Life as an Acneful College Student

I'm Still Ugly! And I'm Back!

Thu, 28 Feb 2013 07:44:06 +0000

I've been feeling down lately because my face isn't getting better. I feel disgusting. Why is it so difficult to be pretty? I wish my skin would clear up. It been so long. Why am I still suffering? ;(

I'm Still Ugly! And I'm Back!

Thu, 28 Feb 2013 07:44:05 +0000

I'm Still Ugly! And I'm Back!

Thu, 28 Feb 2013 07:44:05 +0000

I'm Still Ugly! And I'm Back!

Thu, 28 Feb 2013 07:44:00 +0000

My Current Regime/garnier Bb Cream Review! (Video)

Sun, 17 Jun 2012 05:39:00 +0000

PLEASE FEEL FREE TO ASK ME MORE QUESTIONS. I WILL TRY MY BEST TO ANSWER THEM

Nothing But Awesome News :d

Mon, 04 Jun 2012 03:30:00 +0000

I QUIT DOXYCYCLINE. For personal feminine reasons. If you're a girl you know exactly what side effect of Doxy I'm talking about. Lets just say it was pretty damn painful. I'm planning to go back on it again eventually when my feminine problem goes away and I'm no longer paranoid.

I also started using Garnier Frutis BB Cream. I love that stuff. Absolutely love it. I wear it to the gym, where I met THE HANDSOMEST GUY EVER! I was working out and I was only wearing BB cream. It doesn't have heavy coverage, so he could see my crap ass face. He asked for my number and we've been talking every day since. I have high self esteem.... for now

I quit using Benzoyl Peroxide/Clyndamycin. I use it now and then around my menstration.

I love love love Tretnoin right now. It is my savior. Nothing more amazing has been created for my damn face, except for Accutain of course. I go days without anything on my face. Those are my best days.

Right now the BB Cream is my one love, my hero, my amazing amazing favortiest product ever. If you don't know what it does, look it up. My scars are fading away. Oh thank you sweet baby Jesus for BB Cream. I love it. ♥

I Lost Track Of The Days ;(

Sun, 22 Apr 2012 16:45:22 +0000

I've noticed a huge difference In my skin. I don't know if it's the Doxycycline or the benzoyl peroxide. When I wash my skin it's actually SOFT! I was mind blown. I'm starting to work out again (Yay Gym). I noticed less acne when I used to work out in high school. I just wear the benzaclin and a tinted moIsturizer:) sorry if this blog has a lot of grammar errors; I'm using my iPod at the gym.

Day 6-My Bullsh** Regime (I Hate It Now)

Wed, 11 Apr 2012 04:55:00 +0000

My Regime Consists of:
Doxycycline 100MG twice a day
A mixture of BP and Clyndamycin
Night time cream: Tretnoin (Retna-A)

Cleanser: Olay Sesitive Skin
Moisturizer: Pond's/ELF Tintied Moisturizer

Diet: I've gone a week without Milk. I work in a sandwich shop that provides free sammiches, sooo I can't stay away from cheese.

I hate my face. HATE IT. MY lips are dry. The area around my lips/chin is dry. My eye area is dry. Last night I opted out from using Tretnoin and this morning I didn't use BP/Clyndamycin. I just moisturized. My face. Is. So. Damn. Dry. So is my throat. I'm always thirsty and licking my lips. Which isn't good because I talk to tons of people everyday because of my job. Which I feel shitty about at the moment. ;(

I'm not breaking out as much. The bumps on my chin became white heads while I was working, so I came home to thier wonderful suprise visit. FUUUUUUUU ;( 22 more days to go with this crap. LET IT BE OVER ALREADY. GIVE ME ACCUTANE. GIVE ME A CLEAR FACE!

Day 4-Doxycycline, Clindamycin, Bp, And Tretnoin Regime

Sun, 08 Apr 2012 07:20:00 +0000

Yeah. I'm starting to hate this. Ziana and Tretnoin didn't dry out my skin as bad as it is now. I applied my regular make up routine to go to work and my EYE AREA BURNED. It hurt so bad. It stung to put on primer. I hate this already. I put on some moisturizer instead of Tretnoin on my eye lids. Maybe they'll be better tomorrow?

I have two huge zits on my chin. They hurt so much But with make up they don't hurt as much. Nor do I see them

Other than those two zits, I seee SOMEWHAT of a difference. Not enough though. I need to see my face clear by next month or I'm going on Accutane. I'm sick of this crap.

I did find bareMinerals on Ebay for fifteen bucks! That made my day Thank you internet!

Day One: Benzyol Peroxide + Clyndamycin + Doxycycline + Tretnoin (New 30 Day Regime)

Thu, 05 Apr 2012 21:11:00 +0000

So the day is almost over. Well not really. I woke up late and I had to go somewhere so I washed my face and mixed Benzoyl Peroxide and Clyndamycin together and slathered that crap on my face. Then I waited for it to dry before I applied moisturizer and tinted moisturizer then my BareMinerals Make up. As soon as I got in the car, I felt my face BURN. I have a feeling this isn't gonna end well. (I hate you Col, give me my accutane!)

