http://www.acne.org/messageboard/blog/5916-birdh12s-blog/ Thu, 14 Mar 2013 23:49:18 +0000 webmaster@acne.org (Forums) IP.Blog 60 http://www.acne.org/messageboard/blog/5916/entry-25826-dermatillomania/  
I have become so numb to the pain of my addiction  I just want to wake up happy. For once, I want to wake up and see the sunlight without having to feel embarrassed by the results of obsessing over my skin the night before. I am so ashamed that my mind, body, and soul do not have the strength to overcome this sickness. I feel so helpless that this monster inside of me has attacked my life for over a year now. God help me, because I can't help myself with the illness of dermatillomania.
 
I have tried numerous amount of options. I do not get acne and my skin is so great, but I destroy it because I try way too hard to be perfect. It's a cycle I cannot break. I will overuse products and irritate my skin, then I see the irritation, and I pick. I'll pick at it until it bleeds, then when scabs appear, I'll pick at it some more. 
 
I know the consequences of me picking, but WHY CAN'T I STOP? Why can't I overcome this habit of obsessing over my skin? I am so helpless at this point. ]]> Thu, 14 Mar 2013 21:41:00 +0000 http://www.acne.org/messageboard/blog/5916/entry-25826-dermatillomania/