me that I would have to wait for a month anyway for two negative pregnancy test results before I could start taking the drug. She prescribed Doxycycline - an antibiotics, and told me to wait patiently until one month later. 

    I started taking Doxy a week ago. I noticed that those giant cysts on my face have been calming down. I'm under a lot of stress lately, and could not resist the temptation of drinking coffee. Good news is, I have not gotten any major breakouts after having a cup of coffee or two. I think the antibiotics is working, but I understand that once I stop taking it, those pus-filled giant cysts will soon come back. Last night I looked into the mirror and thought, maybe I don't have to go on accutane? My face now is nowhere near clean. There are still cysts, whiteheads and marks, but less painful. I'd be kind of happy for it to just heal slowly like this. However, I know that this is only a band-aid solution. Doxy is not a cure. I will have to go on accutane eventually, and I'd rather do it soon. This is my last few months in college. I can choose to suffer through these few months and the summer, and have a new self the I start grad school in the fall. 

    Anyway, I've become much more social even after my face only cleared up a tiny bit. I'm actually head out for dinner with friends tonight - which never happened before with those people. I'm genuinely happy. 

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    I'm a big skin picker. It's gross, it's making my acne worse, it's making my scarring worse, it's making it harder to apply makeup,  but my studies are so stressful that without even knowing it I pick my pimples and ruin all the work I've put into making it go away. I have yet to find a solution to my skin picking problem. 

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