http://www.acne.org/messageboard/blog/6699-my-journey-ampicillin-diet-vitamins-and-the-regimen/ My Journey: Ampicillin, Diet, Vitamins, and The Regimen Syndication Wed, 27 Feb 2013 18:14:21 +0000 webmaster@acne.org (Acne.org Message Boards) IP.Blog 60 http://www.acne.org/messageboard/blog/6699/entry-25708-acne-crushed-my-self-esteem/  
I am at a point where I can't look in the mirror without crying sometimes. I feel so, so ugly. I am so upset that I can't control my skin. I'm trying everything, and I slather my face with lotion before bed...yet I wake up to deep, cystic lumps and whiteheads that are massive and filled with pus is seemingly random places. I can't do this anymore! I feel like my life has stopped until I can get this under control. I don't go out anymore because I don't want anyone to see my face, I can't imagine dating anyone with my skin being such a mess. 
 
I am in the process of starting Accutane, yet it's been three months so far and it will be another two of paperwork and blood tests before I can actually start the medicine. I'm wary of the side effects, but I cannot continue living with severe acne, it's not really living. 
 
Acne has completely crushed my self-esteem.]]> Wed, 27 Feb 2013 18:04:00 +0000 http://www.acne.org/messageboard/blog/6699/entry-25708-acne-crushed-my-self-esteem/