I did notice when I woke up that the postules around my cheeks were SMALLER. WOAH. I was like "OH MY GAH!" But then I looked at my face after washing it and decided I was still ugly.

I didn't eat breakfast, so I took my first Doxycycline pill after lunch. MMMMM, Seafood♥

I have to give up lactose again, according to the instructions on the pills. NOT excited for that. I love milk, damn it.

I'm gonna look into Accutane some more. I really want it.

I Saw Dr. Col's Caca Face Today

Wed, 04 Apr 2012 22:16:00 +0000

I saw Dr. Col today. I wanted to shove him off a cliff. He is terrible. He gave me BenzaClin and Doxycyline for a month and I get to see his stupid face next month. I hella out smarted him. I laughed. xD He thought Ziana was Benzoyl and Clindamycin and I said No its not. Then he took out his phone and I was right. Take that!
So I asked about accutane. He said we would talk about it next month. He says I have to enroll in the iPledge program and start birth control. I was like what?! Okay lets do it! Then he said no. ;( He did keep asking me if I was sexually active. Then he asked me how old I was. I was a little freaked out o.O Bro, calm your ass down. Lol. Next time I go I'm taking my mommy. Or Daddy. Haha.

So my new Regime is:
Day: BenzaClin + Doxycyline

Night: Tretnoin +Doxycyline

I would update my signature now, but I gotta put on make up so I could go to work. Bye!

Dermatologist Appointment Tomorrow

Wed, 04 Apr 2012 05:41:00 +0000

So tomorrow is the big day. I haven't seen Dr. Col in like two years. I FUCKING HATE HIM. He had an intern look at my face and he gave me a random medication, which I think was Doxycycline and it didn't even work. He didn' t even care. Then a month later he had me go in for no reason. After that I told my primary doctor to shove her recomendation up her fucking ass because I didn't wanna see Dr. Col. He is the worst doctor I have EVER seen. My last Dermatologist (Which I can't see because I can't afford a plane ticket to Mexico) actually helped me. He LOOKED AT MY FACE D:

I got a plan for tomorrow. I'm gonna shove a list of ever medication I have ever taken in Dr. Col's caca face and ask him for a perscription for accutane so I could be on my way. Yes, I know the risks. I hate my face. I just wanna be fucking pretty. I want to fit in. I hate my face. I hate my acne. I just wanna be pretty like my sisters and my cousins. I'm the only one with acne. At work, I'm the only one with acne. At school, I'm the only one with acne. Why can't I just take this magical pill already and fit in? My graduation pictures make me cry. I was so ugly.

Bring it, ACUTANE. I'm ready for you. MAKE ME PRETTY!

I wanna look like the girl in the picutre. That's me before my face became 3 dimentional.

Wow Its Been A While

Fri, 24 Feb 2012 02:12:00 +0000

I haven't came on this site since my last entree! I'm sorry!
Not much has changed. If anything my acne has gotten a bit worse. I still have the same regime. Nothing has changed. I started working out though! I noticed that when i work out, i break out less. Which is good, of course. But I have a job now, which stops me from having time to myself and coming on here.
I went to the doctor today. She perscribed me Epiduo. I don't like BP at all, which I know for a fact that Epiduo contains. I don't know when I'll get it since my pharmacy has to battle my insurance once again for me to get it for free. If not, I might have to pay 200 bucks for it. Which is an entire pay check for me.
I've noticed that I don't edit my photos as much as I used to. They're me again! Yay! But I still have scars and black heads and the occasional break outs. I've been breaking out on my chin, neck, and a bit around my cheeks. It bothers me so much. Well the attached photo is a kind of recent photo of me? I don't remember when I took it. It was back when I was a bit more happier about my acne. Now its all comming back.
I cried again. Which was something I thought I had stopped a while back. We'll see how it goes with Epiduo.
Oh, I forgot to mention. I am going back to the dermatologist that I went to about.... two years ago. He really sucked. My appointment is in April. Omg. I'm going to look around and see if I could find one near me. I hate that guy. He just walked in, looked at me, and walked out. Fu** that guy.

Blog One: How It All Began...

Sun, 02 Oct 2011 04:32:00 +0000

Hello fellow users,
My name is Jessica, but call me Jessikur, I insist.
All throughout high school, I had mild acne. I never really paid attention to it. I washed my face, put on mild acne medications and went on with my life. It wasn't until my Senior year that the horror began. I had a serious boyfriend, I was stressed about school and drama, and all that good stuff. My face.... became the Sierra Mountain Range. I broke out horribly around my chin and cheeks. My forehead too. It was my worst nightmare. I'd cry a lot, pick, and I was a mess.
This past summer I went on a trip to Mexico. It was my worst nightmare. Everywhere I went people stopped me and asked me what happened to my face. Children's comments hurt the most because they told the truth. I then visited a very popular Dermatologist. He said "En tres meses, vas a estrenar una cara nueva!" "In three months, you'll have a new face!". I was thrilled. Finally someone is helping me.
Sure enough, a week later, everything was changing. My face felt great, I came back to the states and my mother was shocked. Its been 14 weeks since the day I saw the dermatologist, and my life has turned around. I wear less make up, my face has cleared up, and my selfesteem is a bit higher.
But i still have one problem..... scars.
This is where I end this blog entree....